I no longer have an account...

But already got haters(?) maybe....

This is not fanfiction.

This is just a simple conversation...

Still hesitate for posting this..

I hope everyone have similar opinion with me..

Anyway just take your own opinion that this is through face to face conversation or chat-
media or something … (:

Me = Me (Myself)

X = Jaechun ship/Yunjae-Antis

I make it simply

And straightforward..

Here we go…

X: Such a waste…

Me: About?

X: All you have posted…

Me: Is that so?

X: Come to your sense.. Think logically..

Me: …

X: It’s kinda… ‘OMG! They wore similar shirts! They gave us more hints! They’re real!’.
So If I accidentally use something similar with Siwon Super Junior so I destined to be couple
with him? Come on, this world is wide enough and find something almost similar is common
thing. They work in the same industry so is possible that they got same staff or Coordi Noona
that made their visual almost similar..

Me: Ah… So?

X: You’re so pathetic.. You’re missing what’s right in front of your nose! Why you still
believe in something unrealistic when something truth is already showed.

Me: What is that?

X: (Showed Yoochun-Jaejoong or Jaejoong-Yoochun newest photos and something like that)
Jaejoong said ‘Yoochun is my soulmate’, and years later, the younger says ‘Jaejoong is my
soulmate’. Also, have you ever attention that Changmin ever said ‘Jaejoong doesn’t share’
but then, Jaejoong ever said ‘Yoochun and I have an agreement: my things are his, and his
things are mine’?

And I wonder you know that… once, Jae dragged Yoochun to get AKTF tattoos… Same
tattoos.. In their body…

And did you notice, at the dome, they were supposed to have solo performances, but Jaejoong
literally ASKED management if they could perform as duo instead?

They wrote Hello Kitty love duet and sang it to EACH OTHER…

I pity you for missing this.. How they gave attraction to each other..

Have you noticed it? No, of course no, you are TOO OBSESSED with your own mind…

Me: Yes, I know…

X: And.. I wonder why Jaejoong choose Yoochun and Junsu over –You all said – his lovely
hubby? I think he would’ve stayed with Yunho if he’d loved him enough, no matter how
hard. Because it was IMPOSSIBLE for JYJ in the beginning – they were labeled everything
from greedy traitors to lying untalented hacks and they’re STILL, four years later, even after
winning the lawsuit, shunned by broadcasters and generally treated like in Korea even
though they literally sell out 150.000 tickets instantly-

And so does Yunho.

Why he stayed with SM although -we know all- that SM is actually treat their kids like that.

It will be more realistic if He follows his Boojae.. (If they were real I mean).

And just today, C-Jes management sent out a memo to fans saying only Jaejoong/JYJ-related
things will be allowed at the next fanmeet.

Guess why? Jaejoong’s getting ing fed up with this and he’s the mellowest about
fanservice. Rule number one fandom is ‘we don’t talk about other fandom’.

Me: Uhm…

X: Get your mind now?

Me: Is that all you want to say?

X: Not really…

Me: Ah, go on then..

X: … Wanna say something?

Me: May I?

X: Deny me?

Me: No… I just wanna ask something..

X: Ask then..

Me: Are you happy? Are you satisfied after said that to me?

X: ….

Me: Yes, you’re JaeChun or YooJae shipper… Of course you are happy.. You always get
something new about them… Your collection increase frequently, right after now, you
always get what you want… You have more thing to prove more about them..

Easily..

Picture that maybe you could get, upcoming story, upcoming event…

It gains time to time..

X: Dislike it?

Me: Why I have to?

X: So?

Me: Of course no need to against you… But…

X: What?

Me: Just let me enjoy the rest of their memories that I have…

Though only pieces and old..

X: ….

Me: You already got you want..

But I have nothing…

…..

This heart is suffered enough…

Trapped in pass time…

Isn’t that really pitiful?

I know it’s unable to post their new picture..

Though Yunjae ship have gathered paparazzi, followed them like crazy, sneaked to their
apartment, backstage.. I know it almost impossible..

The one we could do is just edited their photos, photoshop-ed their angle..

It hurts instead

X: I really pity you…

Me: Pitying me?

X: Ok ok, let’s me explain… In my opinion, when you’re shipping Yunjae, in this 2013,
I think you are NOT shipping them… You’re just shipping the manga characters with no
personalities, BLANK paper dolls you think look cute together!

Spamming about their histories, their words and actions, coupling them for no reasons,
showing up at airports with their coupling banners, screaming yunho’s name in JYJ
performances –and the opposite- , even hacking their account just to looking for proof or
something… you AREN’T showing them love!

Me: Can I say something?

X: What?

Me: I never showing Yunjae banner everywhere..

