It's a fault. My fault. Yours? No, this is our fate's and mine fault. We are so wrong from the start but you're not the one who is wrong. If only I didn't having crush with you, if only we were only a plain seat-mate, if only we were only a bickering partner. If only i've never knew the truth.   *** "You're avoiding me the whole week,"Kai stopped my track when i just finish my class and he picked me up. I just raised my eyebrows upon hearing his complain. "Didn't i tell you that i have mid-test?"i asked him back. "I know but i have known you for years and this is not how you deal with your tests," "Or are you giving test for me instead?"he continued to whine. I chuckled. "Dear, we're in college what makes me to act like a lazy student when i was at high school?" I know that i hide the fact that I realized that I ignored Kai while having conversations with Sehun all night. But I'm not lying that I really study for my college-in Sehun's support ofc- i really faced my textbooks and gave my all focus when study at class. "I still don't understand why you act like this. You're changed,"Kai ruffled his hair messily. "I'm tired Kai. If you want to keep this talk then I'm off. I can't handle it right now,"I tightened my sweater and ready to go home. "Ok ok! As you want my lady,"Kai gave up and followed my track. He held my hands and i held his too. I gave him my sweet smile. "Then where's goodbye kiss?"he leaned closer after we were already in front of my house. I frowned by his favor but fortunately he didn't see that. I don't know why i feel I don't want to kiss him right now. I felt my heart so heavy but I don't want Kai got suspicious with me so i leaned closer to his cheek and kiss him. "Goodbye, Honey,"i whispered after separated my lips from his skin. I saw Kai frowns but i chose to ignore it. I knew this is strange that he only got kiss on cheek rather than on lips like always but for seriously....when i leaned closer to him, I remembered Sehun's face in my head. "Sul,"Kai held my hand when i was about to leave. "Huh?" "I love you,"he said in lonely eyes. I felt my chest tightened but I just don't take it seriously. I just smiled and nodded before entering my house. Then inside my house, I leaned my body on the door. I closed my eyes as i remembered Kai's sad expression. Why I think my heart changed after i met Sehun again? I don't feel comfortable again with Kai after i got closer to Sehun and felt comfortable with him. Sehun was way kind and his open minded personality really amazed me and made me comfortable. He's unbelievably caring and gentle, he got matured through these years and having conversations with him made me feels like i talk with someone older than me. Slowly, every thoughts about Sehun made Kai got drifted away from my head.   *** "I remembered when Krystal accidentally pushed you until you crushed my body,"Sehun said while we were having phone call. "Really? Oh now i remember. Yes, and you nagged me instead of blaming Krystal,"i frowned playfully. Actually Krystal wasn't accidentally push me, she pushed me intentionally to help me get close with Sehun. I heard chuckles on the line. "I just couldn't blame and nag her anyway," I know...it makes me sad Sehun, you know? You were so rude to me but ao nice with my friends and other people. I wanted to bring this conversation but i held my heart. Sehun might be shock with all my confession and it probably will make our already fine friendship got flaw. Right when i was about to talk again, i got phone call from Kai. "Sulli, is someone calling you?"Sehun asked with so husky voice. Gosh how i want to hear his voice more and more! "Yes, it's from Kai,"I answered hesitantly. "Then i'll hung up, just pick his call,"he said. I frowned. I don't want to pick Kai's call but I can't reject it too. "Will you call me again after i picked his call?" "Yes. I will if you want,"I can feel he is smiling on the other line. "Thanks Sehun. Ofc i want,"i smiled. "Ok, see you later," "Yes, see you later,"then Sehun's phone call ended as i picked Kai's. "Are you calling someone?!" I sighed as i heard Kai's already raised voice. "My mom,"i lied to him. "Don't lie, this is not the time that your mom usually call you," "I'm