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I lay in bed therapy room, watching the doctor who was checking me. Wait further instructions as to what I'm doing. Once finished, he told me to sit down. Looked at me with a smile.

"You'll be fine, if you do the treatment regularly and correctly" a lie, I know he's lying. All is not will be fine, this therapy is just nonsense. I'm not going to heal if doing this, this therapy is only allowed me to live a little longer. Yes, LITTLE longer.

"Oh, can you wait here? I had business while. I would call the nurse to take care of you" I nodded, smiling. Trying to be a good girl in front of him. When he wanted to open the door, I stop him.

"Doctor .... Can I ask you something?" He smiled again at me

"Yes, what?" I'm tried to set my breath, I know there's always the same answer to this stupid question. But, somehow I always ask this stupid question every day.

"Is ... is my father would visit me today? Or at least ask my condition?" I looked at him hopefully. Hope, there is another answer than no.

"Sorry kid, but no. Maybe he will visit you tomorrow?" Well, I always hear the same answer. No, he will not care about me anymore. No, not after my mother was dying and my father married again with another woman. Since then, as if he rarely pays attention to me. Or can I say he almost never pays attention to my condition. He had changed, changed to another person. I doubt if he's still my dad now? Even in my condition now, he did not care about me at all. Even he did not question my condition? What kind of father is he? Why did he treat me like this?

"Thank you" I said softly, looking at the doctor disappeared behind the door. Twenty minutes later I was laying lazily in therapy room bed, where is he? I was getting bored. What am I doing here? There is no point. I stood up and tiptoed out of the room. Opened the door slowly, look to the left and to the right. I almost did not see anyone except a guy who stood in silence in front of the therapy room. Staring at me while holding IV pole beside him. He has very small eyes, I smiled at him. As usual, trying to be a good girl in front of everyone. Soon he was smiling at me, hia eyes getting smaller. I tried not to laugh at him.

"No doctor or nurse here, right?" I asked, very quietly. I do not want anyone to see me. Well, except for the man in front of me. He looked around for a moment.

"I thought no, why?" I grinned.  However, a few moments later he chuckled. I raised my eyebrow. What was so funny?

"What are you laughing at?" I asked curtly.

"I'm sure, you must want to run away" my eyes widened, I ran at him and covered his mouth with my right hand. Put my index finger on my lips

"Sssttt ... do not tell anyone" he looked at me for a moment, as if thinking about something. Before in the end, he nodded slowly. I raised my eyebrows, I do not believe him. He trying to convince me, looking at me with a look - do I look like I'm lying? - And I seemed mesmerized by his eyes and briefly believed him. How he could convince me that way?

"Good, thank you" I moved my hand from his mouth, I do not want to make him die out of breath. I took two of lollipops in my pocket. I always bring a couple of lollipops with me, Yeah you could say I liked the sweet thing called lollipops. I unwrapped one of the lollipops. While the other one I gave to the guy in front of me. Weird, I never gave one of my lollipops to other people, besides my mother.

“As a thank you” I said, and started to walk away while eating my lollipop with a smile on my face. However, only some of the time I left the small-eyed boy called me, and if I can add that he also has the chubby cheeks. I really want to pinch his cheeks when I saw him, how can there is someone with a very cute face?

"Wait!" I heard him calling me from a distance. I turned around and saw him walking while carrying his IV pole. I looked at him innocently? I could say that.

"Your name, what's your name?" he asked me

“My name Eunyoung, but I prefer to be called Amber" I said, biting my lollipop, hold myself so as not to run to him and hug him, can I hug him now? He is very cute, or can he be my pet? Ah, it was impossible, he's human. I could say now we are in a state of quiet, no one spoke. We just looked at each other. I kept biting my lollipops, sunshine through the window beside us. Making his small eyes look shiny. Can I hug him right now? Not yet? Ah ... damn. I was silent while holding myself to do strange things. I felt a little warm from the sun through the window next to me. I never felt warm, like a dead body. Very cold, though there are no signs of life inside my body. I do not know why. Maybe this is not an awkward situation? Is not it? Or just me who thinks like that? Why am I asking too much? Anyone can explain it?

"Ms. Eunyoung! Wait ... you must finish your therapy!" ARGH! I saw him turn toward the nurse who called me. I started to panic. He looked back at me while raised an eyebrow, as if to ask what was wrong. Stupid, why are you looking at me with that face? Without thinking much, I ran to the elevator. I still hear the sound of footsteps behind me, wait why do I feel there is something strange? Up front of the elevator, I pressed the button for the elevator with very hard. Hope the door was open. A few moments later the door opened. I immediately entered into. Leaving the nurse who comes after me left behind when the elevator doors closed. I took my lollipop out of my mouth, I was slightly relieved.

