You know I'd fall apart without you

 

Chanyeol doesn’t exactly know when Baekhyun became such an important person in his life, to the point where his everything is Baekhyun’s. Baekhyun is his best friend, his lover, his life, his hell, and his heaven. Park Chanyeol revolved around Byun Baekhyun.  Maybe it was the day he realized he was irrevocably and madly in love with Baekhyun. Or maybe it was the day when he saw the male’s smile for the very first time and Chanyeol thought, he’s smile was enough to cure all types of cancer in the world. Or perhaps, it was that day where he saw Baekhyun playing the piano and sang his heart out, the way the light filtered into the room and cascaded down on Baekhyun’s petite form and Chanyeol thought then, angels do really exist.

 

I don't know how you do what you do

'Cause everything that don't make sense about me

                                                                                          Makes sense when I'm with you

 

Chanyeol first met Baekhyun during spring. He was busy scribbling down on his notes during lunch break when Kyungsoo approached their table and introduced his newfound friend, Byun Baekhyun. Chanyeol still remembers how he got lost with those brown orbs, and he still does till today. Chanyeol didn’t know that time, but he fell in love at first sight with Byun Baekhyun at their university’s cafeteria.

 

Baekhyun fitted in easily to the group. He got comfortable with everyone in no time, and due to his chatterbox personality, everyone felt as if Baekhyun was a part of their clique from the very start. Chanyeol and Baekhyun got close easily too.

 

It was as if like they were two pieces of a puzzle, and the moment they found each other they form this perfect sync piece. They hung out with each other a lot, and it always involve Chanyeol’s guitar accompanied with Baekhyun’s beautiful voice. And just like any other day, both of them were in Chanyeol’s dorm room, sitting cross-legged on the floor with Chanyeol playing his guitar and Baekhyun singing songs at whatever he deems fit for the mood.

 

“Hey Baek, ever thought about auditioning for an entertainment company? Like SM or YG or something.”

 

Laughing, Baekhyun smacked Chanyeol’s arm before shaking his head. “What are you talking about Yeol? I’ll probably only embarrass myself there. Besides, even though I like singing, I don’t want to become a full-fledged idol where they dress me up and make me wear make up. I’m completely happy and satisfied just to sing beside you and your guitar.”

 

Mentally screaming at his heart to calm down before he gets a heart attack, Chanyeol scooted closer to Baekhyun, their thighs brushing against each other. In turn, Baekhyun leaned to his left making their shoulders brush against each other.

“But Jongin always say how obsessed I am with my guitar sometimes, he even says I don’t make sense sometimes while playing it.”

 

“You know how Jongin is always such a teaser, Yeol. Even though he says that sort of things, he likes you playing the guitar. And besides,” Baekhyun turned to him, looking up at Chanyeol with eyes sparkling and that beautiful smile on his face that Chanyeol can’t seem to stop loving, “You playing the guitar always make sense to me. Even all the random melodies you play.”

 

Throwing his head back as he laughed, Chanyeol put his guitar aside, and shifted his position so he was fully facing Baekhyun while they were sitting cross-legged at the floor of his dorm room. Grinning at his best friend, Chanyeol gingerly brushed his hand atop Baekhyun’s before squeezing it tightly, “Yeah that’s true. Everything makes sense when you’re around.”

 

“Really? Everything? Even when I’m singing Girls Generation songs at the top of my lungs in public?”

 

Softly bumping his forehead to the shorter male, Chanyeol momentarily closed his eyes before opening them, gazing softly at Baekhyun and giving him a soft smile. “Yeah, even that.”

 

Like everything that's green, boy, I need you

But it's more than one and one makes two

Put aside the math and the logic of it

 

He doesn’t exactly know when he realized how incomplete he feels whenever Baekhyun’s not around. All he knows that whenever Baekhyun is not at his side, he feels uneasy and would often look around his surroundings till he sees the petite male walking towards him, with a smile on his lips and he would take the spot beside Chanyeol as if that’s his spot.

 

And the moment Baekhyun is finally by his side, it’s when Chanyeol finally feels complete and everything is all right in the world.

 

No one in their clique comments about it. Like this one time, when they were all casually hanging out at Luhan and Jongdae’s dorm room after their lectures, Chanyeol came later as he had to have extra lessons since he was falling behind his major class. The moment Chanyeol stepped into the room, everyone but Chanyeol noticed how Baekhyun’s face immediately lit up. Not to mention that with all the space in the room, Chanyeol chose to squeeze on the small couch that Baekhyun made space for him to sit. It almost felt so natural. They would always find each other on their side.

