The words lingered on my lips for just a little while longer. "He doesn't deserve everything he gets Jan Di. I understand, you love him, but I know you love me too." Tears rolled down my cheeks, this wasn't the first time I'd confessed to her. I'd expressed my love in so many ways, I wasn't telling her something that she didn't know. But this time, it would be my last. It was all becoming too difficult. Jun Pyo had said before he left that f4 couldn't last forever, but that he would "try his hardest", so what was keeping me here?  I had bigger and better prospects, I was a successful junior doctor and Busan was requesting my Seoul hospital to let me work over there. I knew that Jan Di wouldn't say what I wanted to hear, I know she wouldn't say "I love you too" or "Jun Pyo isn't that great", so I thought I'd let her know what I felt - and then finally I could go. I don't even know wh- 

"I know." My heart stopped at her reply. I couldn't fully comprehend the words, but I knew she wasn't saying her usual "I'm sorry sunbae". 

"I know it all. And Yi Jung told me what he said about f4... Jun Pyo knows what you mean to me. I know he's making an effort to distance me. And does he know how I've been affected through this all? My parents are poor, they've become ill over the past few months, I'm sure he would care if he bothered to call - but he hasn't. I need to think more Ji Hoo. But don't leave me alone, I don't need space I need reassurance." Her endless rant seeped through my mind. 

"Ji Hoo...  You, you said my name.."

"You're more than my sunbae, you're my lifeline." 

DON'T KILL ME PLEASE. So I'm so sorry for the short boring chapter, as well as having not updated in months/years/lifetimes
I'll update very soon!