I never screaming Yunho’s name in JYJ performances

I never hacking their account…

I never making out some hoax or my own fairy-tale stories in my post

I just posted the real stories…

X: You said real?

So you have to ship Jaechun then… How can you skipping the real one? You keep believing
in something unrealistic..

See them right now! All five of them are happy, even after the split, because that HAPPENS
IN LIFE! You work and live with your friends and you love them and sometimes, they leave,
or you leave, and you move on because you only have one life and you can’t dwell on
forever. And sometimes you get back together and sometimes you don’t and ALL OF THAT
IS OKAY!

And maybe they accidentally run into each other in Japan next month and grab a beer and
giggle together… Talk about their next each other album or praise Yunho’s acting skill or
discuss about what album that suitable for Yoochun or something. WHO KNOWS?

It doesn’t matter. They had a lot of happy years together but that’s gone and THAT’S LIFE!

Come to your sense, maybe in the past, Yunho and Jaejoong were attractive enough so SM
just coupled them and told them for more fanservice.. Signaled them for hug each other in
every single variety show…

That is the TRUTH… And that is their REAL life.

Me: Are you talking about truth right now?

So I think you don’t have to be Jaechun ship either..

Talking about real life… No one knows.

Yes, maybe they are happy right now, maybe they are talking together right now in
somewhere that never we expected, even maybe Yunho, or maybe Jaejoong and Yochun,
already have girlfriend.

We do not know.

Or everything about them is just settled up by management.

Or maybe the separation is also a script for make us heat more?

Maybe SM and C-Jes made an agreement and made everything looks so real?

No one knows about the REAL or TRUTH.

No one…

X: So… For standing in Yunjae ship.. I really hope you could wake up soon..

Me: So do I… You’re in Jaechun stand right now.. I also pity you..

X: Why? This is more acceptable anyway…

Me: (Knowing that ‘X’ is Yunjae ship in the past) No… You aren’t truly shipping them..

X: What do you mean?

Me: You’re afraid to hurt more..

You had felt the painful.

Too pain.

You are like me.. Like us.. I do not say that you also cried hard after their separation,
collapsed in disbelief when Yunjae was already split up.

But I believe, all fans feel this, although just a little.. Also If they are not shipping any couple
of them..

In past, when I was about to sleep, I prayed that morning would coming soon..

I hoped wake up early…

Couldn’t wait for watch them… Couldn’t wait get news about them…

But recently, that was changed.

In a whole day, I hope night would come faster…

Because what?

I don’t get what I want in reality..

I get it only in my dream..

So, I set myself on the moon

Not in the sun… anymore.

X: ….

Me: When morning comes, my body is awake.

I have to do my task.

We have to life well.

But the other of me is truly awake just in the night.

Right after I have slept….

And that is hard.

Sometimes I hope the morning wouldn’t come…

….

I know some people become depressed more.

Some people are more unrealistic and wilder.

Some people move to another fandom with full of anger.

Some people try to healing their pain with a lot of way.

But there are some people could stand and willingly wait.

X: …. It’s up to…

Me: Thank you anyway…. I know your purpose is good….

X: …

Me: I know you wanna life in better way.

But..

Let us be in our path..

You life in the whole day..

And I life when dawn comes..

….

I know you are trying to help me…

But let me..

Happy with the pieces memories that I have.. Let me hold this…

….

X: Are you really happy with this?

Me: Yes I am…

I hope you have read my first post in my blog…

….

In that time.. I were hurt so much..

I thought everything was gone… I have nothing left behind..

This heart was weak enough..

That was the hardest time though..

Some years of waiting…

And when they’ve back..

I gained some strength

Collected about them,

Again

Let everything starting over…

Let me be happy with that simple thing…

Maybe all people think all we do is pointless… Such a waste…

But that is the precious thing to me..

X: …

Me: Ah, I also thanks to you…

I’m not an over-excited fan that showing random things…

I agree with C-Jes anyway…

They have different path now…

I warmly accept TVXQ with two members and JYJ with three members.

….

Ah, when I know about the sesaeng yunjae fans are over exciting, doing random thing, even
following them around, obsessing them so damn much, hacking their personal account, I feel
so guilty instead.

I don’t know how to manage that thing..

And I hope with something you’ve share…

They will become better.. (:

Thank you…

X: … You said thanks to me?

Me: Yes… Really.. Thank you…

And with that, ‘X’ disappeared…

….

I can believe with what I’ve type..

Is it too dramatic?

….

I hope you get the meaning of this…

I really hesitate for posting this but I think I should…

Believe or not, I was tearing while typed this..

…

I don’t think I gave ‘X’ the best answer.

But I hope I didn’t make a wrong answer either…

In this moment, my eyes are swollen..

And I almost forget how long I’ve stare blankly in front of my laptop…

Believe what you believe…