"Thank god, you saved me" I prayed, and quickly pressed the button for the first floor. Hope the nurse did not find me there. Well, maybe she'll find me there, but at least I got away from her for a while. Nurses, doctors, medicines, injections... only that I saw every day. I was lucky not to see a scalpel. If I'm not sick, I would not be here. And if my mom and my dad....

"Why did you pull me?" I snapped out of my thoughts and feeling a little surprised. I turned to my side and found him. Wait, I am the one who pull him over here? Why did I not realize that? I hold myself to not smile stupidly at him. Why am I so stupid?

"I do not know" I shook my head and looked at him

"I forget, what's your name?" I asked, yes I just realized I do not know the name of this small-eyed boy

"Uh ... my name is Kim MinSeok" he replied, then smiled sweetly at me. I could have diabetes if I saw his smile again. I still can not hug him? Why? I felt there was something strange, but what? After that we were just silent. I do not know what I should talk to him. We’ve known each other a few minutes ago right? I felt my heart pounding. I bite my lollipop, until unconsciously, lollipops in my hand has been exhausted, really? Somehow, there was something that made me a bit comfortable. But I do not know what it is, weird right?

DING... and unknowingly we have reached the first floor. But, all of a sudden I was pulled out by him. I was very surprised, since when? Why did I not notice? Am I the one who holding his hand at first? Duh... Why I'm so stupid. I did not even realize it. I stared at him for a moment. Then he turned, I looked straight into his eyes. I noticed there was something there, something warm.

"Sorry ..." I said slowly, feeling a little awkward

"Sorry? For what?" he said half-joking, he is not angry?

"I do not know about this" I raised our hands are holding on to each other. I felt a little comfortable, feeling a little warmth in my heart. I feel calm, safe, and out of nowhere all the feelings come.

"Never mind, do not worry about it. I feel happier if we like this" what did he say? I instantly feeling my face heat up. I heard Minseok laughed softly, do I look stupid now?

"I'm bored, let's take a walk. I'm fed up with all the smells of medicines here" he said, holding my hand tightly. I like this feeling, feeling what has been so long I do not feel in my heart. My heart may have been frozen since a few years ago, but whether it will melt again? Or whether it will remain frozen in me forever? I do not know what the answer is. I just hope I do not freeze with my heart. I walked beside him, some times look up to him. Just to convince, what exactly I feel.

"Amber ..." he called me slowly

"Hmm ...." I just mumble

"What are you doing here? I mean, I see you out of the therapy room a few minutes ago. What are you doing there?" I smiled bitterly

"I do not know ... what I know is to do therapy every day so I can live longer. what's that? Was not in the end I was going to die?" I smiled with the same smile, the smile I always force. No happiness at all behind my smile, there is only pain.

"But you do not like sick people, you look fine” he replied innocently. Duh what was he thinking? I pushed his head with my index finger. Is there anyone there in his brain?

"Am I had to lay in bed and use the infusion so that I look like a sick person?" He nodded, wait what?

"You’re a fool ..." I then walked away from him. But after a while I smile, he's a good kid. I could feel warmth in my body which is very cold. He is like the sun, while I was the ice. Is the sun could make an ice melts? I do not know. I felt there was something strange, I looked into the blue sky. It’s a sunny day, I felt there was something on my lips. I wiped the tip of my lips, I found there was blood there. This happened again. I immediately remove the blood. No, I'm not weak, I can not be sick. I looked back at the sky, the sun blinding my eyes, I was blocking my eyes with my hands full of blood. The sun shining between my little fingers. Did you saw me? Mom, do you still remember me? I felt my vision blurred and finally became dark. After that I do not remember anything, when I woke up I was already in a hospital bed. I sighed, I noticed a small table next to my bed. There several medications. Do I have to take it? I sat beside my bed, staring at it for a few minutes. There is nothing that comes to my minds. I moved my left hand to take the medications that have been placed on a blue plastic cup. I poured all of the medications to the floor and stepped on it one by one until it destroyed. Stared blankly toward the medication. I lay back on my bed and closed my whole body with a thick blanket. I tried to close my eyes.

