Jiyong POV

"It's almost a year maknae.....i still couldn't forget about you.....everything about you"

I sat down on the grass in front of his grave and wiped my tears which suddenly running. I don't know why i missed him so much. Last night I dreamed him. I called his name but he just smiled and looked happy. Maybe in his new life he will not wait me every night and disappointed when I broke the promise. "Yes...i hope you happy now"

Saw the picture on his grave made me want to cry again. His sweet smile who always be our vitamin, our mood, and our happiness. Off course I can't smile now. I need your smile. "Maknae....I missed you so much...."

I walked away to go home because it's nearly night. Bae was calling me every thirty minutes. I'm sure he worried about me. Since maknae passed away, we just have individual schedule and we didn't want Bigbang comeback. We agreed that without maknae no more Bigbang. 

YG hyungnim told me to make my comeback realized in next month. But I still didn't have any ideas for my new album. Because my inspiration was gone and without him i can do nothing. I need him to comeback so i can continue my life again, i can smile again, i can get my inspiration again, i can....i can.....but.... It's impossible. Yes it's impossible. 

I asked hyungnim to give me vacation to calm down my head before i work for my comeback. Fortunately he gave me a month and it made me happy. I want to spend the time to traveling to the place where my maknae and i usually go. He like to go to mountain or beach but i I prefer to go to mountain. Hope col