For YoonJiSic and TaengSic_96


I'm tired of this. I'm tired of you acting like there wasn't an us. I'm tired of you pushing me away. I'm tired of foolishly believing in your empty promises. I'm tired of everything. Do you even love me? You never told me those three words. I've been waiting for five years, but damn! I'm getting tired. Are you even worth the wait? Tell me, are you?


It hurts so much. The pain here inside my heart keeps on growing every single day. My heart, which was once filled with love and happiness, was now filled with bitterness. Bitterness towards you. I tried to fight it. I tried. Sadly, I failed.


This battle was supposed to be ours, but you left me. You left me alone in this cold and dreary night. You left me with no one to hold. You abandoned me heartlessly. Do you even care about me? Or am I just a toy for you?


I'm afraid that this monster inside of me will grow into something bad. I'm terrified of what might happen if that time comes. So please, come to me and tell me that everything is going to be all right. I need you. You and you alone. You are what makes me continue living. You are my strength. You are my everything. You are the only one who matters to me right now.


So please... Come back to me and save me, Wendy..

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"Unnie, stop doing this to yourself." Bae Suzy begged her sister who hadn't eaten for days since the 'break-up'. Even though it was clear to everyone that Wendy was cheating on her, she still fought with all her might to save what little piece of love was left. But all her efforts were useless. Wendy cut everything off with her.


"I t-tried my best. I gave her m-my all. My f-ing all! Was it still not enough?!"


Suzy's heart was being torn to pieces at the scene of her Unnie being broken. Broken to the point where she would just bawl her eyes out for the entire day. Until no drop would fall. Until no sound would ever come out. Until her body would feel numb. But sadly, it could only be temporary. Never permanent. Because nothing is permanent in this world; Irene learned that the hard way.


Everything will most likely change. Something good or something bad? Well, who knows?


"It's not your fault, Unnie. I saw how hard you fought. I saw how much you loved her. She's stupid for hurting you." the younger girl embraced the other gently. Slightly afraid that the fragile girl might break with just a simple touch.


"I still love her. And I'm also stupid for letting myself get hurt."


"Everything is going to be okay. I know there's someone out there for you. I can feel it."


Suzy hummed a lullaby for her Unnie, which helped in soothing the older's nerves, and eventually, she fell into a deep sleep. 

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"Irene-ssi, you need to eat." Jessica, the Bae's neighbor, was asked by Suzy to take care of Irene for her.


"..."


"Please. You look so skinny. You have to. Just 1 spoonful.. Please?" the neighbour begged and begged, but Irene didn't listen.


Jessica gave up and sat down dejectedly beside the girl on the couch.


After a few minutes, Jessica heard a light snore coming from the woman beside her. The woman fell asleep in her arms-hugging-knees position and Jessica guessed that that looked uncomfortable.


She sighed and untangled the woman from her position and carried her bridal style to her room. She kicked the door open and laid the woman gently on the bed.


"I guess I should just go."


Jessica turned and was about to walk out Irene's room when she heard the girl whisper, "Wendy.."


Her voice has so much emotion in it. By just saying that name, Jessica felt the longing, sadness and pain that the woman was going through right now. She wanted to just leave Irene and clear her thoughts from everything, but that'd be so cruel. This woman needs someone to stay with her.


Jessica walked back to the direction of the bed and stared at the thin and lifeless form of Irene. She was contemplating on what she's about to do.. Ah. Forget it.


She placed her right hand atop Irene's head and caressed it gently, almost affectionately. Almost.


"I'll be that someone for you, I guess."


Jessica stared at the woman who still looks mesmerizingly gorgeous with the eye-bags under her eyes and the messy hair. She doesn't know why she has this feeling that she wanted to see Irene smile. Why does she care so much?


She leaned closer until she could clearly see the woman's eyelashes and pecked the woman's forehead gently, as if she would break any second.


"I still don't know what I'm feeling, but I promise that I'm always going to be here for you."

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I dreamt of you again. I dreamt of you laughing at me for being so foolish all these years. You told me that I am the stupidest person ever for believing in you. I tried to stop you, but you didn't listen. You told me that I am the most useless b*tch you've ever been with. You spat those words at me venomously and it pained me so much.


Were all that true? It hurts my heart to know. You should've just killed me instead of saying it in front of my face. At least, I'll die with a smile on my face thinking that you loved me. Even though in reality, you never did.


This is interesting, hey? Seeing your ex still unbelievably crazy in love with you. Was it fun seeing me like this? Was it fun seeing me break like this? Was this your plan all along? If it was, then congratulations. You did it. You achieved your goal because I'm hurting so much. I feel like I'm going to break any second.


If I could just turn back time, I would never say hi to you at that time. I would ignore you and your charming smile. I wouldn't even say yes to you if you ask me on a date.. But hey, those are all lies. I could never ever ignore you. The years that you were a part of my life were my happiest years. I never wanted it to end, but sadly, I'm the only one wanting that.


Did you know that you had my heart the first time? The first time you transferred in my school, you captivated me. Sadly, you were the one who broke it, too. You broke it so cruelly. You broke it without even thinking about the possibilities.


Wendy, would you be happy if I just died? I bet you will. Should I grant you your happiness, then?

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