Just want to shed off the extra load in my chest so I can finish writing a chapter...

It's not like by far it's still a big deal to me since I've seen leeteuk go to the army, yesung go to the army, heechul go back from the army, kangin go back from the army, and for Sungmin and Shindong to enlist.

It's just that the way Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon are spending the time remaining they have in the outside makes everything seem more over the surface. I mean, it stirs so much emotions in a person. They post a lot of pics about their daily lives, spends more time outside like how they are spending more time with their dongsaeng EXO. It was all beautiful. Definitely. There's no questioning to that. It's amazing I can see more of them out of their usual routines of performing on stage etc etc. It makes people less lonely, but at the same time alert about the impending enlistment. 

Why do I feel like suddenly so sad.... ugh.... I'm saying nonsense but maybe because I like EunHae as an OTP, and mayve because Siwon and Donghae are part of my top 5 bias list, that I feel like this. Whatever it is... I will probably still cry by the time they enlist. Shaved hair? Members sending them off? Family sending them off? Fans in the army camp site crying while waiting? I won't be there probably by that time... but my heart aches every time like I was there. It's crazy to think that a person can cry so much for someone she only met once, twice, thrice or for someone who doesn't even know she exist or for someone who doesn't know her name. But because we are fans, fans that invested so much emotions for those people more than our money on them, it's probably possible. Others may call us weird, sick, stupid for feeling that way for (strangers) people we barely know, but whatever it is, something as precious as them, people we feel contented with and fulfilled with the mere fact of seeing them on our computer screens, will always be worth the time, the emotions, the wait. 

It would probably remain like that even for 10, 20, 30, 40 or maybe forever, if they left such a deep impression on you. Or if their names have been simply engraved deeply in your heart like a first love... or maybe a true love.

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