 

Baekhyun grinned up at Chanyeol and the latter grinned back at him before casually throwing an around the shorter male’s shoulder before asking them what they were talking about. Everyone except Jongdae raised their eyebrows at the duo before getting back to the topic of what they were talking about.

 

Words weren’t need. They all know that Chanyeol belonged to Baekhyun, just as much as Baekhyun belonged to Chanyeol. Even though the two idiots didn’t know it then.

 

                                                                                    You gotta know you're wanted too

 

 

The first time Chanyeol saw Baekhyun cry was when he was staying inside he’s dorm room playing with his phone when Baekhyun barged into his room and went straight to his arms.

 

Chanyeol was taken aback by the action but immediately wrapped his arms around Baekhyun, holding him tight. Chanyeol sat up so they would be in a more comfortable position on the bed. Baekhyun broke away from Chanyeol’s arms to give the giant space to a more comfortable position. With Chanyeol’s back against the headboard, he pulled Baekhyun back into his arms, the shorter male on his lap while he held him tight.

 

“Baek, what’s wrong? Talk to me.”

 

“They didn’t want me Yeol..”

 

Chanyeol’s chest tightened at the shorter male’s words. Who the hell in the right mind wouldn’t want Baekhyun? Softly caressing the latter’s hair, Chanyeol held him a little tighter. “Who didn’t want you, Baek?”

 

Furiously rubbing his tear-streaked face, Baekhyun sat up on his lap, sniffling and pouting. “The drama club,” he proceeded to bury his face on Chanyeol’s neck, “They said that they had full participants already but I know that their lying! Junmyeon just told me that they were looking for people two days ago.”

 

Sighing, Chanyeol nudged his shoulder indicating that he wanted Baekhyun to look at him. The shorter male complied and pouted cutely at him, “Am I not good enough for them?” Chanyeol shook his head and cupped Baekhyun’s cheeks with both of his hands.

 

“You’re never not good enough for anyone, Baek. In fact, you’re almost too good for anyone. Screw them if they don’t want you. It’s their loss, not yours. And you’ll always wanted by me, Baek.” Shocked by what he just said, Chanyeol cleared his throat and willed the butterflies in his stomach to calm down, “I mean, by us. You know by everyone in the clique. You’ll always be wanted by us.”

 

Baekhyun lightly smacked Chanyeol’s shoulder as his blush danced around his cheeks. “How do you always find the right things to say?” he playfully squinted at Chanyeol, “Are you perhaps a mind reader?”

 

Chanyeol’s chuckle reverberated through his body as he playfully squeezed Baekhyun’s cheeks with the palms of his hands, making the shorter male look like a fish. Chanyeol smiled his cheeky grin to the latter that made his heart race a million times faster. “Nah Baek, I just know you.”

 

Baekhyun lightly bumped his forehead with Chanyeol’s and smiled at the latter, “I’m glad you know me so well.”

 

They stayed inside Chanyeol’s dorm room, both just talking and sharing subtle shy caresses with one another once in a while. Both cooped up with the fuzzy warm cocoon they made just for them and they only willed themselves to come out of the room when Sehun wouldn’t stop calling them that everyone was already waiting for them at the nearby food stall outside the university.

 

'Cause I wanna wrap you up

Wanna kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

                                                                                              And I wanna call you mine

 

Ever since the Baekhyun crying incident, the pair grew even closer to each other. Both were now, what they friends like to describe them, “literally glued to the hip”. You wouldn’t be able to see Baekhyun without Chanyeol by his side and vice versa. Chanyeol would always wait for Baekhyun if he was running late or taking extra lectures. Never leaving the campus until he was by Baekhyun’s side. The same goes for Baekhyun, too.

 

Baekhyun sleeps over at Chanyeol’s dorm room more frequently now. Since his roommate, Kyungsoo spends most of his time with Jongin, his boyfriend. Kyungsoo was lucky that Jongin has the room for himself and he was practically living there, going over to his original room to talk to Chanyeol once in a while. So Baekhyun coming over and sleeping over was no problem at all.

