He was hurt and he didn't know why, it shouldn't hurt him, it shouldn't make salty tears prick out of the sides of his eyes but it did. He knew that it was wrong and that he shouldn't have a heart that was beating at a mile a minute but it was, and he couldn't stop it. It had been days, weeks, and months since this started and no matter what he did he couldn't quit it. It was just bubble tea, they just went to buy bubble tea, but why did he feel so betrayed? He felt his hands start to shake when he thought of the possibilities.. It starts at bubble tea but where will it end? He shook his head. He needed to get out of this house and away from the things that remind him of why he is like this.

He slammed the door to his room and all the other members looked at him like he had grown a second head. He didn't look at them, he couldn't because if he looked at them they would see, see the tears that were now falling softly down onto his jacket. His eyebrows creased in worry as he slid out of the house completely, he hoped no one would follow him because not even he knew where he was going.

The street seemed long, and the night seemed longer as he walked. Pale ankles visible above his shoes as he took steps, his eyes never straying from his feet, too afraid of what he may see and before long the sound of people hit his ears and he shuddered, it wasn't his plan to come out of the house at all, let alone without a distraction for his appearance. It was lucky they lived far away from social gossip, but he was sure it wouldn't be long before he was found. He stashed his hands into his pocket and fumbled for anything he could find- a single 5,000won note was his response. Would it be enough to get him a hat? He pondered as he absently kicked a rock near his sneaker, as he crossed the road a car honked at him and yelled out because he had been careless, he didn't care, he didn't say sorry or bow in apology, he just kept walking, tears sliding down his face again, as if they knew no end. Down the street there was a convenience store and to his luck he found a bucket hat that he could wear while wandering around- his savior, he snorted at the thought. Why do I even want to be saved? Nothing mattered at the moment and that was the thing that hurt the most. He didn't know why he felt like that! After purchasing the hat, he walked out of the shop that smelt like cheap ramen and store made kimbap and pushed his thoughts aside, but to no avail.

He couldn't stop thinking about the smile and the laugh that made his heart flutter, and the eyes that bore deep into his mind and stayed there for hours on end, not allowing him to get any sleep. He took a quick glance at his surroundings to find himself in an alleyway, it was dark and quiet, and this was the place he could think.

Leaning against the wall, he felt the most at peace he had felt in a while and he could actually feel his heart beat calming slightly. He shouldn't be that angry. It was just going to buy Bubble Tea! They weren't on a date, they are just co-members, they have no reason to like each other! But either did he. He had no reason to like them either. They were just co-members as well... His heart sank even lower as he lifted his head to the sky to focus on something else, when he heard the quiet tell tale of footsteps approaching his place in the street.

"Sehun…?" He heard his name being spoken in a soft raspy voice that made his heart beat at the same pace as their songs; it was really him. The one that made his heart feel like exploding and make his insides flutter. He was here, with him, and it was real.

"Sehun, what are you doing out here? It's cold and it might even rain very soon, you didn't even stop when Kris and I beeped at you in the car, so I followed you here! What's wrong?" It was really him! He was here and Sehun couldn't believe his ears, slowly, ever so slowly he moved his head to the same level as the newcomer. He blinked twice, as if coming back from a dream…

"Luhan-hyung? What...? You were buying tea with Kris... Why'd you follow me?" Luhan, though still obviously concerned as to why his co-member was so absent, stepped closer and reached out to feel Sehun's forehead,

"I told you, we were in the car that beeped, you kept your head down and kept walking! Why? Are you sick? You want a lift back home?" Sehun's eyes widened and he tried to shrink back further into the wall but couldn't... Luhan was so close that he could almost feel his breath on his face.

"I came out here to think... I was upset... Because you went to buy Bubble Tea with Kris.. I was jealous..." He mumbled the last bit, ashamed at his revelation, but Luhan merely smirked and laughed moving even closer and placing his arm next to Sehun on the wall,

"Why are you jealous Sehun? Did you worry about what your Hyungs were doing alone?" Sehun's eyes widened even more and he shook his head furiously, denying what Luhan had said.

"No! I knew nothing like that would happen between you and Kris, hyung! You's are co-members, I am sure you don't like him like that.." Sehun took his hat off and held it tightly between his hands, wringing it and fidgeting while Luhan took a step even closer.

"Oh, what if we did like each other like that Se-hu-n? Why do you only call me hyung and not Kris? Could you possibly really think of me as your brother?" Sehun lowered his head and shook it again, shocked after hearing Luhan say his name in syllables, drawing it out tantalizingly. 

"I-I don't think of you as my brother really, it's just because your older than me... And well I am not close to Kris and-" Luhan cut Sehun off by placing a finger to his lips.

"Good, because if you thought of me as your brother, I don't think I could have handled doing this" Luhan lowered his finger and replaced it with his lips, still at first and then moving them slowly, expecting Sehun to start following his lead and after a few seconds of Sehun not reciprocating the kiss, he playfully bit Sehun's lower lip, allowing him to explore the inside of his mouth and tickle all of the crevices making Sehun moan with pleasure. Instantly Sehun dropped the hat from within his hands, onto the ground now forgotten and grabbed Luhan's shirt, turning him around and slamming him into the wall where he himself was not moments ago, now kissing back just as ferociously, he thought quickly that he was glad that his heart and his head had lead him out onto the street that night, and that the tears that he shed were not in vain, as the person he previously thought of as a co-member had invaded his heart, and from the way that he was touching him right now, it seemed he was there to stay.

But, unknowingly, while Luhan and Sehun had their magical moment together, another pair of eyes watched the scene and shed tears at the sight of the love of his life kissing another. He sighed and hiccupped slightly as he turned towards his car- the two cups of Bubble Tea left untouched in the cup holders, and with that helping his decision, he called his lawyer to help him leave the group for good, his heart was too weak, and as were his knee's after that view.