This is not a blog about fanfiction.

Here's the thing. I think I've been single for too long. The last time I've dated was on 2010, when I was still in the first grade of high school and now it's 2015 and I'm currently a junior in college. The reason why we broke up was because my mom didn't want me to date. She told me to focus on my study at that time, therefore I asked him to break up. My mom said that I can get a boyfriend once I get into the university. But, since then until now, I'm single, like literally. There is no guy approaching or making a move on me, which makes me wonder why.

I admit I'm not that pretty, I'm definitely not pretty. But I'm not bad. I have large eyes and long eyelashes, small face, and pretty lean. Well, it doesn't make me pretty, but I think my appearance is alright eventhough my lips are full, I have crooked teeth, and I have a slightly yellowish skin tone from my dad's gene. I'm not the smartest of all, my grades are again just alright, but hey I'm not bad. I'm currently enrolled in one of top 3 universities in my country and I'm majoring in psychology. Hell, guys from other majors adore psychology girls so much. In psychology major, it's normal to have many girls and just a few boys. Many of the girls in my major are pretty and cute. Sadly, I'm not one of those "shiny" girls. Again, I'm really average. For personality, I don't think my personality is bad. I have friends, I get along with others pretty well, and as a psychology student I have high level of empathy. I admit I'm not that active, which means I'm more of a quiet type of student, but I do have campus activities eventhough I'm not participating in university activities. Maybe this is why I'm single--because I don't have that big connection. But again, I don't think that will be the main reason why I'm single.

Now that I'm on my third year in college, my closest family starts to ask me about boyfriend. My mom, my grandmother, my aunts, all of them recently told me to have a nice boyfriend and I was just: "Hehe, I don't have boyfriend or crush right now... Just Korean oppa." I think it's pretty funny that I used to be restrained from having a boyfriend but I had one, and now I'm allowed to have a boyfriend but I don't have one.

So, again I repeat, what makes me wondering is, why is there no guy approaching me? Am I that unattractive? Am I looking myself too high? I'm not looking for answer or advice, actually, I just want to speak this up from my bottled mind :')

9/915, written by a girl who has been single for 5 years straight without any guy making a move on her