A Dream of A Fear

I think I have a bad habit of judging someone just from my personal observations .. rather then going up and actually talking to someone, I opt to read them with my eyes from a farther distance .. I just

-I don't really give a person the opportunity to shed their true self .. This may be why I am introvert .. I fail to look for the greater good -because I am too scared .. just by a mere glance I deem whether

or not I have enough strength (or possibly courage? .. idk) to approach you .. it's nerve-wrecking enough for me to simply walk up and say "hi" .. my mind creates this infinite number of scenarios of

what could go wrong in that small acquaintance .. I feel as though I am preparing for a battle .. in the end I just discourage myself with all my worries and walk away .. I don't like this feeling .. I do

prefer to be alone, but my father always reminds me I can't always be this way forever .. we get into conversations over how my future basically depends on me to lose this fear -this fear of

communicating, or anything having to do with any sort of interaction .. during these times I tune my ears out while convincing myself none of it will be necessary .. but the more I ponder, I admit to

myself that he's right .. I want to get over this .. I just don't know where to take the first step .. I think of it as an aspiration (because it is a dream of a fear I wish to overcome) .. it's just ...unreachable ..

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pinkissmonsta #1 Dec 29, 2015 06:07:54

well.I have two friends that were like you, introverts.
they were tooooo queeeeit lol
but I changed them I guess?
I think you need someone talkactive but not in annoying way? someone who keeps making you talk and make you safe in the crowd?
find a friend like that? someone like Jackson?
hope this help. :)

NUR2501 #2 Dec 29, 2015 05:40:58

I was once like you before but as time passes by, I just realised that I have to change myself. So, what I do is I struggle to be more open-minded and I approached my classmates who seem friendly and now I can greet them first without hesitation :)
Good luck!
P/S : It may be a bit awkward at first but then it will be natural ^^

sleepingprince #3 Dec 29, 2015 05:00:19

I think you can start slowly at school. Try talk more to your classmates and make friends . Try greet your neighbour , talk with ur cousins and slowly build your confidence from there. It takes time but slowly you'l eventually get used to it. Keep trying and trying someday you will overcome it. You can do it :)