Aish, knowing this little prick he’s going to think that Mark and I have something and make such a fuss about it. Where do I find him now ??... Right, the rooftop… he always goes there when his troubled.

Me: Jackson!!!” I yelled walking in the rooftop “Jackson Wang! Where the hell are you!!?”
Jackson: Tsk… as if you care” He mumbled leaning on the wall
Me: Yah! What’s wrong with you? “ I said sitting down next to him
Jackson: Nothing.. why don’t you go back with Mark hyung” He said hiding his head on his knees.
Me: Jackson, come on… tell me…” I said poking his stomach
Jackson: Now you care ha!”He said pushing my hand away “now, after all you’ve been doing this past few months is avoiding me and spending your time with Mark hyung, and not even giving me a freaking glance!” He yelled while standing up..
Me: Jackson… it’s not like that… it’s not what you think it is…” I said trying to get him to sit back again
Jackson: Aren’t you dating Mark hyung, huh?? Aren’t I the freaking third wheel so you need to avoid me to have your freaking moments with him?? Huh?? Tell me noona, am I wrong??” He said looking at me in the eyes…
Me: First, sit down will you” He did as I said “ Second, yes you’re wrong… Mark and I are not dating and you are so not a third wheel… it’s just that… I…I.. “ I said playing with my fingers
Jackson: You what noona??” He said stopping my hands
I hide my head on my knees while saying “ I like you Jackson, that’s why I’ve been avoiding you, I didn’t want this to change our relationship, I know you don’t like me.. so why would I b------
Jackson: Pabo noona” He said grabbing my head and kissing me on the lips… “I’ve liked you since you talked to me on the streets of Seoul, babo” He said giving me a peck on the lips
Me: Yah!” I said hitting his shoulder “Why didn’t you tell me!”
Jackson: I gave you hints noona, but that doesn’t matter anymore… you… are… mine… now!” He said giving me little pecks on the lips
Me: Says who??” I replied getting up
Jackson: ME!” He replied pulling me down on his lap “Now, let me enjoy this Nic” He said hugging me
Me: Ok, but we have to go home in a while, it’s getting late” I said looking at me phone “And Mark is worried”
Jackson: Mark??? How do you know?? “  He said looking at me
Me: He just send me a text” I said showing him my phone
Jackson: Give me” He said taking my phone, and pointing it at us
Me: What are you doing??” I asked looking at him
Jackson: Sending a picture” He replied looking at me and giving me a kiss CLICK “And send”…

Now it’s January, the guys are going to debut soon, Jackson and I are stil together, it hasn’t been easy at all, Jackson has insecurities just like any other person, just like me, I still think I’m not good enough for him, I have so many imperfections… I was in the practice room dancing to the guys debut song Girls Girls Girls, when I got to Jackson’s part I began  thinking about it, what if there comes another girl that take his heart? I mean, he didn’t do anything special for me to like him, so maybe some other girl can fall easily for him too, and he might break up with me… aish… I decided to play some piano here in the practice room, I began playing All Of Me by John Legend, I wish I would get this kind of reassurance from Jackson someday …

“Noona??” said Jr getting inside the practice room “You can sing too??” he said sitting by my side.
“Not like you guys but yes” I replied still playing the song.

Jr: Wow, noona you’re great, can you teach me this song?? “ He said looking at me with puppy eyes
Me: Jajajaj, why ?, you wanna sing it to a girl Jinyoung-ah??” I replied with raised eyebrows
Jr: No…” He replied blushing…”I want to sing it in a show if they ask a talent from us, so please noona teach meeee” He said puling at my sleeve
Me: Ok ok, but you have to feel the lyrics of the song…”I replied starting the song once again
Jr: How?” He replied tilding his head to the side…
Me: Do you know the meaning of this song jinyoung-ah?” I said looking at him
Jr: It’s a love song, right?
Me: It is.. but do you know the meaning?
Jr: Nope… can you help me noona?” He asked in such a cute way… damn kid…
Me: Sure… you know, women have many insecurities, and sometimes we just need a man to take them all away… with this song, he’s trying to do so, by letting her know the ways she makes him feel, what she means to him… That’s the meaning of this song… at least for me.. so if you get that, it’ll feel through your voice…
Jr: Noona…” He said hugging me.. “Are you feeling insecure again?”
Me: I’ve never stopped Jinyoung-ah, but I love him way too much to let him know…  but don’t worry, I’m fine.. “ I replied smiling “Now, let’s get started with this song, shall we?
Jr: Ok… I’m all ears noona!” He replied happily