Sehun stood by the window, staring into the distance as the rain heavily poured down, harshly padding the ground. The night was cold but Sehun did not bother to cover himself with thick clothes, instead wearing only a white over-sized t-shirt with a boxer. His hands never really left his baby bump and kept on caressing it tenderly. He felt lonely and the tears that were streaming down his face were the only company he had tonight. 

After that day, Kai had stopped coming over and he no longer got a text from Kai. No good morning wishes, no good night's; he appeared to be gone or might as well be leaving for London again. Sehun did not want to admit that he actually wanted Kai to stay close because he knew, someday, Kai would leave him again for Luhan. A sigh escaped his mouth together with the crystal liquid that refused to stop rolling down his cheeks. Averting his gaze, he let his eyes wander around the room; dull and gloomy were the only things that filled the room; nothing else. 

Probably his life would always be this way, somber; in a complete tranquility people might say but never really give him the feeling of serene. The sound of the clock ticking seemed to be louder than the rain because he kept on counting the seconds and minutes that passed by, waiting for something uncertain; something he could not describe what it was. There was an empty space in his heart and he knew too well what the actual reason was but he did not to make it surface in his mind even though he was certain that he would never be able to shake it off. 

"I don't think it was a mistake. I wasn't really drunk that night." 

Another rolled of tears coming down and this time he sobbed harder, clutching on the shirt a little too tight as he choked on the cry he was making and leaned his back against the window as he slowly let himself slide down until he landed on his with a low thud. It hurt. It hurt him really bad to be left alone without anyone by his side. He knew that his parents had forgiven him and always be ready to stand right by his side whenever he needed them but he did not want to let them see him like this. It might hurt them as well and he needed not to tell them he was fine because they had known from the very beginning that he could never be fine alone. It was just they did what they were told by Sehun; by letting the pale-skinned guy having his moment and give the younger a space to think. 

"I hate you, Kai." 

"Please, Kyungsoo. I beg you. I kn