i'm a fool !
What If
>>>Taeyeon p.o.v<<< its been a week since that incident. My heart breaks every time I think about it. Why did this happened ? We were happy few days before. So happy with our love confession. Both of us. But then he changed. I still remember for this past week, everything. Every single things. I still remember his behaviour changed, so fast. Like changing clothes. Started with that morning. He woke up felt a bit dizzy. Stared at me blankly. Not even smiled at me. Then he just walked past me. I thought to myself, where's my morning kiss. Like the other day. But today not even a peck on my forehead. I tried to understand him. Maybe he's tired or maybe he had a problem. I always assure myself with comfort word. I thought he will turned back to normal. But, god prove me that I was wrong. The next day until now he didn't come home. I called and texted him like thousand times, but useless. He never pick up or replied my call and text. And whenever we bump into each other in the company, he never laid his eyes even once on me. My heart shattered into pieces. He's like a stranger to me now. The story not stop there, yesterday I caught him staring blankly to the sky on SMent rooftop. After a few minutes watched him, I decided to approached him since he seemed not noticed my presence. I confront him. Asked him what been bothered him , but he just sighed and shakes his head. What hurt me was , he never laid his eyes on me. Not even once. Then, out of the blue, his phone rang. He smiled a bit before answered it then he leave me there. I was like-ouh, so you know how to press the green button and remember the way how to smile. My eyes began to watered. And little did I know, I cried there, alone. Omma , help me ! It's hurts !" Taeyeon-ah, your turn now" Yesung oppa called me to the recording studio. Today I'm going to record a song for a drama ost. If. I think that song is totally sad. For me I thought. For a pity soul like me. God, snap out of it Kim Taeyeon ! Focus ! As I entered the studio and get ready, the song composer start the song. I started ti get absorbed to the song.{ if, I were to go} should I go ?{ if , I were to get close to you } maybe not, we were close.{ what would you think? I don't have the courage } right I don't have the courage, after what you did.{ if, you were to go, if you were to leave } yeah , you'd leave me. You've leave me alone. There's no 'if' because you did leave me now. My eyes start to get watery. Aissh, you broke my heart oppa. It's hurts tremendously.{ I don't know how to send you away, it keep hanging in my mind } yeah, I don't know how to send you away, can I send you away? It's keep hanging in my mind.{ I know I am a fool , and can only watch you from afar, your heart may look away from me, and so we could even before strangers } yes , I know it. I am a fool. Now I just can look you from afar coz I'm afraid if get close to you I will make you go away from me. Yes, I know that I'm a fool, I'm hopeless, I'm useless. I just can cried when you leave me. Even if you didn't leave me for real yet. But I know we're become strangers. I'm a fool. As I'm being too absorbed in the song, suddenly, the song stop." Taeyeon, please pay your attention. Your note is everywhere! Start again!" Mr Shin, the composer yelled at me. I start to sing again, but after a few minutes, my tears start to burst out. My heart felt very weak." mianhae, I can't do it now. Please excuse me for awhile" I told them and then rushed out from the studio ,left them dumbfounded. I ran as fast as I can. My leg just stop when I reached the hallway near the dance practice room. I sat on the floor and bury my face in my hand. I let out all my tears there. As I wanted to let go all my sadness from my broken heart, why did you do this to me oppa ??! Wae ???! " miss, are you alright ?" a voice asked me. I looked up." omg, sunbaenim why are you crying ?"
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