It has been roughly a week since my last update, and I am deliberately not updating for reasons I plan to tell in this blog:

1. I've been busy. Very classic reason hahaha.

True though, even if I'm done with College, I pursued another study again, and I am trying to master my Japanese. 

Although the fanfic is very special to me, I think that I cannot compromise my future. I have to become fluent in Japanese, so I could get a proper job. Right now, I'm just at the conversational level, so I have an extremely long way to go.

Having said this, I decided to process my visa documents and move to Japan to continue my studies there. I won't be in Japan for a very long time, but hopefully, I'll by fluent when I return to my motherland.

I'm just stuck doing visa preparations, and my travel agency has not replied. -_-

2. I'm recovering from a disorder.

Now this is something that took a lot for me to share. AFF feels like home, so here goes my story. Sigh. I have an eating disorder. I am way below the normal body mass index and trying to recover from mild anorexia. This has been the case now, so it got so difficult to update. I could barely think because my body feels weak and tired. My self esteem has gone downhill because I look like a frail zombie, a bag of bones, a walking stick. It's depressing- seeing my old pictures when I still looked normal. I truly apologize for not attending to the fic. With my eating disorder and Japanese studies, I don't think an update is on its way.I am sincerely sorry. I'm pretty sad right now because I hate looking at myself in the mirror and having a distorted body image. I sometimes look chubby, I sometimes look skinny. 

But on a more positive note, I'll be graduating this October. Hope I'm at normal weight by that time. Wish me luck. Once again, I am truly sorry for not updating. If you want to talk to me, you can message me on facebook or twitter (kyuhyunwifeyAFF).

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