"I miss you mom ..." I said under my blanket. A few days later I and Minseok become friends. He was the first thing I look for when I woke up from my sleep. He gladly helped me escape from the therapy room. I seemed to find a spirit to stay alive, find a reason why I woke up from my sleep. But I'm still not sure, whether the sun had melted the ice? I'm still not sure about it. I still have doubts, for whatever reason. Two days after we met he was out of the hospital. I think it was the last day we saw each other. But no. He continued to visit me almost every day. Make me not feel emptiness inside me. I lay in bed, play with my small fingers. Why did he not come? I was bored here. I heard footsteps outside my room, I quickly closed my eyes. Pretend to be asleep. I peeked out of the corner of my eye, someone came. Minseok ... I immediately closed my eyes again. Heard his footsteps getting closer towards me. I'm sure he was there next to my bed now. I slowly opened my eyes. Only to find Minseok smiled sweetly at me.

"What are you doing here?" I said sharply, I was not really mad at him I'm just a little upset. Uhm... Does it sound the same?

"I know you're mad at me, but look what I brought for you" he showed some roses and two lollipops!! he really knows what my weakness, there is no need for me to resist.

"You think I'd forgive you if you give me this?" I said, stifling my laughter. But, in the end I'm still smiling

"Well, I'll forgive you" I immediately took a bunch of flowers and lollipops he brought. Long enough, we know each other. Time goes so fast for me. Feel myself growing weaker and my condition worsened. My face was pale and you could see the dark circles under my eyes. I always felt comfortable around him. He scrambles my hair gently. I let his hand touch my hair. Feel the warmth in my heart. Now I'm sure the ice has finally succumbed to the sun and let itself melt. I feel like I am not alone, but still there is room in my heart that still makes me feel lonely even though I was near Minseok. I have told you, if my father had not visited until now, right? No, he's not my father anymore, I do not think of him as my father.

"oppa ..." I called him slowly, I do not want to think about my family. I do not have any family except my mother who had died

"Ne?" he answered, he looked a little surprised. Placing the flowers and the lollipop on the side of my bed.

"Let's take a walk" I feel a little depressed, and maybe get some fresh air can make myself a little better.

"But ..." I know he's going to forbid me, he was being a little exaggerated after a couple of days ago I passed out with blood coming out of my mouth. I then looked at him with puppy eyes, hope this will work. And I think I succeeded, he then nodded his head slowly. up in the park, I think I'll feel better. But my attention was diverted by a small child walking with his father. They look very happy. I thought for a moment, I want to be like the child. But I know it is impossible.

"The child was lucky, she had a father who cares about her" I smiled bitterly, full of sadness smile

"Stop doing that" I do not care what is said by Minseok. Pretending not to hear his words earlier. I just quietly lost in my world for a while.

"I ... I miss my parents, my house ...” I’m still bitterly smile, I held my tears. But I could not, and finally I felt the drop of water falling from my eyes. I do not have a mind to wipe the tears. I can not think right now. Lost in sadness and loneliness, feel pain in my heart. Minseok hugged me, took me in his warm arms. I hit his chest slowly, hold pain in my heart.

"Do they hate me? Why they seemed threw me in here?" I said with a sob, my parents are now... No I do not have parents anymore. They hate me

"They do not hate you, I know for sure your parents love you" I know he's lying

"You lie ... they hate me" I still hit him slowly, feeling the sadness in my soul. He held my hand, prevents me to hit him again. But I've been eaten by my sadness.

"Stop" I do not care what he said, sadness enveloped me.

"I told you to stop" he raised his voice, makes me a little surprised and finally stopped hit him. I know I'm wrong, I let myself feel a little calm and let my brain to think properly.

"Even if they hate you, but I will never hate you! And even though your parents not on your side, but I'm always there beside you. I will make you happy, even if I have to hurt. I will protect you with all my life" I felt there was a little light in the darkness in my heart. He let go of his hand holding my hand to hit him earlier. Then wipe my tears roughly with the back of my hand. I looked up at him, saw his face clearly. I smiled. He wiped the remnants of tears on my cheek with his thumb.

"I'm sorry ..." I said, I know he was always trying to protect me. He was my protector, he was always there for me. Make my day be colorful, but still there is a side stored deep in my heart that will always be a bad memory for me. But he nodded his head, if he was not mad at me?

"You do not need to apologize. I would have done the same thing if I were you" I smiled, he knows how to make me feel calm when I'm down.

