I sat in the cool room watching the people around me.  'So many people' I thought without showing any expression on my face, something I learned from Kim Myungsoo back in our Infinite days.  The CEO cleared his throat and everyone was quiet 'Wow I wish people did that for me' I said to myself as I straightened up in my seat. "As you all know we are here to hear the new song that has been written for Kim Sunggyu.  I'm sure everyone will work hard to make sure that this new song is a success." he prompted as he sat down at the head of the table across from me.  Next the writter stood up with a bow to the CEO, my manager, myself, and the recording staff.  "Hello my name is Lee Hyunsoo and the song I have wrote is called 'Only Tears'.  It is written from the view point of a boy who knows that he is dangerous.  This song begs the girl to forgive him because he does not deserve her, he cannnot allow her to love him in case she gets hurt, and so he leaves her, and regrets it."  With that he bowed and sat back down.  My manager looked at me and said "I love the idea. It suits Sunggyu's image perfectly and I know he will greatly enjoy signing it and will put great feeling into it."  as he spoke I mused 'they are just going to take it even without my approval so why do I need to be here?'  The CEO smiled and clapped his hands

"Well that settles it then.  Sunggyu's new song will be 'Only Tears'" he smiled at me, I simply nodded with a small fake grin.  The writter hands me, and everyone else copies of the song and smiled kindly at us and said "Please be kind to my song" as if it was a living thing. 

I return to my condo and set the song on the glass coffee table and turn on the tv.  I turn it to the new drama that just premired, the one with Kim Myungsoo as the main role.  I smile sadly as Myungsoo's smiling face shows up in the opening and wonder how many former Infinite members are watching the show.  As the commericals run I mute the tv and turn to the peice of paper on my table.  "Let's see the crap they want me to sing now" I say out loud finally able to say what I want in the silence. 

"Only Tears" I read out loud with scorn in my voice.  I begin to read the words with disintrest I love you/ I'm sorry/ this won't work anymore "Lame" I mutter, however I continue to read: I don't even have the right to come near you anymore 'That's how I felt with Woohyun today' I thought Don't love me, I can't afford to give my heart anymore 'and there goes all the love thing again' I think Living harldy everyday, each day crying because it is too much 'Wow that's how I've been since we broke up' I don't have anything to give to you, I'm missing you, I can't even tell you warm words, I'm missing you, I can't even dare to hope, I'm missing you, Pushing you away like this, I'm a bad guy that only has a heart I stopped reading after that the words starting to swim in front of my eyes.  I look up as the tears begin to fall 'This is me' I think 'This is me now that the band is gone, now that they are gone' I look at the tv to see Myungsoo laughing in his drama and break down and weep