Reality vs Feelings

This Winter

SEOHYUN'S POV

i walk to the kitchen to find yuri unni 

"unni i'm going to school now" i said and i grab my bag

"ok if you're going to be late give me a call, arraso?" she said while flipping the pancakes

"neh unni, bye" i said and i walk out the door

i walk to the gate while fixing my shirt and not looking to the front

"morning" suddenlly a familiar voice greet me, i look to the front and kyuhyun's standing in front of my house

i rolled my eyes and walk pass him

"wow wow hold up" he said and he's catching up to me

"what?" i said and i look at him

"let's walk to school together" he said and walk next to me

"no thanks" i said and walk faster but he keep catching up

"leave me alone" i said 

"nope" he said 

"what is wrong with you? i said leave me alone" i said and walk faster but yet... he keep catching up

"do you have an amnesia or something? last night i told you i'm not gonna stop, i mean it" he said and walk next to me

"fine walk where ever you want i won't care" i said and we end up walking together

we're not just walking together but we sit in the bus together, i try to avoid him and siit somewhere else but...he catch up AGAIN

i get off the bus and walk away leave him behind but he catch up with me and we walk in the building together, unfortunatelly we're on the same class so we walk together 

we walk in to the class and his friends are already there

"hey kyuhyun-ah" that donghae guy call him and they're high five-ing

"oh seohyun-shi annyeonghaseo" donghae greet me and give me a wink, i just smile and walk to my chair 

"yah!" kyuhyun hit his shoulder

"whaeyo?? are you jealous? are the two of you dating?" donghae said and i just sit on my chair and read my book pretending not to hear him

"can i talk to you?" kyuhyun ask donghae and they both walk outside the class

 

KYUHYUN'S POV

"are you two finally dating?" donghae ask when we're outside 

"no..well not yet i hope" i said

"wait wait wait what was that suppose to mean?" he ask

"well we kinda get...closer?" i said 

"really??" he ask and i nodded

"but there's one problem... i think she's harder than i thought" i said

"but there's something odd.... you're ex girlfriend is JESSICA JUNG the diva, the it girl in this school, the princess, the ice princess, how can you turn from someone like jessica into someone so innocent, bookworm like her?" he ask

"she's..she's different..there's something i like about her..lots of things" i said

"how long have you known her? you talked like you know her that well" he said

"well i'm hoping to know more but you have to believe me that she's the one" i convince him 

"don't tell anyone, including sungmin leeteuk and sunny" i said

"you're secret is save with me, oh and i'm here to help, just like before" he said

"thanks" i said and we walk back in the class, i spot seohyun glare at me and she turn back to her book

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The break time bell ring and everyone walk out the class except one person.. well you know who 

seohyun just sit on her chair, take out a book and read

i walk out the class and run to the canteen 

"hey kyuhyun come sit here" sungmin call me from his table, he's sitting with sunny leeteuk and donghae

"sorry guys i'm having my lunch in the class, just here to buy foods" i said and walk to the food counter

i buy 2 sandwich and juices, i run back to the class but i bumped to someone...jessica

"Oppa Annyeong!!" she said with sqeezy voice

"oh hi" i said and walk away

 

JESSICA'S POV

WHAT?! DID HE JUST WALK AWAY FROM ME?!?!!?! rgghh i walk slowly behind him and follow him

wait he's going in the class, what is he doing?

i peek in the class and OH MY GOD HE'S THERE WITH.....HER!! THAT NEW GIRL!!

oh my god i hate her!!!!! seo joohyun you better watch out!

