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Oppa ✘ Nappa ♥
Hanbyul's Pov.
You Are Too LowFor Me ♫ (Final):
*December*
Since that day, our conversation became as short as possible: "Hi" "hru?" "Whats new?" End.
He once came to my school, that was the first time I saw him close after 4 years but I trembled and went away so he doesn't see me, and after that I went back to my class just to find Bora crying, but no one knew why, she glared at me as soon as I entered with Hyeshin and Eunsang laughing. I guess something happened between her and luhan that day.
The day after, it was a day-off school. I was Chatting with Michiko, my vietnamese-japanese friend in facebook, I knew her for more than a year now, She used to call me Twinny and we were so close that I even wrote a fanfic about her, me and chiaki (her bestie) under the name Just my twin, (A.N: Check it out here part 1 and here Part 2 ^^)
We were talking about EXO and the latest news even though I was busy doing my homework, just when I was about to say goodbye to her, Luhan sent me a message: "Change your Avatar! It's not beautiful" He meant the picture of T-ara's Jiyeon.
"I don't have time for that" I replied.
"Please, please, please! I don't like it" he said as if he was my brother or something.
"I said I'm busy, I'll do it nextime" I refused.
"Plzzzz I love u" He suddenly said out of nowhere in french.
I would lie if I said I didn't like it, I swear I could hear my heart beats got faster for the first time in my life.
"What?" I wrote while my fingertips were quivering.
"I said I love you" He replied.
I didn't know what to do, the only person I found was Michiko I quickly wrote to her: "Michiko!! He confessed to me"
She didn't reply fast so I decided to write to luhan: "But how? I mean I can't" I casualy wrote withou checking my replies.
Just when michiko replied: "what? Who?"
"Him, Luhan, the boy I told you about" I then replied to michiko.
"Oh my god! ACCEPT" She answered.
"It's okay, let us be the first, would you go out with me?" I felt butterflies in my eyes, but the only thing that got to my mind was: my sisters and Bora. If I accepted I will be happy, and another girl will be hurted because of me and if I rejected I will be the one to get hurt but I won't gain a hater.
But which I didn't think about was Him… How will he feel? Will he get hurt?
"I'm sorry, I…" I stuttered even while writing not talking, I'm glad it was that way, if not, I would have weakened.
"Accept!!! U'll regret" Michiko wrote again, but it was already too late he messaged me: "I wasn't the one speaking, it was the girl in your profile picture, and also, I'll never ask you out don't worry, you're too LOW for me"
Reading that, tears formed in my eyes, I couldn't believe that, that was the first time I cry for someone… It was my heart who was crying out not my eyes.
"It's too late… " I told michiko who was up late just because of me, it was already 5 am in her country yet she stayed with me.
"He said that I'm too low gor him and he was just joking around" I added.
"What?....I'm sorry!" that was the only thing she said.
"Are you kidding me?" I tried to seem cool while writing to Luhan even though I was crying at that time.
"Haha!! How are you?" he changed the subject.
"You're getting in my nerves -_-" I replied.
"Haha! Just forget it, take it out of your mind and put it in your chair and sit on it, this way you'll forget it" He tried to cheer me up with his jokes.
"I'm already sitting!" I coldly said.
"Haha! Then forget it," he gave up.
"I gotta go now, see ya" I lied and put him offline because I knew I'd deteriorate more if I went further in the conversation.
"What should I do to make you feel better?" Michiko messaged me.
"Molla, just do anything tell me about you, school, EXO! Anything! " I replied while catching on my tears.
"here, Sehunie Buing Buing"She messgaed me with a video of Sehun doing buing buing,
and she didn't fail to make me smile, not just because it was sehun but because she CARED.
"Thank you twinny!" I replied.
"I'm sorry I can't make you smile,…Ah! Hanbyul! My mother is nagging at me to go sleep, let's chat later, okay? Goodnight" She texted me.
"Okay, good dreams" I replied.
The next day, I was as always chatting with Michiko, "today, I argued with Chiaki" She confessed.
"Really? Why? :o" I told her.
"She told me that My hanbyul's birthday is getting closer, so I said: No hanbyul's mine" She explained.
I couldn't keep my laughers: "Hahaha! Really??"
"Yes! She got angry and said: No, hanbyul's mine… we kept on doing that *No mine* until I said: "where Am in your heart?" Michiko messaged me.
"Haha! What did she say?" I texted her back.
"Nothing…The teacher entered then, she thought we were singing" She replied.
"Haha! Be mine of Infinite?" I answered.
"No! Tvxq's Please Be mine I know you're not a fan of them" She messaged me.
"Haha! Sorry" I appologized knowing that she's a big fan of them.
"Haha!! It's okay, I'll go sleep now, Goodnight" She texted me and I replied: "Okay, goodnight :* Sweet dreams of Lulu" (A.N: The real Luhan LOL, I know you'll confuse a little, sorry)
"Haha! You too dream of me and Lulu and chiaki" She replied before going offline.
Just then Chiaki showed up and said hello to me; They were the only two who made me feel better after what happened, their innocence and all.
"Hi! Haha I heard that you fought with michiko" I directly told her.
"No!!" She replied.
"Haha! About my birthday" I explained.
"Ahhh That!! she told you?"
"Yes!!" I replied.
"Are you okay? I mean about your lover?" michiko seemed to tell her about me and luhan.
"Mhm… Yes you can say so" I answered.
Just after I replied, I saw a statue : "Luhan in relation ship with Namjoo" Namjoo was a girl, a very pretty one.
"Chiaki… He is in a relationship with another girl" I told her.
"Oh my god!! Are you okay? : (( "She messaged me.
"I don't think so" I replied.
I didn't find myself just to put him as a brother, and he quickly accepted, I until now can't understand Why I did that.
That was the end of my first love's story, which didn't even start to end, we got back to the way we were the first time: Just a convenient friend or more likely Strangers. But this doesn't mean the end of my life I still have a lot of new challenges to face...
But more than that I lost one of the best friendships I ever got… Michiko, right now she assumes that she still loves me the same way as before, but I guess she only sees me as an annoying friend now, and for chiaki, she's so busy with studying that she doesn't even have the opportunity to use internet, and as I see our friendship will have the same conclusion as that, I made the final chapter as a special chapter for both of them.
I guess that I already forgot about him now, but it wasn't really that easy, the last time he came to my school, My heart didn't feel anything seeing him, I didn't panic nor did I tremble, simply I got over him.
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