Kai pov

I don’t know what to do..Seeing him crying make my heart hurt..Maybe this is the time for me to do something for him..Just like how he does to me before this..I approach youngmin and sit next to him on the floor..He looks at me with blank face but tears still flowing down.. I plug one of my earphones to his ear and smile to him

“What are you doing..?”

“Obviously to lend you my shoulder..Let me stay here with you....It’s terrible to cry alone..when we feel sad, we need someone to accompany us”, I recite his words to me a year ago while plugging one of my earphone in his right ear..He widen his already-big -eyes

“ohh..you are the one who crying at hospital emergency stair?”, youngmin said with amusing tone

“ne..so, you want to cry or not?”, both of them burst into laugh because of that silly question

Flashback

“Jongin-shi, we are sorry.. We already try our best..But seems God love your parent more than you do..”, doctor pat kai shoulder..It’s happen just one day after Kai debut as EXO..He thought he can celebrate and make his parent proud of him..But..World just too cruel to him..Kai wore his mask and run to emergency stair of hospital..Kai sit on the stair crying out loud..Screaming and shout to show how cruel the world to him..

Tap..Tap..Tap..Someone footstep can be heard climbing the stairs..Because kai wearing his mask, he didn’t scared be caught by fans or reporter..He ignores the presence of the owner of footstep but feels like someone sit beside him..He looks up and he sees blondie with fair and pale skin sit next to him while smiling to him

“What are you doing..?”, said kai to the blondie

“Obviously to lend my shoulder to you”, said the blondie..Kai stared at the blondie with anger

“Are you mocking me?”, said kai with cold tone

“Ani..It just.. It’s terrible to cry alone! When we feel sad, we need someone to accompany us..So just sit and cry”, said the blondie again

“Buyaa..How could I cry when you can hear me out”, said kai again..Instead of the blondie answer to kai, he just plug one of his earphone to kai’s ear

“Now, no more excuse..”

“This doesn’t play any sound!”, kai throw his tantrum

“Just pretend it has music..You want to cry or not?”, blondie ask silly question

“Buyaa..”, kai can’t deny the fact his tear already dry because of this blondie

“Why happen actually?”

“Why I need to tell the stranger?”, kai already recognize youngmin as one of boyfriend members but..Still..Tell his problem is not his thing

“Ok..Just in case you want a listener, I can be a good listener..Just like I said before, it’s hurt to cry alone..I know I’m just a stranger but..Hmm nothing”, said the blondie again..Kai put his head on blonde’s shoulder and start crying

“My parent gone..I thought I can show them something before they go.. I want to make them proud of me.. I’m always giving them headache and problem before this..And it’s really breaking my heart when I leave a bad memory only to them”, kai crying loud once again..The blonde pull kai into hug..He pats kai back and soothing with warm words

“Sshh..Don’t think like that..They still can see you from above.. They know how you doing..And no parent in this world going to disregard their own son..So, don’t ever think you leave a bad memory to them.. You should show them that you grow up as a good son..”, blonde warm hugs and warm words change everything.. He feels blessed and loved

Kring..kring..The blonde phone ringing

“Yah, where are you? I want my milk”, said the caller

“Ne..Arasso”

“You took forever!”

“Kwangmin r, I’ll come”, the call ended

“Mian for take your time”, said kai

“Ehh, ani.. I’m the one who make decision to stay with you..It’s not like you force me”

“You can go now”, said kai..But in his heart, he already screams ‘don’t go.. Don’t leave me’..But who he is to prevent the stranger go..They just met for 30 minutes

“Ok..Mianhne..But are you already okay now?”, ask blonde concern

“I’m okay now.. Thanks to you”

“I got to go.. Don’t cry anymore, okay?”, blondie smile to kai before leave kai on the cold stair

“I feel empty after he gone.. What’s wrong with me..? It’s hurt..Here..After you leave, jo youngmin”, mumbled kai while clutching his chest

Kring..kring..Kai phone ringing

“Kai! Are you okay? Where are you? We already heard the news.. We are sorry.. I will make preparation for funeral rites.. And members will pick you at hospital”, said exo’s manager

“Mmm..Ne, hyung”

After 1 month

“Hyung..Can I ask you something?”, said kai to his manager

“What is it?”

“I have met someone before this.. It just 30 minute.. But when he leaves me, I feel weird.. I feel empty.. I thought it just because of my parent..But it’s already 1 month.. I still feel the same..And when I look to his photo, I feel I want to cry for missing him.. What’s wrong with me? It just my delusion or what..”

“Hmm.. it’s not she but he? I never thought you going to fall for a guy, kai”

“What do you mean?”

“You like him..Or cruel statement, you fall in love with him”

“Andwei.. He’s a guy..And.. He just likes me.. An idol.. It can’t be..andwei3”

“Ohh? Who is he?”

“Hmm..Youngmin..Jo youngmin..From boyfriend”

“Boyfriend? I know their manager.. If you said Jo youngmin, I think he has twin in the same band..”

“Ya..I search about him..He in the same band with his twin..”

“Kai.. I know it’s hard for you to accept the fact you like a guy and you might gay.. But you think yourself.. Try look at back his photo and ask your heart, what do you feel and what do you want actually..Okay?”

“Mmm..Okay hyung..Can you hide this from everyone?”

“Of course”, kai bid goodbye with his manager and leave to confirm his feeling..and..he just found out that he really fall in love..

‘It’s burden when you know you fall in love..But its feel empty when you deny it’

End flashback

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HEY, i'm update again..i miss writing so i write a lot..ok, for those who have question, bewildered and confuse with my storyline, plot or anything, just msj me..im glad to help u take a tour in this story..i think some of confusion settle after i post this update..right? how kai ended up loving youngmin, its already clear, right? and for kai's fan and exo's fan,sorry for make kai's parent die..mian..its fanfic, so its ok, am i right?