Its been a week since i dont answer all his call and txt msg the hell will i do that after what i heard, damn hearing it from him it felt like i was stab for so may times

and i dont wanna feel it again even though i always have this urge to answer all his call and txt msg but if i do what is the purpose of my brain if i will allow it again 

so i bury myself in preparation for the election of student council since i was a candidate for a student council president and because of that i forgot that it was late in the evening it was past 9 when i was walking down the street to my home

when i felt like someone was following me again and its been a week since i have this kind of stalker so i walk fast as i could, i feel my heart thumping through my chest i felt like was having a heart attack 

as i walk fast that person also do the same but this time its different its like there are another footstep who also followed me and i was started to pray for my life

and the fact that my ing house was too far from our school which makes me even scared so i immidiately run, that i never done before, 

i run fast as i could but it felt like i was running miles away that i couldnt see my ing house until i was in this narrow street which i dont know the hell wrong with me why i choose this path because now i'm having a hard time to run fast because i was banging through the ing wall

as i run i taste my tears and yeah i'm crying because i'm freaking scared because that ing stalker dont leave me alone until someone grab my arms and drag me in a dark place 

i was going to shout when that person cover my mouth and said

"shhhhh, quiet " he said

yeah i know he was a guy because he sounds like a guy

after 20 minutes or something he takes off his hand on my mouth then he drag me again out of the dark place until we reached a light post where i can feel my heart beat again in normal beat 

then he talks 

"you alright! gees that was close" he said 

then i find myself embracing my knight in shinning armor and cry like i was a freaking child who was lost because that person who save me was the person least i expected will come and save me from my worst nightmare

"hey...shhh... stop crying hyukkie your safe, please your making me worried are you alright? are you hurt? please tell me" he asked and all i could do was cry and cry

he help me to find a palce for me to calm down were now a park and sitting on a bench while he was still comforting me and after an hour i was kind of calm already while my head was rested on his shoulder

and after i realized i was beggining to be comfortable on his shoulder i decided to stand up and take my way to go home 

"hmmmm, thank you for saving me back there i really appreciated it thank you so much Hae, i dont know how will i repay you..." he cut my words by asking 

"you can repay me if you answer my question, 

why are you ignoring me, why you avoiding me, and 

dont you love me anymore?" he asked 

i paused for a moment to gather all my thoughts

"were not meant for each other, and i cant love you" i said and i felt like my stupid eyes are starting to be teary eyes again

"why you said that? i love you and i know you love me, so why are you saying that, did i do something wrong?" he asked again

and i felt like i cant breath on what he said hearing those words makes me want to believe that he trully meant that, but i know the truth so i must stop my heart for getting hurt again

"please stop saying you love me when i know you have someone in your heart, so stop making me believe in fairy tales because i'm not your princess and your not my prince so please stop, saying you love me even though you have someone in your heart that you probably didnt know it that you have still feeling for that person and you cant erase her in your heart" i said while i was crying in front of him 

and before i will be a pathetic ex lover crying infront of him i walk back on him 

then he grab my arms and gave me a

backhug, a hug that was so warm that i missed so much

"please, please dont go!, please i dont know where the hell you get the idea that i have someone i love

but please believe me that i trully love you, i really do, that you are the only person who won my heart and will always be the owner of my love for you " he said and i swear i felt my shoulder was kind of wet i dont want to be ridiculous but i think its his tears, and it breaks my heart knowing he was crying

he turn me around so he could see my face then he said

"hyukkie please, please believe me i love you with all my heart i never felt this kind of feeling to anyone, but when i met you it changed everything and i cant do anything about it i try to forget you and leaved you alone because i know your getting annoyed on my txt and calls but what can i do i cant control myself to stop loving you, so please believe me i'm begging you" he said i can see his sincerity on his eyes and i cant help but to fall for what he was saying

"i want to believe you, i want to love you but what am i supposed to do your saying you loved me, when even in your dreams you cant forget the girl you loved,.........i know you love tiffany, so how can i love you if you love her" i said and it feels like dying coming out on my mouth that he love another person

we fell silence after what i said 

"you love her, so go to her and forget me so i can forget you" i said then i started to walk when

"tiffany, yeah i loved her before, but why dont you beleive me for once that i trully loved you i dont know why you insist that i love her, but i can proved to you that

i love you and i will never stop loving you until you believe in me " 

"i dont know what to say, because right now all i feel is i cant trust you enough for me to love you, i'm sorry" i said and then i walk away from him and i know and i feel he was sad that we didnt make up or be back together

then something happen an incident that i will never forget and always treasured 

it was 2 days before the election and i was shocked to hear that my new rivalry for running as a student council president is no other than the girl i hated so much

and it was tiffany

but i'm not afraid nor threathen because tiffany is not smart and she's not fitted to be student council president, not like i want to insult her but as far as a student council is concern i know that student will vote

for a person who they think can be a responsible and dedicated president for the unversity not a person who is just famous to all boys but as well to other student

so i'm not threathen until something happen that i didnt see its coming nor i didnt know it will happen to me not in my wildest dream

i'm on my way to the faculty or teachers room when i passed by in the gym i was curious because all student was gathering 

and when i came there i was shocked that all student was staring like me like i done something wrong

then tiffany speak when are eyes meet

"oh the mistress was here, and oh by the way guys this person is such a who** that he can every guy he likes just to ease his urge to a guy.....watta a shame Lee"

"oh dont you dare to deny it because i know you and my boyfriend Lee Donghae was dating and that is because you seduce him you so you're not a good example to all student...so you better backout or dont show your face to us or might as well drop out is much better" she added 

and after hearing that i feel my knees were getting weak, and when i looked around i swear all the person who staring at me were like they were disgusted by just looking at me

i want to moved and get out of that place and crowd but i cant moved my body and i cant even breath

but i need to get out i forced my foot to step backward so i can runaway but when i take my step my knees betrayed me and i fell and no one was there to catch me 

so i closed my eyes and ready to fell on the ground when

someone held my amrs and he hug so tight 

i dont need to looked at the person who catch me and gave a hug because that hug was the most warm hug i felt and missed so much 

"dont cry, i'm here and i will protect you" he said

and after hearing that i cry so hard that i cant breath but at the same time i'm so safe by that hug

a hug that he can only provide, and that person is the only person i can feel the warmth of security, love i've always wanted

and that person is none other 

Lee Donghae.