Everyone changes after a while, no matter how we are all different from what we were 5 yeas ago. For better or worse we all Change is so many different ways, we grow up and become someone that is way more then we could of ever think of. Or someone who that has become something you always promised that you would never become. In the good or bad we change byt why does it hurt so ing much to be told how different I am than I used to be. 

I don't know how to handle it at all, I used to cry and cry for days when you stopped talking to me. When all of the letters stop coming in the mail. When you stopped having time for me. When you stopped ing caring about my well being. I gave you all of my tears that I have had in my body. Nothing has ever hit me as hard as when you left me all alone, knowing that I was all alone and what I was going though. I understood after a while why you probably did not want me around anymore. I don't want to be around myself most of the time. So it kills me still to this day that I still love you, you hurt me so bad. But I still love you and I don't understand why that is or why I feel this way at all. I was over you a year ago but it took me 6 years to get over you and not to feel so hurt anymore. 

I seen you again today for the first time in the 6 or 7 years I have not seen or talked to you. It all came back every feeling and emotion I've ever felt for you just hit me all at once. I felt so happy to see you I want to run and hug you, tell you how beautiful you are. But I couldn't say anything at all I was just stuck with anything to say. You were with your mother and your mother said hello. And you said nothing at all, into we were left alone. And when I was at my most lowest point I could have been in life. You looked me over and all you said was. " you've changed a lot, I would have never guessed you turn out to be this way." In that moment I wanted to cry, those simple words had so many different meanings to them. You've got to see something I've never shown anyone before. And you judged me for it and broke me down even more than I already was. You ing I hate you so much, but at the same time I love you more than anything in this world. I would give anything to be by your side again. I know that is impossible and that you don't care about me anymore. It just all hurts and I don't want to see you again ever.