It was past 6 and I’m really trembling Hae was not here yet and I’m so nervous at the same time after I got there permission for Hae to visit and pay respect to them

Here I am standing at our gate waiting for him

I was walking back and forth  here in our garden, and always looking at my watch I already calling Hae but he didn’t pick it up, now I’m wondering what happen to him

Did he had accident going over here?,

or he will break his promise to show on time?

, or like he back out  on this family meeting?

Thinking all of this my head start to hurt and my heart to what if…..what if Hae will do one of those things I thinking

Oh mo! Oh please Hae don’t do this to me please!

Then I was shocked when all of a sudden

“Hyukkie! Hey Hyukkie!”

And I quickly turn my head where is that voice came from

Then it surprised me to see him smiling at me while his hands waving back at me

“hey Hyukkie, wont you open up this gate for me so I can hug you!” he said while still wearing those smile that always makes my heart skip beat fast

Then I quickly open the gate and he jump over me and hug me so tight

“I missed you! am I late? sorry, I just went out late in parlour well I just dyed my hair so your parents will have a good looked on me, hmmm did you like my new hairstyle baby? He asked after we pulled out in our hug

And looking at me him I just cant believe that he can be more handsome in this hairstyle, his hair color really suits to him

Well I also like his blonde hair colour before but his hair colour today was really stunning that I cant help but to just stare at him

“hey didn’t you like my hair? Oh crap I thought it too because this is my very first time I…….” he didn’t finish what he was going to say because my body just took over me

And I just kissed him passionately that I didn’t knew I could even do that, and when we broke up in our kissed

He looked at me with worried face and I know why because maybe he saw me tearing up

Yeah I’m crying right now not because I’m sad but because I felt really moved of what he have done I feel loved and special and Hae made me feel all this emotion that I felt for the very first time

“hey baby are you really crying?

Why?  Don’t you really like my hair style, oh No, I’m so sorry!” he said while wiping my tears in my cheeks

And before he would really think that I didn’t like it I hug him one more time

“Thank you! Thank you so much Hae, and I’m sorry!” I said while I keep on hugging him so tight because this all I can do for what he have done just for me

“Why you’re saying Thank you, then all of a sudden you said Sorry hmmm I’m confused baby, care to tell me why you’re saying all those things hmmm” he asked while he also hugging me like what I do to him right now!

“Sorry because you dyed your hair just for this meeting and I know you love your hair the most so I  feel really sorry for you in dyeing your hair just for me and,

Thank you! Because you did all this for me and I feel really loved by you, because of what you just did for me” after I said that, I felt like crying even more and hugged him tightly,

Then he pulled out in our hug, he held my chin and now I was looking straight in his beautiful eyes right now then he just said those words that makes me more tearing up

“Hyukkie! Don’t say sorry for this! yeah I love my hair, but I love you more than my hair, so if dyeing will really help me to looked good inyour parents I will not hesitate to this if this are for you baby,

 Because baby, I want to be looked good in front of your parents and looking good and making good impression are what important for me so I can love you freely with their blessing,

 so stop crying and saying sorry hmmm, you know I hate to see you cry right? So stop crying right now or else I will never hold back and take you home and make this night unforgettable for both of us so please baby stop crying okay!” I just smiled to him and he holds my hands

“okay baby lets go and make them see that I’m the only one for you, and let them see that I can really take good care of you ” he said again while holding my hands so tightly,

And me I was also holding him tightly so he will never let go of me and so do I,

After we get inside my parents is already in our sofa waiting for us,

Then Hae bowed and introduce himself while I was standing beside him making him feel that I will be there for him in every step we must take so my parents will allow us to love each other freely

“Good Evening Mr, and Mrs Lee, I’m Lee Donghae and I’m here for your son Lee Hyukaje, that I want your blessing to let me freely love your son that I truly cared and cherished the most in my life, I hope you will allow me to take care of Hyukjae and I will do anything just for him ”  Hae said

And I was shocked because he was straight forward in every word that he said to my parents, then my father spoke up that I was shocked even more

“Do you have a job? Are you financially stable? Can you support my son’s daily meal? Do you have apartment already? Are you ready to marry him right now?” after I heard that I just said

“APPA!” I shout at him because how the hell he comes up with those stupid questions and I hate the way he asked my boyfriend

“WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING LEE HYUKJAE! YOU’RE STILL IN MY HOUSE AND MY RULE IS NO ONE CAN SHOUT AT ME WHEN YOU ARE STILL LIVING IN MY ROOF! SO WHAT IS THAT SHOUTING THAT COMING IN YOUR MOUTH HUH HYUKJAE!”  he said and he even stand up so he can emphasized that he is the ruler in this ing house

 I was about to answer him back so he can know why am I shouting but Hae hold my wrist then

“I’m so Sorry Sir, Hyukjae didn’t mean it, please forgive him he just want to depend me I’m sorry Sir that I was the cause of your argument” Hae said and he even bowed 3 times that really broke my heart

“yeah you’re right young man you know my son never shout at me and this is the first time he did that to me and that is because of you, now answer me can you give all those things that I give to my son right now! And if you said yes,

 okay I will allow you to take my son and I will never be against in your relationship now

Lee Donghae

Can you provide all those things that I asked to you?”

my Dad said and hearing that I know what will be the result of this meeting that how I wished I shouldn’t even asked for the first place because it made my Hae hurt because of me

then all of a sudden Hae Kneel down and,

“I’m sorry Sir, because for now I’m not capable to provide all of that….” Hae didn’t finished his sentence because my Dad interrupt him

“then Why are you here showing up yourself and have this confident to asked permission for loving my son, go home and study and if you have all the things that I asked you then come back here and I will decide again for now Mr. Lee go home and don’t ever come near again to my son if you’re not ready to take responsibility for him !” my dad said then he walked out in our living room, leaving us still in our knee begging for their blessing

And I cant stand what I heard

“your asking to much Appa! I thought you loved me, I thought you will be happy seeing me happy with the guy that made me special and happy,

 You’re asking to many for my boyfriend, you’re asking things that is so unattainable,  as if we are going to get married and live on our own, we are just here to ask permission, or more on blessing,  so Hae can be my legal boyfriend and for you to know that I’m happy with the guy that cared for me,

But then, I don’t know why you became this rude, You know I’m always obeying you,  making you proud of me by giving good grades and be good son,

And now that I’m asking for this blessing, all I get was this, I didn’t know that my father was this greedy, and I’m so hurt that you made me feel like I cant loved someone because he cant stand the standard that you give to him,

And all I can feel right now is that you don’t want me to be happy! And I’m so hurt because you insult the person that I truly love the most!

And more importantly you made me realized today, that you’re just forcing yourself to accept who I am that you’re still ashamed that I’m gay,

That all those things you showed to me is all fake and you’re just pretending that you really accept me as gay!”

I never thought I will tell all those things to my Dad but I guess I just did it, after that I grab Hae and we leave my house

I just drag Hae in the middle of the night, and now here we are in the maple tree our nest of love

We just sit there and said nothing, I was really mad at what happen and I don’t like to go home at this state because if I end up seeing my father again I might said things that are worst in what I said awhile ago as I was reflecting on what happen in my house

Suddenly Hae hold my hand and he play his mp3 and he suddenly sing

Gwaen chan a jil geo ra go nan
Jam shi bbun il geo ra go nan
Shi gan i ji na myeon mu dyeo jil geo ra go
Geu reo ke mit go nan sa ra wan neun de

Ga ggeum eun seo tun pyo hyeon e
Geu dae reul a peu ge haet deon
Na ye geu mo seup deul i je neun jo geum ssik
Dal la jil geo ra yak sok hae yo
 

Cha gap deon bam do wae rop deon bam do
Eon je na nae gyeo te i sseon neun de
Geu daen eo di e

Geu dae man ba ra bol su it do rok
Geu dae man sa rang hal su it do rok
Nae mam i o jik neo e ge
O jik neol hyang hae ddwi go in neun geol
Sum eul swi neun geol

Na reul ba ra bon da myeon geu dae man na reul sa rang han da myeon
I se sang mu eot gwa do neol ba ggul su eob seo
Ji geum i reo ke nae pum e i sseo jwo
 

As I listen to his voice all my hatred and anger slowly disappear he sung like an angel that really makes my heart calm and happy

Eon je na geu reo ke man geu reo ke man i sseo jwo
I reo ke sa rang i ra sa rang i ra mal ha go
Eon je na geu reo ke man geu reo ka man u seo jwo
I reo ke haeng bo gi ra haeng bo gi ra mal ha go

