The travel way back to my home is too quiet; and until now Hae was still carrying me in his back

And I can’t help but to feel so happy and so protected; and this piggyback meant a lot to me,

As he carry me I smell him and I cant help but to be  addicted to his smell that I want us to be like this  even forever,

“hey are you okay! Are you sleepy ?” he asked suddenly and I was awake in my fantasy; oh my I forgot that maybe I’m too heavy for him; and he feels now the weight and maybe he’s back is aching now

“oh I’m sorry you can put me down I know you’re tired I’m okay now Hae” I said and I feel so a shame that I forgot  my weight, because I’m too comfortable in his back gadh Hyukjae such a cluelees person

And when I tried to get down he tighten his grip on my knees

“what are you doing I’m okay Hyukkie I’m not tired besides this is all I can do for you, after what my ex did to you and this is all can to ease the pain she had caused to you,

and I’m so sorry Hyukkie” he said while he still carrying me and I feel that he was sincere on what he said

So I insisted to get down so I can face him and when I looked at him he’s head was down and he turn his head in the opposite direction of my face

So I held his chin and I was shocked that there are tears running in his cheeks and I swear seeing that breaks my heart,

“Hey Donghae why are you crying? Please stop crying it makes me sad and cry too” I said while wiping his tears gadh I didn’t know he was crying when he was talking to me I’m really such a clueless person

“come on! Hae why are you crying? I’m not mad at you! Come on baby tell me? And I bet its not all about what happen in the school right?” I asked

Then he looked at me while tears are still running to his cheeks damn it I feel so hurt when I see him like this for the first time

“I-I  just feel bad for what happen today, I didn’t knew that because of me your peaceful high school life would turn into this, I feel bad because your candidacy might not be in good terms because of me;

 And because of what I tell to everyone, will be another burden to you!; I was so stupid to declare my true feelings for you and because of that I know it will be a bad reputation in your candidacy…..damn it I’m really a burden to everyone” he said and he cry even harder

Oh my I didn’t know that Hae think of this that he feel that he was a burden to me oh mo!  my Hae is crying now because of me and cant help but to feel so happy because he was crying because of me, instead of thinking that he’s reputation is also been destroyed he was more concern about my reputation

Gadh I cant help but too fall madly in love with this person

So I just let my body do the works and then I found myself hugging him so tight,

“Shhhh…Hae don’t say that don’t put all the blame in yourself, besides I know this thing will happen because as a candidate in a competition I know everyone will  do anything so they can harass or makes someone be humiliated and so they can be on top,

But you despite of what happen today I feel so much joy in my heart that even if this thin gwill happen all over again I will never changed it because today day was the happiest day in my entire life!

You know why? ” I asked and then he looked at me and he turn his face left and right, I giggled at what he do he’s so cute at times and I like the way when he looked so clueless

“because in front of everybody you said that love me and that was the first time someone did that to me and so I feel so loved and accepted because of what you did!

so Hae….smile because I love you when you smile my fishy!” I said and in just a sec. he smiled that melt my heart

Then I was surprised he kiss my forehead and said “I love you so much monkey!” he said while smiling so bright at me

“I love you so much too fishy!” I said in return and he smile even more that really touch my heart,

So we walked again way to my home while holding hands and that moment is the best thing in my entire life that no matter what happen as long as I hold his hands I can be happy and contented

But as we know that happy ending really exist only in fairy tales,

when we got home I was shocked that my father was in our gate and I think he was waiting for me

And when we reached our gate while we still hold each other hands, I can see my father looked at our hands and I think Hae see so he first take away his hands on me

“Hyukjae why are you late and who’s this?” my father asked as he give dagger looked at my HAe

“Dad he’s my classmate and my special friend too” I said and I looked at HAe and he was smiling at me

“Good evening Sir I’m Lee Donghae nice to meet you Sir” he said and he bowed to my Dad and I’m so happy because the way he greet my Dad is so polite but,

“okay you can go home now Mr. Lee and thanks for sending my son! To our house” he said and he turned he’s back at HAe and I feel so a shame at what he did

“bye Hyukkie see you at school” he said and he wave his hand and he walk away and I know that looked he was sad

So I quickly get inside of our house to talk to my Dad seriously he was so disrespectful to my friend special to Hae I will not just stand and let this things pass

“Dad what is that? My friends greet you formally and yet you just talk to him disrespectful! Why Dad? He doesn’t do anything to you! , he’s my friend and special to me” I said as I feel my temper got raise and my heart is beating so fast

That I want to cry now!

“Hyukjae! I don’t like that boy, he’s not good for you! And I know what happen in the school your cousin just call and asked where are you, you know that I’m not against if you see someone, because we accept who you are and what you are,  but being with that boy is a big no!, I don’t like him he will just put you into trouble like what happen in the school; yeah I know what happen in the school, and that boy your cousin just tell me that he is a trouble maker and I don’t want you to be around with him, Hyukjae me and your Mum just want the best for you

You are my only son and I really want you to be safe that’s all, is that hard for me to asked for you?”  

“now I want you to promise me that you will stay away with that boy! Do you understand me Hyukjae!” he said firmly and I didn’t have the chance to defend my boyfriend because of what my Dad said

Yeah my family knows that I’m gay and accepting me specially my Dad meant really a lot to me because I know as a father who’s father can accept that your only son turned into a gay? and I know if he wasn’t my Dad I know he will not accept me, he will disown me for sire but my Dad is

Kind and loving father that he accepted me of who I am; with both hands without any conditions and he show that he love me so much and nothing’s change; so now I don’t know what to do

I love my Father very much, as I love Hae too, so what will I do!  what???