chapter 8
let me go(even if it hurts) [Editing]
"Changmin-ah wake up come on" I could hear someone say but I didnt wake up so I just rolled over in my bed. "come on oppa wake up or youll be late to school" I heard my little sister say. I stretch my arms up above me and get up. " hey princess" I say as I turn to look at her. "dont princess me oppa, now get up Umma is making breakfast so hurry" she said as she walked out my room. I shook my head because jesus christ that girl was only 6 but she was such a diva just like our cousin key. I get up and make my way towards my bathroom. I really didnt want to go to school especially when no one liked me aside from Jaejoong and my other two hungs who are always their for me, I just didnt want to go to school just to get bullied again I thought as I sighed. I quickly brushed my teeth and washed my teeth before exiting the bathroom and changing into my uniform. as I grab my backpack i start walking to my door and walk out my room and head down the stairs to where the kitchen is. i see my little sister and mother eating. "good morning umma" i say as i kiss her on the cheek " good morning darling" she said as she smiled up at me. " umma dont call me that" i said as i sighed " just hurry up and eat oppa i have to get early to school" ashira said as she continued to stuff with food
Sometimes memories like these made me cry but then again it wasnt like i could cry. i promised myself i wouldnt cry anymore. losing my mother and father was the worst thing ever but im lucky i didnt lose my sister, after losing our parents she wasnt the same she came home late and then one day she didnt come home at all. that was the day i found out that my sister was being abused at school for being parentless and because she looked too much like a doll a pair of boys would bully her but this time they did more than hit her. my sweet little sister up in a hospital in a coma because those boys had beat her up and done something they never should have done. i could never forgive myself for what happened to her eventhough she said it wasnt my fault but i felt like it was because i couldnt protect her when she needed me the most and i failed her .
She never seemed to be the same person after that and never was i, the pain in seeing her like that was killing me slowly. bit by bit i became a closed person i stopped trying to please those around me and only focused my attention on her. if anything i wanted her to go back to that sweet, sassy girl i knew as kids when our parents were still alive. but slowly i started to notice something different from her she smiled from time to time and when we went out with the Hyungs she would laugh and smile at them. at first i didnt ask her anything but then one day when she came walking home with another boy i wonder who he was. i still remember how flus
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