He feel nervous . The president of SMe called him and now he facing the man but yet the man still quite without anyword . He knew that man was mad with him , he knew his mistake , he knew his carrer will affected . Staying in the cold room with air conditioner but he still sweating the quiteness in the room making him feel uneasy . The tension that built up in the room making him want to faint .

" Kim Kibum , you know your mistake right . " The man ask with his icy cold voice .

" Yes , i know what i 've done . "

" Care to explain ? How the hell you driving while drunk and having drug with you ? " The man yell at him . His face become red because of anger .

" I admit that I was drunk that time since I accidently drink from Mir glass ." Key look down avoid from looking at the man eyes. 

" How about the drug ? They say you are clean but they will investigate you for drug dealer . " 

" Trust me . I don't own that drug . It wasn't mine . I don't even know what it name . " Key eyes start to tears . He feel so tired . The question that he need to answer . The tension that built on his shoulder . The guilt of his own mistake . All of that thing making him had a headache . 

" Kibum since i know you for so long i trust you . You are an honest person who don't even know how to lied properly . You shouldn't take the risk to drive while drunk . " The man face softenen . He pat Key shoulder gently . 

" But you know your reputation condition now . The thing that you did may cause our company won't be trusted. " 

" Please , i'm begging to you .. please save my carrer . " Key said while crying . Now he can't held it anymore . His carrer is his dream that he achieve after all the hardwork that he made after and after all the support that he get . His carrer going to ruined because of his careless . He going to destroy his own dream just by his own mistake . 

" I'm going to do my best but i can't promise that people will take it easily . Go home and take rest Kibum . You look tired . " The man look at Key who already pale from the start with eyes bag around his eyes . The SHINee fashion icon representative now look mess with red nose , blushing cheek , eye bags and his gloomy wear . 

" Thank you . " Key said softly . He bow to that man before left the room and meet his other fellow member . 

" What did he say ? He cancel your contract ? He ask police to arrest you ? He going to make you suffer ? " Jonghyun ask looking worried at his friend who once a chatty person now a very quite . 

" Not any of it true . Let me rest Jonghyun . " Key walk past Jonghyun and went inside the lif left who look at him . He close the lif door without waiting for them . Now he just want to be alone . 

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" ! Now they making you have gay relationship with me just because i kiss your cheek . " Jonghyun look at the artical that assumed that Key tried to seduce him which is extremely not logic. He suppose to be the one that been blame on it since he the one who kiss Key . The accident about what happen before had already pass by three month but yet the reporter won't stop . 

" It's okay Jonghyun , who won't seduce a y guy like you . " Key joking althought in his heart he feel really hurt . The reporter keep making him look like a bad person to the public . They wrote that Key a girl , Key almost make SHINee bankrupt , Key had credit card debt and any other news that totally not true . 

" Are you sure that you okay with it ? " Minho look at Key . He knew Key keeps all in his heart and doesn't want to make the other member to upset but he concern about Key situation . They re in the same team . He doesn't want to see his team mate just fall like that . Fall because of the lie . 

" Hyung , you can share it with us . We know you upset . I heard you cried in bathroom before, don't hide it from us . " Taemin hold Key hands . He knew Key had been cried in the toilet few times before and he feel useless since he can't do anything . 

" I can't take it anymore . Please make them stop . " Finally Key broke into tears . Taemin hug him and soothe him petting behind his back gently . 

" There, cry if it can make you feel better . " Onew gently pet Key head . He had been worried about Key that always hiding his feeling . Now he feel relief that Key finally not going to keep that feeling by himself anymore . 

After tired crying , Key sleep in Taemin warm embrace . His eyes were puffy . Onew lift Key into Key room and cover him with his favourite blanket . He feel a little bit sympthy towards the boy . He been losing his weight since he can't eat properly Onew can sense that Key losing weight since he feel how light the younger boy had been . 

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" Oppa sign . " Key look at the girl who taking autograph from Minho . He feel envious with the other member since one hour had pass but there still no fans at his place but the other member place crowded with fans . 

" Oppa  . " A voice waking him from his thought . 

" Oh , i know that someone still like me . " Key smile at the girl sweetly . 

" What your ... " Key look at the girl who look at him with disgust . 

Something wrong here . What with that face ?

" Yah , can you just die and leave SHINee . They are better without you . You make their name stink . Once you died SHINee will be perfect . You just useless . " The girl said while laughing . The girl words make Key paled . 

Am i just a useless ? 

 Her laugh like mocking Key . He doesn't want to heard the girl voice . He close his ears and shut his eyes tightly but another voice appeared, his band mate voices . The voices of SHINee member .

" You are the burden for us . " Jonghyun voice ringing inside his head . 

" Why i in the same band as him . " Taemin voice followed . 

" He is useless . " Minho voice said with annoyed . 

" He should just die . " Onew voice said with hatered . 

" Yes he should die . " The others followed . The voice getting louder like thousand of people chanting it repeating it like mantra . 

" Stop .. please stop ... i'm begging please stop.. stop " Key cried . He look around and saw the most terrible image . People gathering around him and give him disgusting look . 

" Just die . Go kill yourself . Your friend won't be suffer by you . " The girl voice come again making Key waking up with jolt .He shiver and covered with cold sweat. He get a nightmare . It just a nightmare . He thought, without knowing that nightmare will haunting him .