just want to express what i'm feeling right now
have you ever felt pain in you.. a feeling that you sometimes want to kill that person but can't.. i know i have..
it all started yesterday actually but the guilt keep on rushing in me since today..
last week, my school held the annual public speaking competition.. the teachers ask me to collect the equipment that required for the mere judges to calculate the partipant's mark but apparently the judges took a longer time.. so i went to buy some food to eat b'cause i haven't had break since morning.. eventually i forgot to collect them and give it to the teacher in charge.. but fortunately some other student have collected them..
but they didn't gave it to the teacher in charge.. they just leave it in a hall
the teacher scold my friends b'cause she was the one who was holding the bag that should be put in the equipment.. my friend blame me for not taking responsibility
fortunately i found them and quickly return the bag.. i say my sorry to the teacher in charge and my friends who been scold
but apparently my other friends have the look that want to kill me.. when we have a group disscussion.. my other friends would not let me hear nor see me talking about it..
today, during exam, my homeroom teachers went to my desk.. and say " how can you to make you friends get scolded.." all my idea of writing the essay have completely wash away due to the guilt
i don't know if the is teasing or she just stupid to realise my own feeling...
sometimes it got so irritated that make me want to transfered school...
can someone help me solve this problem
i just wish i can
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