Cha gap deon bam do wae rop deon bam do eon je na
Nae gyeo te i sseon neun de geu daen eo di e

Geu dae man ba ra bol su it do rok
Geu dae man sa rang hal su it do rok
Nae mam i o jik neo e ge
O jik neol hyang hae ddwi go in neun geol
Sum eul swi neun geol

Na reul ba ra bon da myeon geu dae man na reul sa rang han da myeon
I se sang mu eot gwa do neol ba ggul su eob seo
Ji geum i reo ke nae pum e i sseo jwo

Ddae ron him deul go ga ggeum ssik ji chil ddaen
Nun mul heul li myeo ddeo ol li deon ni mo seup woo
I je ya a ra yo
Nae ge bo yeo jun sa rang eul woo

Na reul ba ra bon da myeon geu dae man na reul sa rang han da myeon
I se sang mu eot gwa do neol ba ggul su eob seo
Ji geum i reo ke nae pum e i sseo jwo

Love Love Love, Love Love Love
I je neun geu dae reul nae ga deo geu dae reul
I’m gonna love you eon je na ji geum cheo reom
 

Hyukkie do you know the meaning of that song?” he suddenly asked after he serenade my heart my

“nope care to explain me baby!” I asked dearly while he I’m my head was on his shoulder

Well its all about how love and how we should love like no matter what, even if there is storm love will always makes it way for love to continue and makes us stronger

Even what comes in our way as long as we will be with each other and stay with each other

Love will prevails and makes us one and conquers all those hardship

So I just want you to know that even after this I will stay with you, I will always love and be here with you

That I will do all my best so your father will never be against to our relationship, but I want you to do something for me baby!” he said

“hmm what is it Hae? But please don’t take me on my house I’m not really ready to see my Dad after what he did to you and I’m really sad right now and all I want is to be here with you” I said and I clung to his arms like I don’t want to be separated to him

“I know baby your upset, but running from your home is not right! As much as I want you to be on my place I cant after what happen, I don’t think it’s right for you to runaway like this, besides I understand your Dad he just said that to make you realized that he was right and were wrong, ” Hae said and I was surprised of what he just said

“what do you mean? You actually thought that we shouldn’t be together is that what you’re trying to say huh Hae! I don’t understand you! My Dad actually insult you, and as far as I know all his conditions for him to give his permission is absurd I mean he actually know were just student

So how the hell he come up with those stupid condition for him to say yes! And now you’re saying his right that we should stop this and you be near from me, damn it Hae what’s wrong with you

Then you said awhile ago about fight about our love that we should conquer everything but now you’re saying completely different, from your explanation about love

What the hell Hae, are you really going to break up with me

Is that what you are trying to say? Damn it how could you” I shout at him and all my anger suddenly boast up that I want to punch him right now

“baby don’t be mad, listen to me I didn’t say I give up on you I just mean to say that maybe your father is right that we should…………” I didn’t let him finished his ign sentence or else I punch him hard

“ DONGHAE, I DON’T REALLY UNDERSTAND YOU SO IF YOU WANT TO BREAK UP THEN GO LETS BREAK UP, I SO TIRED AND I DON’T REALLY HAVE THE ENERGY TO ARGUE WITH YOU OKAY FINE, LETS BREAK UP, AND DON’T WORRY I WILL GO HOME BESIDES WHAT’S THE USED OF RUNNING AWAY IF THERE IS NO REASON FOR THAT,

I REALLY HATE YOU TO HELL LEE DOGNHAE, SO YEAH DON’T COME NEAR TO ME! WERE DONE!” I said and I run faster as I could because I don’t want to crying like an idiot in front of him

“HYUKKIE!!!!!! WAIT HYUKKIE!!!!!”

I still hear him calling me but I ignore him because I really hate him, how come he thinks that we should break up

Yeah I didn’t let him finish what he was going to say because in the end I know he will obey what my Dad want from us

And when I got home I was shocked to see my Dad waiting from me in the living room

I just ignore him and get on the stairs and locked myself in my room, then

“Hyukjae, let’s talk” he said and all I could say was

“No need Dad you win, we broke up, happy now! You should be because you won!” I said sarcastically and left him