PART 5

Sungmin sipped his tea from the teacup which apparently, is the teacup Kyuhyun gave him on their first monthsary knowing that the other loves tea. Sungmin using it made Kyuhyun smile.

"I thought you’d throw that away."

Kyuhyun said as he eyed the teacup.

"Why would I?"

Sungmin asked when he finished sipping his tea.

"Well, in movies---"

Sungmin cut what Kyuhyun was about to say.

"Movies and real life are not the same Kyu."

Sungmin said in a matter of fact tone.

A long pause was made, making Sungmin and Kyuhyun look into different places.

"So, how's your life then?"

Sungmin asked changing the topic

"How should I say this..."

Kyuhyun paused as he thought of the right words to use.

“I’ve heard you got another role?”

Kyuhyun can only nod with what Sungmin said.

So he still thinks and keeps himself updated about me.

Kyuhyun thought. With that in his mind, his smile crept up.

“It’s a main role right?”

Kyuhyun can only nod with that.

“Well, you better practice already then.”

Sungmin quickly said as he finished his cup of tea.

Kyuhyun’s face was filled with different emotions. He thought that Sungmin was finally going to get back with him. He thought that giving Sungmin more time to think would finally let him think straight and talk with him of what he did wrong so he can finally know how to apologize properly.

"You don't understand Kyu."

Sungmin answered..

"Well let me understand then Min."

Kyuhyun said.

"I already know your reaction Kyu."

"What? Can't you just let me hear it?"

"I told you, it's not important."

"You left me because of it. And now you're telling me it's NOT important?"

Kyuhyun stood up, slamming both his hands unto the table that startled Sungmin. His voice was near screaming.

"Just let itbe Kyu."

Sungmin stuttered as he fidgeted with his nails under the table.

"How can I let it be Min?"

Kyuhyun was screaming already by that time.

Sungmin was beyond shocked.

“Was it that easy for you Min?”

Kyuhyun was already crying.

“Was it that easy to just walk out of my life?”

Kyuhyun continued in between sobs.

“Leave me all alone without even saying what’s wrong?”

Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin and the other’s eyes were already tearing up.

I still love you, I love you. Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you. The more I try to approach you, the more I try to get closer, you try to run away and that makes me lonely. My tears are not stopping. You can’t get farther away. Don’t run away; don’t turn away from me, PLEASE. Because our happy and good times keeps passing me by.Because I feel like I will regret this till I die, I have something to tell you right now.

"How can I let be? How can I?"

Kyuhyun pleaded. His voice became softet and calmer than the voice he projected a while ago.

"Let me ask you this then."

Sungmin said as he calmly held his empty teacup on the table.Sungmin argued greatly in his mind. Here is Kyuhyun, begging him to be with him once more. Here is the fact lying in front of him. The mere fact that he left the man he loves dearly for something his dense mind concluded. The fact that Kyuhyun would have accepted Deul. That Kyuhyun could have been a wonderful husband who would support his wife at times like how Sungmin was experiencing now. He could already visualize a very excited Kyuhyun, a very happy Kyuhyun. But he can also see Kyuhyun’s career as an uprising musical actor crumble in front of them.

Kyuhyun looked at him intently, waiting for what the other was about to continue to say.

"What life do you want?"

Sungmin asked stopping tears to fall even more.

“A life with you Lee Sungmin!”

Kyuhyun said with gritted teeth.

“Why can’t you understand that?”

Kyuhyunadded sounding like almost giving up.

“Because it’s not the life I want you to have!”

“Why do you have to decide my life Min?”

“Just have faith in me Kyuhyun. You’ll have a brighter future ahead without me.”

Sungmin could not stop the tears to fall down anymore, so he let it them to roll down his face as he bit his lower lip to moderate the flow of his tears.

Sungmin stood up ready to go to his room and leave Kyuhyun completely once more. But now, no more expecting the younger to be around. Now, with migrating to Japan and forever hide Sandeul to his father. It may sound cruel to Sande