 

KYUHYUN'S POV

and she's still there

i drag my chair to her table and i place the juices and sandwich on her table and sit close to her

she put her book down and look at me with confuse looks

"here i got you sandwich and juice, you're not saying no" i said and eat my sandwich while she's still looking at me

"what are you doing?" she ask

"you're getting thinner everytime i see you and i never see you eat anything you just read your book all the time, are you on a diet or something?" i ask

"it's none of your business" she said 

"can you please just eat? you're not just getting thinner but you're face is pale" i said

"don't act like you care" she said

"i do. ok stop acting cold because i care" i said and she look at me

 

SEOHYUN'S POV

"i do. ok stop acting cold because i care" he said

kyuhyun please don't make this hard for me, do you know how hard it is to be cold to you?

you're too nice and it hurts me to act like this to you

i grab the sandwich and the juice and i put it in my bag

"i'll eat them later" i said and he keep looking at me

"promise?" he said

i sigh and i nodded 

he smile and he rolled the sandwich plastic he just ate and throw it to the trash can

"i'm going to the canteen, ok byee" he said and smile

i just smile and watch him walk away

he walk out and i'm alone in the class

why is he making everything so hard? i try my best to avoid him but he just keep coming to me with his nice gesture 

 

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the school bell rings and i hope i can go home now but i have to sign a paper in the principal office due to the new student thing
but i have to wait for the principal who's not here yet
 
i pick up my phone and call yuri unni but she didn't pick up 
 
"this is yuri i can't come to the phone right now, leave a message and i'll call you back!" the voice mail said
 
"unni i think i'm gonna be late, bye" i hang up and put the phone ack in my bag
 
"hey you're going home now?" kyuhyun ask
 
"umm no i have something to do with the principal" i said 
 
"oh really? well i have soccer practice after this, wait for me ok? i'll take you home" he said
 
"what? no need" i said
 
"i'm not taking no for an answer, it's winter.. sunset is early and it'll be dark soon, i'm not gonna let you walk alone in dark"
 
"well it's winter why would there be a soccer practice?" i ask
 
"we have indoor field, please wait" he said
 
"fine" i give up
 
"but don't wait outside, wait in the lobby..." he said 
 
"kyuhyun let's go" donghae call him
 
"ok i'm coming" kyuhyun said
 
"see you" he said and walk away
 

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i just finished filling the form and i walk to the lobby waiting for him
i sit on the lobby chair and i hear steps behind me and i turn around and find that jessica girl with 3 other girls
 
"hey boyfriend stealer!" jessica said and i stand up facing her
 
"hey pathetic ex girlfriend" i said
 
"OMG you did not just say that!!" the other girl said
 
"i'm not his EX girlfriend i'm still his girlfriend and you better stay away from him, i told you if you don't you'll regret it!!" she said
 
"what are you gonna do? kill me?" i ask
 
"DON'T ACT LIKE YOU'RE BRAVE, JUST STAY AWAY!!" she said and she push me until i hit the wall
 
my head got hit on the wall and it's making me a little dizzy but before i can move someone stand in front of me but my vision is blur and i can't see who is he
 
"what the hell?!" the guy who's standing in front of me said that
 
"uh..kyu..kyuhyun oppa" jessica said and her voice turn soft and childish...eww
 
i gain my vision and i see kyuhyun in front of me, he's wearing a jacket and jeans and carrying a gym bag 
 
"how many time should i tell you, we're over...we are over!" kyuhyun said
 
"NO WE'RE NOT!! LET'S GO GIRLS" she said and walk away followed by three other girls
 
i keep standing there leaning on the wall because my head's very diizzy
 
"hey you're ok?" he said and he put his hands on my cheek and make me facing him 
 
i was shock from what he did but i keep looking at him and my body freeze 
 
our face are inches from each other but i can't move my body to reject him, i feel so dizzy and everything is a blur...dark
 
 
KYUHYUN'S POV
 
i put my hand on her cheek and she's looking at me, her face's pale and suddenly her eyes are closed and she fainted
 
