Will you cut this angsty drama of yours? I knew that you had been through many things in life. Eversince you're a kid, sunshine never seems to shine too bright for you. Dullness was all painted around you, most of the time. You tried to fight but it was useless. Thanks to the hierarchy that this world had set up right before you're born. 

This dirty hierarchy that killed many people while they tried to climb and win over it. It's ascending slope was always too slippery for anyone that tried to step on it. Unless, you set your own trail, by covering the surface with what they call; Money. Never forget about the top that always so pointy and sharp enough to massacre all your emotions and feelings.

Leaving you numb. Like someone that had been left outside overnight during winter. 

Now, all goddamn people that knew you, wanna break the ice over. Trying to get through your numbness and make you 'feel' again. They got plasters and glue of hope and concern to put your torned feeling back. They'll sweep over all those money trail and willingly changed it with flowers so you won't fall over again. 

After some times, they knew it was useless. You don't want to help yourself. Why bother to shake hands with the 'blues feeling' when you got sunshine right beside you? You're not alone in this. I know I don't have the right to say this, but in some way I know that I'm not wrong. I do believe they would agree with what I'm saying. They saiy not to lose hope with the person you care but heck, I don't even took a proper care of myself. So, why do I bother? 

Yes, selfish. That's me. We're not even close to start with. Why bother then? I'm ing twisted. Blehh.. who cares? Not you right?