"mom.. I didn't..--"

Scratched the back of my neck

I looked at her and gave a puppy eyed look.

"well.."

she put her hands on her waist

"....I guess you're okay now"

she smiled at heechul

what? what is happening here?

I looked at heechul and he was smiling back

"what's the meaning of this? are you two hiding something??"

I asked

"I will tell you on the right place and on the right time"

heechul answered back

"heechul-oppa!" hyerin broke from mom's tight embrace

she hugged heechul and said

"why did you kissed her? *pouts* why can't ? 5 years isn't enough"

she whined while glaring at me

"ew. heechul will be old then"

I teased and stuck my tongue out

he just laughed and broke from hyerin's hug

"I like your unni, hye~ mianhe!"

he pats her head, she just pouted and stormed upstairs

"so what now, _____?"

my mom snaps me out

"hmm?"

"I didn't know.. you and heechul met 4 years ago"

"ah.. ne. you were in new york back then"

"why didn't you tell me?"

"I was busy and I forgot to tell you.......?" I shyly said

"busy with.. what? with him? *points at heechul*"

"ani! we're just friends back then"

I panickly said 

"friends? when we kissed."

heechul in

"aish~ teens these days.."

my mom facedpalmed

"I'm sorry mom.. back then I can't control

my feelings towards heechul.. that's why.. you know.."

I closed my eyes and sighed

".. I tried to forget about it.."

I looked at him and he gave me an innocent look

"... I tried to mom.. but, I can't."

I frowned and took a deep sigh.

"______, you're just like me.." mom said

"stop the drama.. yeobo~" heechul hugs me from behind

"yah!? I'm not your yeobo! I'm not you girfriend~!"

I forcefully broke from his hug
 

"no-oh-oh! we just kissed~" he teased me

"you were the one who did it first!" he said

"nyenyenyenye~ whatever~!" I covered my ears

"aish.. this two." mom rolled her eyes

"I'll leave you two here.. but.."

my mom stopped and glared at us

"dont. do. anything STUPID"

she threatened

"a-arrasso." we said

"good night.. mom"

heechul smiled widely at her

I smack his forehead

"happy?!" I rolled my eyes

"happy.. what?"

"that mom knows already"

I fell on the couch and pouted

"why do you always deny your feelings?"

he said in a serious tone

"I dont deny my feelings towards you!"

I stand up and crossed my arms

"why are you like this? you know that it hurts but you still doing it"

he stepped back and looked at me with teary eyes

"... I love you, I know I pushed you away.. you know why?

because It's not yet the right time.. when I drove here in your house

the night after you've left seoul, it was all dark.. I asked the neighbors where you are

they said that you went away to study, to fulfill your dream.. I realized that I should persue mine too,

when hyerin texted me a days before your arrival..I was so happy. I wanted to give you my gentle side

but you rejected it.. are you happy now that we're even?"

he walk towards the door and slammed it

I was speechless, I didn't know he liked me that much

.. like? more than love..

suddenly my heart was crushed into million pieces

when I heard him said that

"what have I done?"

I fell onto my knees and cried

I covered my face why my hands

"what.. have I done? I hurted him"

I remember the times I used to love them

he was my first bias

I used to fight with some antis in school when I heard they're bashing them

I used to be.. me.

this isn't me

this.. pain I felt last 4 years ago changed me

into someone whom heechul doesnt recognized

"no.. I have to tell him"

I got my jacket and shoes

I rushed to the front door and closed it gently

I was running fast

I still remember where their dorm is

I got in a bus where i can relax for a bit

"miss are you in a hurry?"

the driver asked me

"ahh.. kinda *smiles*"

"I see, it's late at night be careful.. arasso?"

I smile and nodded

I exited the bus and waved at the driver

I was running when someone grabbed me

I turned around and there was a drunk man staring at me like..EWWW

"Hey~ y~"

he said sedYUCKtively

"ew! drunkard, get.. your.. hands off of my wrist!"

I struggled to be free but he's holding my wrist

"ARGH! GET YOUR Y HANDS OFF OF ME!!!"

I slapped him with my free hand, he let go of my wrist

"wow, what a fighter!"

I started to run and he chased me

unfortunately, he grabbed my jacket and started to kiss me

"heeeeelp--" I shouted but he covered my mouth

I fell on the ground and he was laughing like a in a mental hospital

"ohh~ you're mine tonight!"

I was crying and he just gave me an evil smile

eotteoke?