feel free to not read this, this is the only place I can really say what I want to. 

So I in a desperate need of a friend or a hug. At times like this I really do wish I had real friends. So I was in the middle of having one of my break downs, where I just freak out about something that I can not control. While on top of it being extremely hot, I can not handle the heat very well I start to panic and just freak out. So while I am already having a break down and freaking out and getting all panicky because it is hot. The only person in the world that still takes to me, decided that was the right time to say hi. His timing was wonderful and he was nice and helped me calm down. All while my family decided to put me in the middle of drama, like I am already going crazy. And 3 different people come at me with 3 different issues and it is all just really drama with in our family. I can not deal with any of it at the moment. And what else happens the one person that was being nice was only because he wanted pictures of my s. Like really I want to go stab him that hurt a whole lot. You make me think you actually care about anything I might have to say or feel. And turn around and ask for pictures knowing that I don't send out pictures ever. So now I am sitting here crying and feeling like the world is falling apart. And on top of all of this I am on my period so that makes me even more emotional. I am trying so hard not to do things I know I may regret but it is so hard and I am so ing stress out. I would give anything in this world to actually have one real friend that would be willing to come see me. Because I really need to see someone at the moment.