Talking to HIM everyday was soon becoming a habit. I would slowly narrate all of the places i saw today. I would send him some weird selfies which i am sure he would have laughed off assuming i was silly. He is such a good listener. He never interupts and lets me talk and talk until i suddenly realise he has been too quiet. Sometimes its his staff or sometimes its his manager .If we talk later at night, he sure talks a lot too if no one is around. 

Her silly pictures bring a real dorky smile on my face. I eagerly wait for HER to send those pictures everyday. Its kinda off stress buster for me. Listening to her narrate her day to day activities make me feel refreshed but how i wish i could meetup with HER somehow

Finally i was back HOME. Though i felt my vacation ended way too soon but deep down i was happy that we were now in same TIMEZONE and may be we could somehow meet.Just when i am thinking my phone rings to a strange familiar tone i set up 

Oh Ma Boy Oh Ma Boy.. ( Sistar)

For a few seconds i was lost in the song and self praising myself for choosing such an appropriate song !

KSH: Welcome back
PSH: Thank you so much!
KSH: I guess you must be tired and jet lagged and since you dont have any schedule tomorrow, you should rest now
PSH : Ok
KSH: Talk to you later. Take care
PSH: You too! Have fun during your shooting

That felt strange. Why did i have to end the conversation so soon. I didnt even enquire much about her. May be i should have asked HER to meet again.I tried to rationalize why what i speak and what i think dont match when i talk to her.

Did he just ask me to take rest? I thought he would ask us to meet. Our conversations were getting shorter and shorter by the day or should i say awkward .I wish i knew what i could define this stage i am in. So i start playing the song again

Because of you, I go crazy
Why you tryna play games with me?
Because of you, I’m up and down all the time, everyday
Don’t let me down, I cry every night (No, no)           
Stop breakin’ ma heart
You don’t even know how I feel, and you just turn away
I got what you lookin’ for
Don’t pretend to notice, this is my last warning, (Oh no)
This gonna be the last time! 

Oh ma boy, oh my boy, baby

Shooting has been stressful these days. Having so many seniors and talented actors around does make me a bit nervous. I hope i dont let them down. We have been shooting late night and decided to go out for drinks. It was one of those secretive late night restaurants where you only find celebrities hanging around Suddenly my head turns to them and there THEY were. I wasent sure if she entagled her hand into his after she saw me or were they always like that. So the new couple in town decide to have a night out huh? Did THEY really have to choose this place? I feel an ache in my heart. I simply head out. My manager was too busy drunk to even realise i wasent around

Its nearly 2:00 am and too late to call her out to meet me. She has an early morning CF shooting too. I headed back and as i sat by the bar to order my drink- i just felt too heavy. I check my contact list and as i scroll to through them i see her piture right on my screen .I couldnt resist so i called her up.

Oh Ma Boy!! Oh Ma Boy!!
Am i hearing stuff now. Why is this phone ringing so late? Its 2.00 am. I recheck and it shows his adorable smile on my screen

KSH: Can we meet now

As soon as i heard him i knew something was wrong. His voice , his tone seemed so different. It was too late in the night to meet and how and where would we meet secretively too so that no one knows about it

PSH: You mean now ? NOW?
KSH: Yes, i am within 5 mins drive from your place and in an ordinary car so no one would recognise

For reasons unknown i decided to meet HIM

PSH: Give me 10 mins . I may need some time to sneak out without getting noticed. There is a dark alley nearly 7 mins from my place.  Park your car around with your left indicator so i know which car to get into.

I inform my brother about this little mini adventure skipping a few details such as who i was meeting . He was familiar to my such late night missions when i would sneak out to meet my friends. Finally i managed to locate HIS car and get in.

We rode silently for hours. I couldnt even ask him where we were headed. I had never seen him so tensed and so different from when i saw him the other day by Han River

Finally he pulled over and we were sitting on a park bench. I wait for him to talk as the silence was too over burdening me now.

He spoke

KSH: I saw THEM today in a restaurant. They were holding hands

THEM!!! Now i can put the pieces of the puzzle together. I feel HIS pain now. I dont think i would have handled it any better than he did. I did not even know what to say or what to do. Deep down i knew HE needed me more than anyone and may be not speaking anything would be the best option

I dont know what prompted me to do what i did ! I simply HUGGED him.

I was taken aback when SHE hugged me. I just wanted to see her bright and smiling face but i never realised how much she meant to me! It was a moment, but it changed so much for ME!
I simply HELD her tight not wanting to let her go! I soon realised it was getting too late and she had a shooting in the morning

We head back to the car. I switched on some music.

Something in your eyes, makes me want to lose myself,
Makes me want to lose myself, in your arms.
There's something in your voice, makes my heart beat fast.
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life.
If you knew how lonely my life has been,
And how low I've felt so long.
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along,
And change my life the way you've done.

Feels like home to me, feels like home to me,
Feels like I'm on my way back where I come from.
Feels like home to me, feels like home to me,
Feels like I'm on my way back where I belong.

A window breaks down a long dark street,
And a siren wails over my head.
But I'm all right, 'cause I have you here with me.
And I can almost see through the dark there's light.
If you knew how much this moment means to me,
And how long I've waited for your touch.
If you knew how happy you are making me --
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much.

Feels like home to me, feels like home to me,
Feels like I'm on my way back where I come from.
Feels like home to me, feels like home to me,
Feels like I'm on my way back where I belong.
Feels like I'm on my way back where I belong.

She leaned on my shoulders. I held her hands. No words spoken and yet so much was spoken!