"I do not need anyone, as long as you're always on my side" I said, I saw his cheeks flushed. I felt there is the instinct in me that I could not prevent. With that I close my eyes my face came close towards him. Whether I'm right, if doing this? I do not know. I do not even know what made me do this. Quickly our lips touching. My lips felt warm, I let myself melt because of it. I've been too long to freeze, do not let anyone go in to melt my heart. Maybe this time I should let Minseok to make me melt if I refreeze. Being the old me, without heartfelt smile. Every expression that I always make to make people around me feels comfortable with my presence.  I felt his hand move and started to hug me, making no distance between us. His body felt warm. I know I'm not going to make him warm with my body. But I felt something else, whether only I feel it? I think not. He pushed me gently, he felt it. I know. He looked at me in surprise. I hope this is not what I think, no. not at this particular time, please. I realized that there was a red liquid on Minseok lips. No, this has happened I can not do anything else. He touched his lips, he looked more surprised. He stared at me, then began to remove the red liquid coming out of my mouth. I laughed, did not want him to worry about this. I had too much trouble him.

"It is my lipstick?" Minseok shook his head, I knew he was very worried about me. I still laugh, even though I know this will not make things better.

"Weird ... why I never remember if I ever wear lipstick” I still laugh, but this time with the grain tears out of my eyes. He was still wiping the blood coming out of my mouth. It was as if the blood would not stop coming out of me. Can the blood stay in my body? I could not support my body anymore to stand up, I passed out.

I woke up in the moment the doctor came out of my room, I tried to sit. I heard the doctor and Minseok, outside my room. I realize now, if a melting ice stay with the sun, the ice will evaporate. Disappear in the thin air. Whether I would evaporate and disappear? I saw Minseok entered into my room, he smiled.

"I do not want to look like this in front of you, I look so weak" he took a chair and sat next to my bed. He then holds my hand and kissed my hand slowly. If I was with him whether I will slowly evaporate?

"You'll be fine ... trust me. You're a strong person” he smiled, I knew he was trying very hard to make things look fine. I did not want to make him more worried. I nodded and smiled, though I know I will not be fine.

"Go to sleep, you need a lot of rest" He slowly made ​​me lie down on my bed. I looked at him, staring straight towards his eyes. looking for something in there, I saw there is warmth, sincerity, worries, love, and lies ... I know he was lying to me. I close my eyes, I quickly fell asleep. I know the ice and the sun can not be together in the end. This time I realized that I would end up the same as the ice that evaporates. When I woke up, it was night. I still feel Minseok hand holding my hand. Could he be afraid to lose me?

"Are you awake?" I did not dare look at him for a moment. I stared out the window at the side of me, a memory flashed in my head.

"oppa ... Can I ask you something?" I turned to look at him, look at him without a clear expression.

"Whatever you ask for ... whatever" he said, makes me a little happy.

"Can you take me to the beach?" I want to get there, remember the place where I always with my mom and dad. Although now it's all just a memory.

"Okay ... but promise, do not do stupid things” I smiled. We take the night buses, just a few people there. I sat near the window, I just stared out the window. See Seoul city at night. Minseok carried me off the bus. I was too weak to walk with my legs. On the beach there is no one there. I feel the evening breeze started hitting us. Make me feel a little cold, but Minseok keep walking down the beach as he carried me on his back.

"oppa ... are you not tired?" I asked from behind his back.

"No ... I'll be strong when you're beside me" I laughed softly, his words made ​​me blush.

"Liar" I chuckled

"I'm not lying, I swear" He tried to convince me with his words. This time I know he did not lie to me. He always tried hard to protect me.

"Do you have a wish?" I asked, I do not want us to stop talking. I do not know why

"Yes, I have"

"What is your wish?" I asked with a slight smile, enjoying the moments.

"I want forever with you" for some reason, I felt my heart being sick, my chest hurt.

"What about you, what is your wish?" he asked turning to me. I find it hard to breathe, do I will soon evaporate?

"My wishes?" I tried to laugh softly.

"I just want to live longer ... so that can realize your wish" This time the words were out without me knowing. Felt my chest sicker. I find it more and more difficult to breathe. I tried hard to stay with him. But I can not. I started to cry and sob, this pain makes me miserable. I want to end it right now, but it also means I have to leave Minseeok. I figured I can not be with him. I ... I love him. If it's too late to love someone now?

"oppa, saranghae"I know it's too late to say it, but better late than not at all. And I think this time he did not need to protect me, because I will not be a burden anymore.

"nado ...." I'm so happy right now. He trembled as he said it, I closed my eyes. I had to let go of him. I would not be with him. I should say thank you to him for protecting me. However, it looks like this time I could not say. I think it's time I will evaporate, and disappeared in the cold air. Leaving Minseok, people who make me, can survive this far. Thank you...

THE END

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