I really am a pathetic person. A sore loser. Thank you. Thank you for turning me into this kind of person. 

I tried to fight back. Like all those 'couraging' quotes and songs. Heh, that. It's all lies. I should have known better. From the day I got called names by those boys, I should've know. I SHOULD prepare myself mentally. Yeah, we're talking about the verbal assault. The one and only assault that would leave a fatal blow that might- no. That WOULD leave a permanent scar. Until the day I draw my last breath. 

I wonder, in that day, did you accomplished what you want? You want to see 'her' suffer. I know that. Damn you, though er! She's not the only person who suffer. We, suffered too!!! All 4 of us! Do you ever noticed that you big fat asses!!! We were outcasted! We were told-off by the teachers! We were suffering, mentally. Our souls were grievieng and yet you s could still laugh all you guys want. 

Tsk! How thoughtful friends you guys are! Heck, friends forever. BFF! OFF WITH YOUR ING BULLS ERS!!!! I HAD KEPT THIS TO MYSELF FOR SO ING LONG!!! ALTHOUGH TWO OF YOU ARE NOT IN THIS VERY SCHOOL ANYMORE, BUT THERE ARE STILL SOME OF YOU ES, SHARING THE SAME GROUND AT SCHOOL FOR THE TIME BEING! 

IT HURTS VERY ING MUCH T SEE THOSE FACES EVERYDAY! YOU GUYS SMILE AND APPROACH ME LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPEND! ARE YOU ING BLIND?!!!! 

I tried. I tried to forgive you guys. But it's hard. You guys shattered my pride, trampled it over. You guys torn my bravery away. Most important, you guys took away my trust. Now, I find it very hard to trust people. Especially ones that called themselves friends. I don't believe in friends. Please, everybody stop befriending me. I can't take it. 

The fear that would constantly bugged me. Please. k off my dear friends!