I am relatively new to the writer side of Starlight fandom. I started my first real VIXX fan fic "Steal Heart" in January yet up till now I have written quite a bit, to my mind, good stuff. I am always very critical to what I post online as I want it to be as good as possible for the given moment and I can honestly say that my VIXX fics are definitely one of my favorite works, especially Steal Heart.

I think that it is the story that is coming out the best and that is why I am taking extra long to update, because I want it to continue to be as good as I think it is. I am focusing on smaller things - one-shots and two shots that crawl around my head until I write them. I can't stop writing. I need it, or else the, lets be honest, sometimes very explicit in my brain would make me go nuts.

I am mostly writing for myself, of course, because I enjoy doing that BUT I always love receiving feedback and talking about my work with readers as that is one way how to gain new friends, trust me. Yet it's very hard to do that with Starlights. I see all the views and subscriptions and upvotes but the amount of comments is so sad I feel unappreciated (?).

I understand it's easier to hit that heart button or that arrow, but more than that I would appreciate a few lines of what the reader liked or what was odd or what made one think or maybe some quotes the reader liked. I get that sometimes, but it's rare and in comparison to simple clicks it seems lacking.

I might be asking too much and judging of myself too much as I try my very best to leave a comment whenever I read and even more when I upvote a story.

I am thinking about being a mean person - making all stories subscribers only or updating chaptered ones only after I receive a certain amount of comments, but that is blackmail and I doubt I will do it, especially when I have yet another quite epic idea in my head for a two shot.

I re-watched my favorite OVA yesterday and understood that Koisuru Boukun is a perfect one to be turned into a Leo x Hongbin story. With few alterations it will be perfect and I will write it and hope it will get response.

/sigh/ the struggle of wanting some feedback... I just want to talk to people.... /another sigh/ Sorry for me being irrationaly upset...