Forbidden
Description
- Cause death was the only thing Kyungsoo hadn't tried. But he regretted nothing. -
Warnings:
- I will clarify possible triggers in each chapter if there's some
- English is not my first language, I try hard to write correctly but nobody's perfect, so please bare with me ^^'
Foreword
"Would you like one more cup?" Chanyeol asked before sitting in front me.
I thought about it, would I?
"Don't think, just take it," he said as if reading my mind, "if you think you can't forget."
I thought again. Do I really want to forget?
"Forget." he said. "He will just..." he stopped, then lowered his head.
He was trying not to scream the truth about our future.
But I already knew it. It's just.. even using the word "our", a word that connected us, was making me happy. Happy enough to gain the strength to live one more day.
"He will just hurt you." he continued. "But if you want I ca-"
"No pleas-"
"... I can love you."
Silence fell over the coffee shop. A long one this time, which made everything look sorrowful than ever.
I stared at the empty coffee cup. The cup that was filled with Jongin's favorite coffee just now.
I thought maybe, maybe if I drink it, the emptiness he created inside me will get closed a bit.
Maybe suddenly, he will walk in that wooden door whining about how he hates rainy days and then say "Hey Soo, I need that magic latte of yours." as he will throw his body on the couch next to the window.
Then maybe, he will fall asleep from exhaustion and I -again, just like every single day, will watch the man I loved, the man who will never be mine, until the coffee will become ice cold in my hands.
A sad laugh left my lips as I looked up to Chanyeol and asked "Even when every single dust reminds me of him, will you love me? Can you?"
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