Acknowledgement

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Jackson rushed over to Mark, who had his arms wrapped around himself really tightly, as though he was scared by something. By his thoughts, perhaps.

“Mark? Mark, are you okay?” Jackson tried to pull Mark’s arms away, but they were as tight as iron.


Jackson watched helplessly as his friend screamed to himself multiple times. Then Mark stopped crying out.

It shocked Jackson – Mark stopped screaming out so suddenly that it actually worried him. Jackson settled down on the bed, right in front of Mark, who had his eyes casted down. “Mark?” He called out, his voice soft, careful even.


Mark breathed out shakily, his hands trembling. Jackson tried to reach out and hold Mark’s hand to see if he was really okay, but the other shrunk away from his touch.

Never has Jackson ever seen Mark this fragile and vulnerable before.

 

“You’ll be okay,” Mark spoke up, his voice hoarse from all the shouting that he had done. Jackson peered at Mark a little closer. Mark was speaking to himself.

“You’ll be okay.”

 

A frown marred Jackson’s face. It was as if Mark didn’t even acknowledge his existence in that room - it was as if Mark didn’t know he was there.

Jackson had an idea of what Mark might be going through, but he has no idea how serious it could be.

If only he knew that it was more than self-harming.

It was depression.

 

Mark was in a battle with the demons that were in his mind.

 

And even if he tried –

‘It’ll be useless, Mark. You know they’re don't genuinely care for you, don’t you?’

– His efforts would be futile.

 

Because Mark was already losing in the battlefield.

 

 

 

Mark woke up from his slumber, his head dizzy. This is weird.

He could feel warmth enveloping around him. That was when he realised that he was sleeping in someone’s arms.

“Um- Jacks?” Mark muttered drowsily, trying to release himself from the other’s hold.

 

Jackson mumbled something incoherent before rousing from his sleep. “Had a good rest, Mark?” He questioned in an unusually soft tone, one that he never used on Mark before.

Oh no. That sounds like a pity tone.

“I’m fine. Why’d you ask?” Mark pushed Jackson’s arms that was around his torso away and got off the bed.

Jackson shook his head. “Just… that outburst you had earlier….”

 

Mark visibly flinched at Jackson’s statement, but he didn’t bother to say anything about it.

“Are the others home?” Mark smoothly changed the topic.

 

Jackson sighed and moved so that he was sitting at the edge of the bed. He knows that what he was about to do was risky, but he had to do something. He can’t just stand on the side lines and watch as his friend s

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erzascarlet12
#1
Chapter 8: You have an gift in writing my friend is suffering the same thing but I don't know what to do if I talk to her it would seem like pity which is irritating
rundaehyun
#2
Chapter 8: I can relate to that
I've been constantly asking myself about happiness but i dont think anyone can answer
Everyone's happiness is different tho, we cannot set standards for it

Anyway, this is a great story. The way you describe is nice and how Mark's thought haunt him. I hope he will get better. Thanks for the story
Venopiro
#3
Chapter 9: you shouldn't write for others...you should write for yourself...this is YOUR passion.
remember that
XanLuvly_08 #4
Chapter 8: Genuinely happy doesn't exist from my point of view; because even when you are, you never know at the moment. And happiness for me is when you just feel your heart swell even at the smallest moments, as for me, when i'm playing my guitar or when i'm writing. I've been battling depression for about 3 years now, and it's a hard battle, i know. But stay strong, and just stick to the things you love and sometimes they do save you. And in the long run, maybe the times when you recall the fact that you battled and won over depression, will be the times when you will be genuinely happy. Long comment though ^.^
ohfabulicious #5
Chapter 9: Omgg please update soon I just lurrrveeee your story = ̄ω ̄== ̄ω ̄=
ReikoXeo
#6
OMG MY FEELS.
I was searching for story like this for long time.
Thank you.

Please update soon okay? ^^
Markson4ever
#7
Chapter 8: omg this is such a great story im in love with it I hope you can update soon
InfiniteSW
#8
Chapter 8: Wow this is really good, I'm really looking forward to the update, its a really great story honestly.
raiszas
#9
Chapter 8: i can't remember when. but can I say something? :) there's no happiness that last forever and there's no genuinely happy, everything in this world has limit. but if you can see everything in your life with heartfelt then there will be :) you just need to be grateful. that's what I did when I drown in to depression and I still keep that thought ^^

I like your story authornim! :) Good Job^^
Kaiten3693
#10
Chapter 8: I like Mark in in this story. It reminds me a bit of what I've going through the last couple of years.
So good job so far, I'm enjoying it (:
And your question intrigued me. When have I last been feeling truly happy? So far back I can't really remember it. But that's ok, because as long as I get by and feel ok, then it could be a lot worse (been there and it wasn't nice). But yeah. I've come to realize I don't need to be truly happy every once in a while. Just being half glad here and there is enough for me (: