I have been wondering for so long whether I should have said something or not, but, since I am bored on this uneventful Sunday afternoon I thought I should –just this once- go for it and not really worry about the outcomes after. So…here goes nothing.

I guess I should start by explaining my reasons of being here.

I was really afraid to start this blog in the beginning, I didn’t really have ‘friends’ at time to even consider writing one, but, since the numbers are ranging up the 40’s I thought I should say “Hey!” as some sort of polite ‘hello’. In my blogs –if I ever make another one after this (and not die of shear and utter embarrassment) - I would just like to keep a small portion of a record of my life; sharing my thoughts, funny moments, sad stories, promotions, new interest, current dreams, etc. with you all. I guess I am just afraid of anyone listening or not.

 And -if anyone is wondering- blogs aren’t just for authors (btw, I am one) but, also for those who want to share the views on economic, political, or social events going on. They just want to share their opinions and hope for the best feedback. I, on the other hand, just want to talk, something I rarely get to do during my real life.

Now, I hope you all don’t get the wrong idea. NO! I am not depressed. NO, I don’t have issues. NO! I don’t get bullied (which I have never been, idk) NO! There is nothing wrong with my family –in which, I love to the death of me. I just, I don’t know, I just don’t talk. I am NOT anti-social, I somehow manage to reel in a healthy amount of good natured people, who I so proudly call my close friends. They ever so often (meaning ALL THE TIME) try and get me to –how you say- `crack my shell’ and ‘spread my wings and become the social butterfly I was meant to be’. Fortunately for me, they fail miserably every single time.

I just don’t really feel comfortable around so much…things! Tall people especially; they just intimidate me so much. With their tall figures peering down over me (note: I am 5`2 and I will embrace my shortness) , they could be send me the most genuine, white pearled smile and I would still want to run away in a dark corner just to catch my breath. Ugh, I sound so pathetic. My friends think I’m cute and always call annoying stuff like adorable, cute, funny (I couldn’t crack a joke to save my life). I think they like how naïve and innocent I can be sometimes; telling them not to curse, making them clean up after themselves. My clingy skinshp… Then they get all appalled when I crack a dirty joke (or at least try), and accidently let a curse spill from my mouth. I really don’t understand them sometimes, and I guess there are time times they don’t understand me. Maybe that’s what makes us all so compatible. *chuckles* I like it.

I love, love, love (see what I did there) music! Especially pop, R&B, and (let’s not forget) KPOP! MY whole life revolves around it. From band -where I play the trumpet- to home –in which I listen to all my music and sing along, whether it be Korean or American- It's an amazing process. My number one ambition in life is to inspire people. Spread my dream across the globe. Not to necessarily be known, but, be heard; let people know that Taylor swift, Justin Bieber, or 5SOS aren’t the only voices out there. Notice, the girl who doesn’t talk wants to be heard, you can see the irony, right?

Idols like Do Kyungsoo (my husband) or Amber Liu inspire me to no limits. They go for their goals not worrying about anything or anyone else. –same for artist like Ed Sheeran or Taylor Swift (celeb crushes). They are all just so...so-I can’t even describe it. I have to learn to swallow that lump in my throat, kill the butterflies in my stomach, and just grip the microphone tighter as my footsteps etch closer to the stage. I should be more proud than nervous as I stand in front of the crowd. That is my ambition, I plan to live it one day. I seriously can’t wait!

I hope I didn’t bore you guys (if anyone is reading this) with all 800 something words. I would just like to thank you all for listening to me and some part of the story of my life. I hope to share more amazing moments with you all so much! Please, if you have any questions or curiosities eating away at you, feel free to ask. I will more than happy to answer. In return, I have a question (or two) of my own: Guess my age? And, based on this, do you guys think you would enjoy any of my stories (if and or when I do?

Thank you all, again! – Taylor

P.S - I am sincerely sorry for the grammer. You see, I am in a hurry because I have not updated my EXO one-shot request book on wattpad in like a week, (which is forever to my readers) so...yeah, I gotta go. *groans in embarrassment* God, I am so awkward