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Red Skys and Royal CardsSky’s locked up in her room and the rest of us are having a rough time adjusting. I don’t know what it is this time, but this is the worst I have felt when Tao has done this. I’ve never seen any of us this irritable and angry before; sure we are usually quite jumpy and don’t like to be around each other but never to this scale.
Not once have I seen us attacking each other because we couldn’t adjust. Baekhyun and I are normally the calm and collected ones when this happens, but even the two of us are having trouble controling ourselves.
I’ve come to believe that maybe it’s due to the fact that we can act as we please with Sky and not incur any major punishment like we did previously with our other Dealers. With Sky with don’t have to hold ourselves back and that I believe is what is causing us to let everything out that we haven’t been able to before.
It might have been best when we weren’t allowed to act this way, when we had to follow our Dealer’s orders or risk punishment. At least then we knew how to control ourselves better; right now our bodies are taking control not our minds and that is dangerous.
There’s a reason we don’t like when Tao does this. While it may not affect him it has serious consequences on the rest of us, when he does this it’s horrible that we are Warriors.
I have to be thankful though that this was starting to wear off on me. I can feel myself adjusting to the time every minute; it will only be a day before I will be back under control. But it will take longer for the others. They have a lot of built up resentment and anger that this is allowing them to burn off; and while that might be good, this isn’t the way to do it.
I was sitting in the kitchen when Tao walked past me. Tao was a major target right now, and while I do understand why he did this, I’m still not all to pleased with him. He could have at least done it far enough away where it didn’t end up affecting us. Go off the property, to a park even, just away from where it would have done this to us.
I have to say, it’s a damn good thing I have a lot of control. I’ve learned to control what I feel and how I express it. I can’t have myself overreacting with my Specialty; it’s dangerous to be out of control and I know that all to well. So while on the inside I want nothing more than to murder these idiots for causing such a mess, I’m doing nothing that might cause more problems in the future.
“Your shirt is frozen Tao.” I remarked to him as he pulled the orange juice out of the fridge.
“I’m aware of that Hyung.” He muttered. “You feeling any better yet? It’s been just over a day now.”
I sighed, “By tonight I’ll be fine, until then just stay away. You should know that none of us are in full control right now.”
Tao laughed darkly, “I know that very well Hyung. No one is letting me forget that.”
Of course we won’t let him forget that it’s partially his fault this is occurring. Sky may have said not to blame him but that’s rather hard when it is his doing that caused this. Under orders or not, we all know he had a choice with Sky and he made a dumb on.
He left not long later, I was once again left with my thoughts and the noise from the ruckus the others were causing. I have to wonder just how high everyone’s emotions are running because this is also rather fascinating. It’s different to see just how different we act when there is nothing holding us back. It’s intriguing to see so much emotion from the boys. They don’t know just what they are showing and I’ve come to learn quite a bit since this all started.
Baekhyun is harder to figure out since like me he isn’t showing much and is trying to get this to pass quicker; but he’s started to slip. While I may not be excused from these feelings, I’ve learned to identify them and accept them so they don’t bother me day to day.
Jealousy runs thick through this house. Far greater than I ever imagined. I can see it in all their faces as they look between each other. It’s also quite a sight to see the way they look at our Dealer, the emotions that hide in their eyes. I’m surprised so many of them have been hiding it so well.
But Sky hasn’t been around us much since this happened so I can’t look much more into it. It might all be a trick from this, but at least I know my own feelings, and no matter how dangerous and forbidden they are, they aren’t going anywhere anytime soon.
I sighed as I looked down at my hands again. One touch and I could kil
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