So I ran into this song by Zhou Mi titled "Lovesick" from his mini album "Rewind".

And then I looked up its lyrics.

I finally released your hand and let go of your far-fetched reasons.

I heard you say you don’t love me any longer; I bow my head and pretend that I don’t look sad.

The pain that love gave, let me learn to break away from the loneliness.

I can’t feel your warmth; it would be better if I forgot that you once cared for me.

The emotional journey turns into brokenhearted pain.

I’m in love’s labyrinth, searching for happiness,

Only to find out that the satisfaction of love was merely a constraint.

How am I able to see it clearly?

I’m by myself and lonely; I have learned how to enjoy the sadness by myself.

But why are my tears still flowing?  I still don’t understand how to convince myself, oh.

I don’t want to release your hand or let go of your leftover tenderness.

(We) loved until the end; it was not your fault.

At last I understood what the only relief of love was.

The promises that love gave have become invisible shackles.

My weeping heart was unable to endure from beginning to end.

The comprehension that love gave really allows me to see clearly.

Time cut across love’s lost warmth.

I’m by myself and lonely; I have learned how to enjoy the sadness by myself.

But why are my tears still flowing?  I still don’t understand how to convince myself, oh.

I also don’t want to release your hand or let go of your leftover tenderness.

(We) loved until the end; it was not your fault.

I understood that this is the relief of love.

The memories are like paled colors.

Replace the joy that can’t be forgotten.

Silence has replaced all of the decisions.

 

And after that, I recalled TaeTiSeo having a song also titled "Lovesick" from their first mini album "Twinkle"

 

 

I recalled its lyrics as well.

It was the first time feeling like this
My entire heart has been taken from me
What do I do? What should I do?
In front of you, I become ice
I ruin it all with good-for-nothing words
You might have thought
that I was stupid
Why did you make me like this

Give it back to me,
my heart that you took without knowing
Why did you come inside without permission,
without warning and shake me up?
You burn me up and make me cry
I pray every day for the day you will look back to me
Can’t you see me as a woman? Is it already too late?
It was the first time I got to know love

I can’t hide this face
Everything about me was caught
What do I do? What should I do?

When I see you, I turn white
I run away like a child
You might have thought
I was arrogant and strange
Why did I change like this?

Give it back to me,
my heart that you took without knowing
Why did you come inside without permission,
without warning and shake me up?
You burn me up and make me cry
I pray every day for the day you will look back to me
Can’t you see me as a woman? Is it already too late?
It was the first time I got to know love

Will it get better if
I’m love sick like a cold?
What happens if I’m love sick again?

Please take it away,
this love that opened my eyes to you
Why did you come to me without caution,
without sound and shake me up?
You make me want you and be in pain
I hope every day for the day you will finally acknowledge me
Can’t it be fulfilled just once? I’ve waited for a long time
It was the first time I got to know love

And then all the feels just came back.

I found myself curling up in a corner listening to these two songs over and over again until I cried my eyes out.