i can't believe they're fighting and, not telling me what's the problem. and i just so mad at them, so mad. ugh. like, what if they're fighting in front of me, and i'm just standing between them like a potato? ugh. i just don't wanna know about them, again.

i sighed, and backs to the reality that sulked under the big tree on the school's field. i stared at my ice blue Swatch, it's 7.30 AM. oh great, i just skipped the first lesson today. just because of 2 crazy awkward creatures, i skipped a lesson and it's just.. wow, amazing. totally amazing. ugh.

i stared at the skies, hoping something wonderful would come into my life quickly, and longlast.

"Park Joonji," suddenly a voice called my name, i turned my head back, to check who's there.

"Oh hi, Taehyung." i faked a smile to a guy with a can of cola in his hand,

"Skipping class, eh?" he grinned, and walks closer,

"No. I'm just ACCIDENTALLY skipped a class. Remember, ACCIDENTALLY." i told him, he laughed a bit.

"Hahahahaha, well you're lucky today. We are all skipping this class." He told me, as a classmate, he's a honest guy.

"Really? What do you mean?" i asked him,

"Yeah, Mr. Woo isn't here though. The other teacher says he's got a fever, and they let us all skip the class. What a cool teachers." Taehyung chuckled,

"HAHAHAHAHAHA That's right. By the way, Taehyung.. did you notice, something awkward between Hoseok and Yoongi?" i asked him, and he just gave me that confused look,

"Obviously not. They walked down from the rooftop and laughed together." Taehyung said,

BANG. feels like a bullet through my brain.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA REALLY?" i tried to asked taehyung again, he nodded.

I was like a real potato. That must be something they hide away from me.

"What's the matter with the awkward? They're fine as hell." Taehyung take a sip of his cola,

"but.. but, this morning they seems hate each other!" i said,

"Perhaps you're outta your mind, they laughed together tho. how can they hate each other?" Taehyung laughed a bit,

"Yes Taehyung, you're right. i'm outta my mind." i scrolled my phone screen, totally gonna wreck their secrets.

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it's already 7 hours after i sent the messages, but there's no reply.

i'm so frustrated, and don't know what to do, honestly.

"NOONAA NOONAA NOONAA" Sungho's squeaky voice makes me back to the reality,

"Can you just shut up Sungho for real you're ruining my life." i snapped at him coldly,

"Noona-ya, i know who broke eomma's plate." sungho said calmly,

"OKAY WHAT DO YOU WANT?!!" i screamed at him, and that little psycho just smiled,

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"Happy now?" i asked Sungho, he smiled and nodded with chocolate ice cream all over his mouth,

"ugh gross. you better go brush your teeth after this." i continued,

"Noona, is that Hoseok and Yoongi hyung?" Sungho pointed at 2 guys that sat about 3 seats in front of us. Oh no, it's not 2 guys only. it's 2 guys + 1 girl.

"Huh? Where?" i pretend that i didn't see anything. But yes, these guys looks like Hoseok and Yoongi.

"There! There! You want me to call them?" Sungho said,

"Ah, no! No! Sungho, don't. Just enjoy your ice cream." i said, slurped my strawberry milkshake, wishing it's not them.

i quickly dialed Yoongi, and wishing the phone of the guy that sat 3 seats in front of us isn't ringing.

But yes, he picked his phone,

"Yeoboseyo, Joonji? What's the matter?"

Thank you so much, Sungho, you makes me know the truth between them.

"Mind to ask you a favor?" i said, keep looking straight to the guy sat 3 seats in front of me,

"What's up?"

"Please turn your head back. And realize what a jerk are you guys." i said coldly, holding my tears,

The guy turned his back, and i can see his stupid face. He's Yoongi. He looked at me with an apology look, but i shook my head. Still holding my tears.

"Joonji, it's not like wha--"

"It's enough, Yoongi. i don't wanna live a lie as your friend again. And tell Hoseok the same thing. I hate you guys. I'm done. Don't ever find me, again." i cutted off his words, and quickly pull Sungho's wrist, dragged that little boy out from the restaurant. I still can see Yoongi's apology look, but that's it. I'm done.

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I wasted my tears that night. Like a genius that earned the most lowest score in the class. I mean, THAT IS SO PAINFUL WHEN YOUR OWN FRIEND BETRAYED YOU LIKE THIS. UGH MY FEELINGS IS SO MESSED UP. I'm so mad, i'm so sad, and i just wanna wreck this world.

to be honest, i like them. a lot. ok i know hiding feelings isn't good. at first i hate them for being such a fool around me. but as the time goes by, i like them. so much. but most of my mind said that i like Yoongi more than Hoseok, and after it i just.. don't wanna know them anymore.

"JOONJI-AAA LET'S HAVE A DINNER!" eomma called from the downstairs,

i'm so hungry, but my eyes are swollen. How can i explain?

AHH it's better to eat with swollen eyes than died because of hunger.

"I'm coming." i answered.

i walked downstairs carefully, cause my vision isn't that good. it's blurred, yeah my eyes got a little blur whenever i cried.

"Hey what's up with that swollen eyes?" Sandara unnie asked, and i just wanna shut up, cause she's saying it too loud, so appa and eomma could hear.

"Hahaha i've read 'The Fault in Our Stars' too much so my feels came out and vo--"

"Just tell me the truth, you're not a kind of girl that cried just because read a novel." Sandara unnie cuts off my words,

"No! I'm kinda interested of sad novels these days.." i forced a laugh, just to convince the whole family members that i'm definitely okay.

"Whoa, great progress, sist!" Sandara unnie continued, so glad she believed me that i love to read sad novels these days. actually i love to read my sad life these days.

"You're not crying over a guy, right?" she continued. Yes, i'm not crying over a guy. I'm crying over 2 guys.

"No.Obviously not." i answered, and quickly grab a plate of spaghetti bolognese,

"Okay then." she lifted her left eyebrow, giving a sign that she doesn't believe me 100%.

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"Soojung, can i say something crazy?" i said at the phone,

"LOVEEE IS AN OPEN DOOOOORR!!" i can hear she's singing out there, i chuckled,

"No. it's something crazy. more than Anna and her love is an open door thing." i said,

"HAHAHAH allright, what is it?"

"I'VE CRIED FOR 1,5 HOURS TODAY YAY." i said,

"WHAATTTTT"

"I'll text you later for the story. I'm going to shower right now." i said then hungs up the call,

i'm still in a doubt, to tell soojung or not. but maybe she could help. ah yes, i should tell her, she's my best , so what? i'm gonna tell her.

on 3, i'll heads to bathroom. but when it comes to 2, suddenly my phone is ringing. and yes, it's double message.

"Sorry for earlier."

"Sorry for earlier."

yes, same double message. but different sender. and you could guess who's the sender there.

but my mind says no, so i decided not to reply it.

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