"seohyun..seohyun" i said try to wake her, i put my gym bag on the chair amd carry her bridal style
 
i carry her and take her in the clinic, no one's here since it's 6.00 pm now 
 
i put her on the bed, i grab a towel and warm water
 
 
SEOHYUN'S POV
 
i'm awake and find my self sweating like crazy
 
i open my eyes and kyuhyun is sitting next to me wiping my sweat
 
"hey, are you ok?" he said and stand up closer to me
 
"where am i?" i ask with soar voice 
 
"school clinic, you fainted earlier" he said 
 
"how are you feeling now? are you ok?" he ask
 
"i wanna go home" i said
 
"ok let's go, but are you ok?" he ask
 
"yes" i get up and stand up but i'm still weak and i almost fall but he hold me
 
"are you sure?" he ask and i nodded 
 
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i put on my coat and gloves, and i grab my bag
 
we walk outside the building and it's snowing
 
kyuhyun look at me and put a scarf around my neck
 
"it'll make you warmer" he said and i smile 
 
we walk on the street and there's no bus at this time so we have to walk all the way to my house 
 
he keep glancing to me, i want to tell him i'm fine but i'm too weak to talk
 
"hey you're so pale, you ok?" he ask
 
i just smile and nodded
 
he stop his steps and look at me
 
"no you're not, you're so pale, please if you're not ok - -"
 
"no kyuhyun i'm fine" i said with hard breath
 
"no you're not" he said
 
"i'm just...it's cold" i said and my body start to shiver
 
kyuhyun grab my hand and hold it tight
 
"wait" he said and he take off his coat and put it on me
 
i look at him and he only wear a sweater
 
"no.. you'll get cold, i'm fine just take me home" i said and try to take off his boat but he refuse
 
"i'm gonna be ok, you need that" he said and we walk to my house 
 
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we arrive in front of my house and he walk me to the door
 
i take off his coat and give it back to him
 
"thank you" i said and he smile
 
"you better rest, get well soon" he said and walk away 
 
"kyuhyun" i call him and he turn around
 
"why are you being nice to me when i'm cold to you all the time?" i ask and he look shock 
 
"i know this may sound crazy but you're different and i like you...so much" he said
 
"it may sound too soon but, i think i love you" he said and i'm shock
 
he walk closer to me and lean closer to kiss me but i look away and refuse him
 
"no i can't" i said
 
"why not?" he ask
 
"it's not that simple, there's so much you don't know" i said 
 
"let's take this slowly and get to know each other" he said
 
"no..." i said and i look down
 
"why?" he said
 
" i don't want to.... you better go" i said and i walk in the house and leave him
 
kyuhyun i'm sorry... i'm so sorry 
 
i run to my bed room, i grab my diary and write, i start crying thinking about what happen
 
i put my diary back and walk to the window, i look outside and... kyuhyun is not there
 
i sigh, i bet he's mad at me... i think it's for the best
 
this is what i want right? for him to hate me, but....why doesn't it feels right
 
i look up to the sky and it's , still no stars
 
 
 
 
UPDATE!! THIS IS A LONG CHAPTER RIGHT?
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Cuatas4ever #1
Chapter 16: This story is amazing I sure do hope you can continue it :D :)
yoonfany_lover #2
Chapter 16: Omg... This story is very sweet... I hope u will continue this.. I will wait for the update =D
naznew #3
gomawo update...
I'm still curious about seohyun illness...
can u tell me about it?
Please update again...
supergenerations_25
#4
pleas update more author...
kekekeeke so excited...
supergenerations_25
#5
kyaahhh... so romantic and sweet kyu!!!!
please update again...
Kyuminyeong #6
Waaaah~ Its really good ! :-bd
jinnie #7
update soon plz
naznew #8
Gomawo update..
so lovely and warm heart chapter..
Its good no rejection from kyuhyun family..
Please update again..
icekyuream #9
i remember this title (cuz this my fav seokyu's fanfic), but i forgot the story D: i need to read again from 1st chap, i guess. Its quite long, finally you updating this :) hope u are okay..
jinnie #10
this update is so good! update soon plz