 

It was cold Saturday morning when Chanyeol and Baekhyun shared their first kiss. It wasn’t elaborate or fancy. It was just, simple. Chanyeol woke up to Baekhyun staring at him, and Chanyeol couldn’t look away. He could never get tired of staring at Baekhyun or finding himself lost at those brown orbs. It would be his pleasure to get lost in them. He stared and tried to memorize how Baekhyun looked like. His bed hair sticking all over the place, his cute little button nose, his long curved eyelashes that would caress his skin every time Baekhyun buries his head on his neck, and that pink pert lips of his. Baekhyun’s lips were the most beautiful pair of lips Chanyeol has ever seen. He doesn’t know if he’s being bias over Baekhyun because everything that Baekhyun has or do, it’s always beautiful in Chanyeol’s eyes. Chanyeol made sure he had this image of Baekhyun permanently in his mind, locking it up away at the back of his mind.

 

So when Baekhyun slid a bit further to Chanyeol’s side, he wasn’t surprised when the shorter male pressed his soft lips against his. It almost felt natural, as if they have kissed a million more times before. Their lips dancing in sync with each other, caressing softly as their breaths mingled. Lips slanting over each other in a slow and passionate manner. Chanyeol’s arm found it’s way to Baekhyun’s waist, curling them around his petite waist and pulled the shorter man closer to him till Baekhyun was lying on top of him. He then wrapped both of his arms around his waist, crushing Baekhyun to his chest. The latter in return, settled himself comfortably on top of Chanyeol, resting his hands on the taller man’s chest. Pressing himself closer to Chanyeol, Baekhyun held his head in between his hands and deepened the kiss. Chanyeol’s lower lip softly, the latter wasted no time and opened up for Baekhyun. They explored each other’s wet caverns, tongues brushing against each other, both finally discovering what the other tastes like after months of wondering. Chanyeol on the petite brunette’s lower lip and Baekhyun couldn’t help but release a low moan. Taking that as a signal that if they don’t stop now, things would escalate further; the taller man slowly broke off the kiss.

 

 

Offering Chanyeol a shy grin, Baekhyun pecked his lips one more time. “Good morning,” the brunette muttered against the taller man’s lips. Chanyeol was smiling so widely that Baekhyun thought he’s face would split. “Good morning to you too, Baek.”

 

Laughing at the expression that Chanyeol was sporting, Baekhyun stuck out his tongue at him. “Stop smiling so widely, your face might split into two.”

 

“But I’m very happy right now, so I can’t control smiling this widely.”

 

“Try then!”

 

“I can’t stop smiling like this, Baek. I’m too happy.”

 

Snorting, Baekhyun placed a quick kiss on his cheek. “Then you better make sure you only smile like that with me. You’re mine now, you understand?”

 

Chanyeol barked his loud laugh and flipped them over, Baekhyun lying on his back on the mattress with Chanyeol on top of him. Dropping a kiss on the brunette’s forehead, Chanyeol cupped Baekhyun’s face, softly rubbing his cheeks, “I’ve always belonged to you, Baek. Always.”

 

Grinning cheekily at the man on top of him, Baekhyun wrapped his arms around Chanyeol’s neck, while the tall lanky man situated himself comfortably in between the brunette’s legs. Pulling the giant’s head down till their noses were touching, Baekhyun looked up to Chanyeol through his eyelashes and subtly brushed their lips together. “I’m not hungry, Yeol. Can we just stay in?”

 

Chanyeol leaned down and kissed the brunette fully on the mouth, knowing exactly what he meant. They stayed in for the whole day, nestled on the warm cocoon of Chanyeol’s bed whispering sweet nothings to each other with soft caresses on the other’s skin.

 

Wanna hold your hand forever

                                                                                              And never let you forget it

 

Quiet moments with Chanyeol are what Baekhyun cherishes the most. It could just be where both of them are lazing their asses off the small couch, Chanyeol playing with his phone, Baekhyun’s back on his side with his short legs that are outstretched over the couch intently reading his novel. And the taller man wouldn’t fail to drop kisses once a while on the brunette’s head.

 

Or the days where Baekhyun would just randomly turn to Chanyeol and go straight to his arms, the latter never failing to just wrap his arms around the petite brunette’s frame tightly. Not bothering to say a word because he knows that Baekhyun just want to be held. And the brunette would bask in the warmth that is Chanyeol, the warmth where he only knows.

 

It also could just be where Baekhyun’s too lazy to prepare for the new day, and they would both end up staying on bed cuddling and kissing. Baekhyun secretly loved this the most because Chanyeol would say ‘I love you’ to him first thing in the morning and the taller man’s morning voice is deeper and ier than usual, which caused Baekhyun to be lazy and would really rather waste his day kissing his Chanyeol.

