She will never understand how i feel now. Neither understands how painful when watching the girl i love happily loving other girl who loves her. Confused much, huh? Whatever.. It's hurt.. But tell me again, why did my eyes couldn't leave her deadly beautiful feature? I'd tried to stop staring at her like this, i'd tried to make my eyeballs keep moving and looking for something else to staring at. But.. It seems like automatically my eyes will stop at her. Okay, she is really an eyesore, in different meaning. Maybe i should give up and-- Oh gosh! She is smiling! Very beautiful.. Just if those angel's smile was for me.. , i really have a bad luck. Why did i was this late for knowing her?! Aish.. Just if i was one year older, maybe i will meet her first and maybe i can have her as my lover. Maybe... Tch, she will never understand, never. What should i do with this crazy heart beat? I can't dump it away, i love her too much.. Just if-- AARGH!! Stop the 'just if', Pabo! Hhh... This all is her fault.. Why she must be that nice to me? Why she always protecting me? Why she always take care of me? Why she give this hope to me? And why... Why she just looking at me as her sister? Moreover.. Why Jiyeon-unnie MUST love her back?! Just if Jiyeon-unnie reject her proposal that time.. Maybe i have a chance.. Aish.. Am i--

"Ahreumie!!" her sweet voice somehow could breaks my thought. Quickly, i get up from my seat and approach her.

"Dae, Unnie?" i smiles, the most innocent one. No one allows get to know about how i feel all of this time. How painful i am, especially her. Then, Jiyeon-unnie pulls my hand and sit me between them gently.

"What are you doing alone there, Dongsaeng-ah?"

Nothing but stared at you, watched you. Curses this Jiyeon-unnie who sitting beside me now. "Urm.. Nothing.."

"Okay," Jiyeon-unnie smiles warmly at me. "Would you accompany Hwayoung for a while? I have schedule and manager oppa will come within a minute to pick me up.."

I flinch on my seat. Does she realize that she is talking to someone who loving her lover? Okay, everything is--

"Yeah~ Let's go now, Ahreumie~" Hwayoung-unnie holds my finger, pulls me out from our dorm. My gaze glues to our hand as a sharp knife stabs my heart rapidly. Everything becomes clearer in my vision now. My feeling is nothing, i am no one for her. Labelling as dongsaeng forever.

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Well this is so random since i still working on HwaYeon one-shot xD