Once i followed Sehun's track (which was my track to go home too) back in middle school. In a very hot weather when the sun was almost on top of our head but what i was feeling all along the road is a silent happiness. I saw his back, his height which i thought if he hug me then i suit perfectly in his embrace. It was a quiet walk and you hadn't realized that i was walking behind you until you turned around to catch a bus. Even though you saw me but you didn't say anything, even though that stare in your eyes weren't much saying that you wanted me in your side, but I treasured our little hurtful moments. I treasured that moment because when i was walking behind you, i prayed to God that this moment would be last forever. It was just two of us, no another student nor Naeun. It was just you and i. It was quiet perfect for my unrequited feelings back then. I prayed to God inside my heart that i want to be by yourside like we were in elementary school for three years. I wished that i will always see you and feel you eventhough you're not talking with me. That is how i liked you back then. It was so simple, innocent and also sweet.   *** "I'm going to mall with Sohyun," "Only with Sohyun?" "Well, ofc if I mentioned Sohyun that means she with her friends which are my friends as well, Honey," "Mention all of your friends name,"Kai stopped reading his book and looked at me. "It won't finished with just a book,"i pouted. "I mean the ones which will go with you to the mall," I sighed. Dealing about things like this will be always hard with Kai. Back in high school, i rarely spend my time with Dasom and her friends because Kai was always tagging me along or else prohibit me to hang out with them. Kai even followed me to Jinki's house when we had to do our group homework. When I entered college, I felt a little free and used to spend my times with my college friends until Kai got angry because i've never informed him. "You can't go unless i give you permit," I hit Kai's shoulder, playfully, cutely but a half of seriously begging him. I got upset, in a cute way. But he didn't bulge. "Kai i need to spend my times with my friends too. And you're here busy with your textbooks so what do you want me to do? Watching your serious face? Sitting here like a stone? Take a nap in your laps? Ok sounds good the last idea but I won't today. Or study too? Ew no!"i grabbed his pillow and hug it, hiding my already irritated face towards his overprotective behavior. "You might seeing another guy or another guy might seeing you,"he ruffled my hair. Gently. But at this rate, I didn't buy his tenderness because his behavior really make me sick. "Why don't you take me to a inhabited island and keep me there? So there won't be any living creatures that might see me unless snakes and bugs,"i said in sarcasm tone and expression. Kai frowned and seems like he got upset with my words. "If you're boring then let's go to the mall,"he said before grab my hand and stand up. I mentally punch his belly with so much anger but i just followed him. I followed Kai who grabbed his jacket before leaving his apartment with cursing him inside my head. In the end, Kai never let me go out without him beside me. Love him but this is not right right now!   *** Couple days after that, I didn't pick his phone calls, reply his texts nor having intention to see his face. I got mad, really, for sure. Not because the day when i wanted to go with Sohyun but go with him instead to the mall. We were fine after that but this is about another matter. How can...how can he just grabbed my hands violently and dragged me away when i talk with Eunhyuk my senior about my task. I needed help from him bit he got my boyfriend's angry glare. So I swung Kai's hand harshly and leaving him alone with maximum anger. I'm so done with his overprotective behaviour! Kai begged me to forgive him and said that he regretted his behavior. But I don't want him doing things like that then i got angry and then he asked my forgiveness but he will repeat the same mistake again. I want our relationship works not in this way. I need freedom and I don't want to be a chained princess in his arms. I love him but i want him to trust me. "You know? I wonder what the hell are you thinking for treated me like that! I'm not the cheater type Kai! You know me for years and for so many times that i've ever let other guy approach me?! The one in my heart is only you, the one who conquers my head is you! You're the most handsome guy in my eyes eventhough objectively Siwon Oppa is the most handsome guy in our campus! Do i ever accept his offer to have lunch with him? No! If i got a chance to seeing Josh Hartnett but i should lose you then i choose you! I only want and love you!" I saw Kai who is now sitting with his head hung probably holding his tears with hurtful eyes. He looked pathetic, but I'm even more pathetic. That I realized how much Kai means for me eventhough i felt that i had enough of him or