(I've just written 800 words, stopped and skimmed through, and realized that I was totally deviating, I'm going to restart. Gosh. This heat is killing me.)

Thank you for the feature!

I cannot really say that it means the world, or even a lot to me because right now everything in my life is rather chaotic. How important my stories are to me, how important this and that are -- there is no hierarchy right now. It's like a period of upheaval for me, with uni and all that ahead and the finishing of a really stressful period (that ended with an A+ on the term paper that gave me so much headache the past few days, but now the joy over that has faded, too.)

Not to say that I don't appreciate it. It is my story, after all, that has received enough devotion to be featured. For that I am very thankful. I am just a little distant to the self that started writing this story at the moment, being in a weird limbo-like state because all the stressful things are gone but no truly joyous  activities have replaced their space inside of me, you know? With this heat I can't even muster any energy for thinking about uni and all. In fact, I can't muster enough energy for anything at all. Even my usual leisure activities feel either pointless or laborious. I usually love to be productive in any way possible. And I cannot find this in me right now. 

I'm lacking motivation for anything right now. But I hope that the feature of this story can be the starting point for my motivation. I have gone through a lot of phases in these past months, and part of me, as I realized when typing the 800 words earlier) is dying to write that down sometime, but I'd prefer it in a story  than in a blog right now. The story I was thinking about is mnemonic, but seeing that Bittersweet was featured, I hope I can get into it again and maybe get motivated to update.

What I am trying to say is, I appreciate the feature, but I cannot promise anything. Looking back, when I'm in a limbo-like state all I do is laze around or meet with friends, so much in contrast to what I like to do when it's less hot. The thing is, I don't think it was ever this bad because the limbo rarely came so soon after a period of so much stress. Maybe my body and mind are just regenerating. 

Anyway, I hope I will find some anchor sometime soon, and knowing me and my vacillation that'll probably be soon, and soon afterward something else will be stressful again. Oh, what a life.

But oh, I am already at almost 500 words again. Seriously, all I can is talk.

Bye now, wish you guys a nice summer, in case I won't come again. And seeing that many are soon graduating or have, good luck with everything!