I'm scared

Despite what people are seeing in me, I think there is something wrong with me.

I don't know why I am having these thoughts when my life has been nothing but good to me. And I'm scared.

I'm adamant of seeking professional help because I don't want my loved ones to worry. Me knowing that I worry them makes me feel all the more stressed. There's no reason for me to even think about it. Nothing at all.

I keep myself busy and entertained. I'm contented with what's going on.

I have to say it. Sometimes I'm thinking about smashing my car into some random wall or tree to just end it. And it's becoming more frequent these past few weeks.

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ForeverxOrxN #1 May 3, 2015 06:58:41

O.o don't do that. I know what you feel since i was like that fiew years ago too but i found the best for me is listen music, walk in park and just shut down the world around me
sometimes is the best take a walk under a rain, this wey i feel better because i dont cry alone, the world crys with me and it makes it better.
or talk with your most trusted friend and ask for help

Elfish11 #2 Apr 29, 2015 23:17:06

I feel it also this past few days but I decide to not stop and continue. Just believe that one day everything will be just fine. Even the things will never ever be the same again, just accept it and try to be just fine and happy.

coresplinter #3 Apr 21, 2015 10:58:01

So you have absolutely why? Or you were angry at the time?

Syyong #4 Apr 21, 2015 04:45:24

Seems like you having the same thoughts as me? What happened in your life?

ThisRandomKid13 #5 Apr 21, 2015 01:29:08

Ulrich, don't do that to yourself man remember that you're living a life that some envy die to their circumstances. Find something that constantly fascinates you and sick to it

Ballerina_Belle #6 Apr 20, 2015 19:32:12

Hey hey, dont do that!

everyday9 #7 Apr 20, 2015 17:11:24

Oh, no, Ulrich... Please no :(

Haeteuk_Luv #8 Apr 20, 2015 14:53:05

o my god....!!!! don't.ever.do.that. you read me? if seeking a pro for it is the best for you then go for it!!

it happened to me too.. but maybe i'm just too coward to do it.. ending your life is a huge decision and i'll just let God decides it for me. i'll just try to find oit what i can do in my life.. somethin that can make me feel better.

let me know.. share it.. just don't keep it alone. you're makin me scared too.. T.T

Umji4life #9 Apr 20, 2015 11:36:33

That last paragraph, don't ever do that. Its not worth anything! Like you said, you should talk to a professional and maybe they'll be able to help you better. Take care!