I entered the bathroom and turned the shower on. The water was cold, but I don't mind. Now I can think.

My whole world fell apart. The incident changed my life. For a second I gave myself time to think about it, the tears started to flow. Every comment left on the articles said the same thing.

"Die!"

"Murderer!"

"Can you still smile shameless like before?"

I can't. That's what I wanted to say, but, those words. I knew they were right. I was a murdered.

I cried for at least two hours inside the bathroom. The members started to worry. I turned the shower off, and got dressed. Time to face the world. I didn't want to go. I wasn't ready yet, but of course no one asks.

So, I put a smile on my face and walked out pretending nothing was wrong. They looked at me and we pretended everything was ok. Because that was all we could do, pretend nothing was wrong.