Stop it. You look pathetic. My mind has been telling me that but I can't stop myself from crying.

I can just imagine what I look like right now. Crying in the rain, hiding behind a big old withered leafless tree. My white dress soaked and dirty as I sat numbly on the muddy soil. Hugging my knees with my arms, bowing my head while trying -- and failing -- to control my sobs. I'm like a drenched homeless puppy. No, I'm worse than that. I'm a hopeless brokenhearted human.

Yup. I really do look pathetic.

The thing is, though I know I look pathetic and I do feel pathetic, I can not hold on to my emotions. I feel like my heart is pierced by something sharp. The part of my chest, where my heart is, hurts so much that I think it bleeds and I can't breathe because of it. No. No physical harm done. Physically fine but emotionally torn. Who should I blame anyway?

Babo (Stupid). You know who.

Yeah, I know. It's Seo Joo Hyun's fault.