What If You're NOT The What If

Slow Burn
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Yoongi didn’t know what to expect when he opened the door, but a panting Hoseok drenched in sweat with skin tinted a beautiful shade of red was the furthest thing his mind could have thought of. Although given the fact that the dancer has probably been practicing for hours now, it should have been the rapper’s first thought, and Yoongi should have walked in prepared. Honestly, hell, he shouldn’t have walked in at all, but since he did, he should have known what to expect. The fact that his breath hitched in his throat and his mind went completely blank at the sight of the dancer is proof of his complete lack of foresight.

 

Hoseok wasn’t expecting visitors. People know better than to disturb him when he’s practicing, but when his eyes fall on Yoongi, his surprise is greater. He knows that Yoongi is just like him when it comes to time spent on perfecting their craft; just as obsessive about not being disturbed. Hoseok swallows hard because Yoongi being here can only mean one thing—

 

Did he finally make a decision?

 

“Hyung,” Hoseok states, but it’s more of a question as he looks at the man quizzically. 

 

Yoongi swallows hard, trying to unblock his suddenly tightening throat. He’s not sure where all his salvia has gone, because his mouth currently feels like the Sahara desert - not an ounce of liquid in sight. 

 

“Uhm,” Yoongi manages to scratch out. 

 

The rapper runs his hand through his hair then rubs the back of his neck. Before opening the door, he’d known what he wanted to do, what he wanted to say – but right now he's at a total loss for words, “I thought we could, I mean -- should, you know – talk, maybe.”

 

Smooth Min Yoongi, smooth – just like butter.

 

The man berates himself. The thing is Yoongi can’t be blamed for his reaction and lack of swag, because Hoseok is the iest and the most breathtaking after dancing,  who am I kidding -- he's gorgeous during dancing as well. When dancing, the younger man is like a musical God that becomes one with the beat and rhythm. Hoseok’s body becomes fluid and languid, flowing like an untamed river, inviting all who watch to drown his depths. 

 

But after dancing, after dancing,  – Hoseok's skin is flushed from adrenaline, sweat dripping and causing clothing to stick, outlining Hoseok’s toned and muscular frame; it’s all too much for Yoongi to take in. However, it’s the way that Hoseok stands there, panting as he tries to catch his breath, with questioning innocent eyes, not understanding that at this moment he is the living definition of the phrase, ' on two legs' - this is what has Yoongi fighting to make his brain work. 

 

“Talk? About what?” Hoseok eyes Yoongi suspiciously. The older man is staring at him so hard that Hoseok feels bare, almost . Yoongi’s glare is so intense that Hoseok looks down just to verify that he’s still dressed.

 

The older of the two is having trouble remembering why he walked through the doors, he’s having trouble with a lot of things really. As he looks at Hoseok, he wonders when did it all become so complicated? It wasn’t long ago that his only problem was writing lyrics and producing a song that he was satisfied with. Then Jungkook started to grow up and  if that didn’t happen out of nowhere. The extra muscles, bunny smiles, coupled with the youngest's personality did a number on Yoongi’s emotions -- leaving the man at a loss for how to handle his growing (possibly erted) attraction. 

 

Spending time with Jungkook had only strengthened what he felt and showed Yoongi that maybe his feelings weren’t as erted as he previously believed. Namjoon had convinced him to make a move on the youngest man, and he was prepared to do so. But then Hoseok hugged him, tight, and threw a monkey wrench in, disrupting Yoongi’s perfectly constructed plan. 

 

“I don’t know,” Yoongi says, his voice exasperated, “I am so ing confused right now.” Yoongi’s voice cracks with honesty and Hoseok takes a deep breath. 

 

It’s been a while since Yoongi has said exactly what he feels and Hoseok is thankful to be able to hear it. He knows that the older man is confused and that it’s not Yoongi’s personality

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EmptyTinkerbell
#1
Chapter 20: When I was halfway through the chapter I knew well what I wanted to leave in the comment, but now I just have emptiness in my mind. It's this really end? The boys are finally happy? I feel like crying. Yoongi, Jungkook, Hoseok, and Jimin went through so much. They experienced so many different feelings; hurt, love, disappointment, concern and more, and to think they finally got their happy endings... It just makes me so happy.
This story was awesome! It made me feel like I experienced the feelings along with the boys and it's not an easy thing to do in my opinion. I could also notice improvement in your writing which makes me glad because it's obviously a good thing haha Again, it was an amazing story and I enjoyed it a lot ^_^
EmptyTinkerbell
#2
Chapter 19: I wanted to punch Yoongi with a chair in this chapter. Before he made up his mind of course. When he let go of Hobi it's like something heavy finally flew off my shoulders. He made a good decision.
EmptyTinkerbell
#3
Chapter 18: I'm, well... I don't know how I feel to be honest. Am I glad that Jimin and Hoseok are doing 'that'? Am I angry at Yoongi? Do I pity him? I have no freaking idea. I have no idea...
EmptyTinkerbell
#4
Chapter 17: Jimin better treat Hoseok with utmost care and love. Hobi was constantly just giving and received nothing from Yoongi which was simply cruel. He deserves better and I'm sure Jimin can give him that 'better'.
EmptyTinkerbell
#5
Chapter 16: If Yoongi chooses Jungkook I wouldn't be surprised if the younger boy was all insecure (even more than he already is). What Hobi and Suga have can't disappear just like that, right? And I feel that while Yoongi choosing Hobi would break his heart, Suga cheating with Hobi while he's in a relationship with Kookie would break all of him, not just his heart. And it would be cruel. No, I can't and won't think of it, no no no, my poor Kookie. :(
EmptyTinkerbell
#6
Chapter 15: Daaaamn, Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung, together, cuddling, being all close... The picture is so adorable. ;w; This story makes me crazy with all the fluff and angst and things ugh... Yoongi better end things with Hobi there in the practice room or wise I'm gonna be pissed >~<
EmptyTinkerbell
#7
Chapter 14: Hahaha, napping is a priority! That's right, Kookie, sleep first, boys later XD
Yoongi is acting like an a little, avoiding Jungkook and all. Bad Suga!
EmptyTinkerbell
#8
Chapter 13: Wow, Hoseok is such a tease. And Jimin as well. They're such a dangerous duo. I'm glad they had a chance to tell each other how they feel, it may help them even if just a little~
EmptyTinkerbell
#9
Chapter 12: Just choose Jungkook already!!! Let Jimin have all of Hoseok to himself and just jump on Kookie already you ! Don't torture all of us ;_;
EmptyTinkerbell
#10
Chapter 11: I want to see if Yoongi's skin is as soft as I think it is as well :| Jungkook's excitement was so freaking adorable! I feel like I'm gonna die because of all the fluff and it may be the most pleasant death ever lmao Can this not end? ;;