Oh hello there (Updates on Chanyeol fic and life updates)

Where do I even start?

Hello, it's me, kyuhyunwifey. Long time no see :) I'm not even sure if somebody will still read this, given that I took a 2-year hiatus.

I started writing here when I was 16, and I am currently 24. It's been a really long time, and AFF has always felt like home. I decided to write a blog to update you on what's happening, what will happen, and what happened.

What's happening right now?

-at home since March 17 due to COVID-19

-working from home and drowning in a pile of workload

-trying my best to keep my physical and mental health together

-still enjoying K-pop (it's a lifestyle now tbh)

-adulting :)

What will happen?

-earnestly pray for the curve to be flattened and help in the best way that I can

-continue to drown in my workload (not that anybody cares lol)

-will attempt to exercise at least 10 minutes a day and practice mindfulness

-decide what to do with my AFF account

What happened?

I will not write this in bullet form, since I feel like I need to really talk about this.

As to why I stopped updating my Chanyeol fic, here goes nothing. I had stopped fangirling over Chanyeol. Not sure why, or when, but I just stopped. I found it very impossible for me to update when I was no longer inspired. I am really sorry about this. I did try to regain my energy to write about him, but I don't know. It didn't feel right.

And second reason, I read an post on tumblr (I think, I can't find the link anymore), and somebody said that writing Rated M fanfics or ually charged fanfics about idols is considered ual harrassment.

TBH, that bothered me. I felt bad, I felt guilty. I couldn't ask for anyone's opinions because I guess I was too scared. It crossed my mind to delete the fic, but I never really made the decision to. I focused my energy into something else- adulting.

Up to this day, I don't know what to make of the post. Was I ually harrassing Chanyeol or whoever I was writing about? Part of me says no, part of me says yes.

I guess I'm writing this blog to ask what you think of the whole thing. I would appreciate your two cents on this. Feel free to drop any questions you might have in mind. I'll answer them right after I work out.

It was nice seeing all of you again. :) Stay safe, and take care of your health.

kyuhyunwifey

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nadwifeygd #1 Mar 31, 2020 16:22:25

adulting is really hard. it just all energy, attention, time and focus. i know it's been so hard so i hope you can and able to do what makes you happy and comfortable. above all, we need to take care of ourselves. only then we can focus on other matters. i hope you are doing well. stay safe and healthy ya.

regarding the ual harrasment, i personally don't think that this matter is considerable to be called as harassment. it's just a fiction. it's not serious enough like making ual edit of them etc. and it's not like we keep on shoving rated fanfics to their faces. it's just something that we enjoy reading (plus the storyline etc).

above all, i hope you are not taking this matter too seriously. if this affects your health condition, it's best to let it go. we understand. it's also nice of you to give some explanation to us (even though you are not obliged to do so). wish you have a good day!

Faedra #2 Mar 31, 2020 01:17:03

Hello!

I guess I understand that feeling of ually harassing the idols, which is why I had them play roles of people instead in my stories. Kind of like how they get chosen to play different roles in a movie or a drama. And if my readers are really that shallow to think that way or cannot stand the way that I made the changes oh well.. plus it's a work of fiction. No one said it was real. If it's really a bad thing than why are so many people doing it? I like to imagine my characters as someone who is only built/pictured by the idol who plays the character not the idol themselves. I'm the director/writer, they are the characters in my movie/drama. Simple as that but do what makes you feel comfortable and good. If you want to stop writing that story or altogether go ahead. No one can stop you, it is your choice after all. No one is going to judge you for it, or at least I'm not going to.