I was crying all day just thinking of what Jong In and Bo Young did behind my back. I never really expected to see that coming. I mean it's was too early, wasn’t it? I look outside my window, before hearing my mom knock on the door. I was back to normal as I wiped all my tears away and told my mom to come in.

“Hey, sweetie. Here's your medicine, you better swallow it and come downstairs later because dinner is ready.” She says as she kisses my forehead and ruffled my hair.

I let out a sigh while just looking at the pill. “Mom.” I said.

My mom turned around, taking my study chair and placing it beside my bed. After she sat down, she held my hand right away and caressed my hair.

“Yes, honey?”

“I think it’s useless for me to take this pill.” I said while still looking at it.

My mom just stayed quiet while she held my hand tightly and kissed on it, but suddenly I felt something wet on my hand. I saw my mom was crying.

“I’m sorry Han Ri, I'm not sure what I should do. I’m such a bad mom, I'm not of any help to you. Forgive me.” My mom apologized as she was sobbing very hard. I think this has gotten out of hand.

“It’s not your fault, Okay? Mom, can I sleep? I think I'll pass on dinner tonight.” I said as I wiped my mom tears.

I can’t bear to see my mom crying every night for me...again. I’m just tired of it already.

I flashed a weak smile to her, as i caressed  her still sobbing face.

“Go ahead, have sweet dreams Dear.” She said as she kissed my forehead.

I burst into tears again when my mom left my room. I try to stop them but I can’t. How could I be the only one, out of everyone feeling like this? Why is life become so unfair? Little did I know, I was drifting to sleep

It’s been 2 weeks already since I caught Jong In and Bo Young's affair and yet still I can’t believe it actually happened.  I thought about asking Jong In to explain the situation to me but I turned down his offer when he said he'd explain everything. Why would he go out with me if he wanted to date her? There must have been something between them, like they already fell in love with each other before Jong In and I started a relationship.

Whenever I am deep in thought, I always feel nauseated and I always throw up in the end. It use to be that I'd only throw up waste but this time, it’s blood. I called my mom to tell her, but it was more like yelling. I was terrified. I never experienced this before and I can’t handle blood. My mom was running to the toilet as she saw my mouth was bleeding. She told me to st