KEEP CALM EVERYONE! DON'T WORRY I'M STILL ALIVE. *sings in the tune of Big bang's Alive*

It's just that, I have been really reaallydepressed lately. I've been trying to publish "I Love You from the Bottom of my Heart" here in the Philippines, but it seems that Editors aren't contacting me much. So.. as for me, It's really a downer, you know. Especially when one's confident about that one awesome story slash novel I've written because... I've read through your wonderful comments and I really wanted to give it a shot. I wanted to give it a shot so that I could share it in my country and get it in the bookstores but hey... nothing good's happening. Instead they publish these... idontreallyfindamusing stories in wattpad and all. Don't get me wrong I've read some of them like She's Dating the Gangster, Diary ng Panget etc etc,,, which were also made into movies but... I don't really find them that appealing. There are also some blanks in the story that makes you go... "What? How the hell did that happen?" "Srsly?" "God, that's so cheap." "Meh." 

I really don't know. It's making me sad, it's like I'm feeling like my creativity's being out of me. There have been times that I wanted to write again, I've been backreading all my stories here in AFF but my imagination just isn't working. I'm really depressed guys... seriously. I feel like I haven't achieved anything big in my life... (except for having a boyfriend last year hehe YESTHATISANACHIEVEMENTFORME) and it's like I feel like I've been controlled by my parents who wanted me to take this road for them... which made me distant from the things I want to achieve for myself. That sorta thing... that emo kind of thing. Anyway~

Good news tho! Big Bang is having a tour here in the Philippines! HURRAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! I'm really thankful for my job right now <3

Anyway, do you guys know any publishing company in your country where I can possibly have the chance to publish my novel? :3 And Anyway, I really would like to apologize because I've read your comments in my stories, asking and asking me to update....I'm trying guys... I am REALLY REALLY REALLY TRYING... I just need to shake my brain up a bit. I need to have my imagination back. Do you have any suggestions on what I can do ? Hm? do you? If so, please do share by commenting here~ I would really love to hear from you guys since I've missed you all <3

I do hope I'll be back soon with another chapter with you guys.

See y'all soon!