 

Yes, his Chanyeol, and he was Chanyeol’s.

 

There’s not a day where he feels unwanted by Chanyeol and Baekhyun thanked the heavens everyday for it.

 

You're more than everything I need

You're all I ever wanted

                                                                                                    All I ever wanted

 

 

Three years passed by too fast and now, everyone including Chanyeol and Baekhyun were busily preparing for their last stretch in their university education. Most of them pulling an all nighters to ace their tests the next day, pressure and stress became their best friends.

 

Over that period of time, Chanyeol and Baekhyun had a lot of fights and arguments. Sometimes even the littlest of thing would irk them and they would star arguing.

 

It got so bad one night that Baekhyun broke down in the middle of their fight. The brunette burst into tears and just wrapped his arms on Chanyeol’s waist, clinging to the tall man desperately. Chanyeol in turn wrapped his arms around Baekhyun tightly, blinking his own tears away. Baekhyun’s petite body racked with violent sobs and Chanyeol hated that he was the cause of it. Breaking away from the hug, the taller man proceeded to cup the petite brunette’s face and looked at him straight in the eye.

 

“Baek.. Baby, look at me.” Pushing the brunette’s bangs aside, Chanyeol wiped the shorter male’s tear-streaked face with the ends of his long sleeve shirt. “I’m sorry okay? I’m sorry I shouted at you. There’s no excuse for it, I’m just really sorry. It won’t happen again. I love you. I’m sorry, please stop crying. Please, Baek, stop crying.”

 

“What’s happening to us Yeol?” Baekhyun whimpered and hiccupped as he tried to calm himself down, “D-don’t you want me a-anymore? Am I becoming too much of a burden?”

 

Shaking his head immediately, Chanyeol placed a chaste kiss on Baekhyun’s lips before pulling the brunette into his arms and held onto him tightly. “Nothing is happening to us Baek. I’ll always ing want you, baby. I can never not want you. If anyone’s a burden in this relationship its me. God, Baek, I love you so much please don’t think otherwise.”

 

Nodding, Baekhyun tightened his hold on Chanyeol’s waist even more, “I love you too, Yeol. I love you so much. Don’t leave, please. I love you I love you I love you.”

 

“I wouldn’t be able to leave you even if I wanted to, Baek. I can’t stop loving you either even if I wanted to stop.”

 

Not wanting to hear anymore, Baekhyun bought Chanyeol’s face down and kissed him passionately. The latter complied seconds later, kissing Baekhyun harder, more passionately. They showed each other just how much they love the other that night, with each caress on their skin and with each promise they whisper on the silent night.

 

All of them managed to survive the weeks of endless tests and everyone in their clique proudly graduated with the degree they all worked their asses off. Sehun and Luhan moved in together, since both of them found out they couldn’t keep their hands off each other. Jongdae, Jongin, Tao and Xiumin worked under Kris and Suho’s merged companies. Yixing recommended Kyungsoo to try out the part time job as a kindergarten teacher since Kyungsoo was good at handling kids.

 

You'll always be wanted

 

Years passed and everyone was living the life they all envisioned it to be. Chanyeol and Baekhyun moved in together at a rather high-end apartment in Seoul the moment they graduated and are living their happily ever after everyday. Five years into their relationship, and Chanyeol still finds himself falling for Baekhyun all over again first thing in the morning the moment he wakes up.

 

This morning was no exception. Smiling softly at the brunette beside him, Chanyeol gingerly brought his hand up and caressed the brunette’s cheek. The shorter male unconsciously scrunched up his cheeks, his pert pink lips forming into a pout. Chanyeol found the action endearing and he couldn’t help himself but kiss those plump pink lips. Groaning, Baekhyun turned to his side, not wanting anyone to disturb his sleep. Chanyeol could only softly chuckle at the action; wrapping his arms around Baekhyun’s waist he pulled the petite brunette against his chest, spooning the shorter male. He dropped a kiss on the brunette’s head before thinking on how to execute his plan tonight. He thought about the small velvet box that’s safely tucked into his coat’s pocket. Giddy with the thought, Chanyeol wrapped his arms tighter around the male. He can’t wait to see the look on Baekhyun’s face when he gets down on one knee in front of him later in the evening.

 

He always talked about how he always wants Baekhyun. How he never wants to lose Baekhyun. What more proper way to prove that by sealing his words with forever, right?