Maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe it was all just a big lie, to remind him that he wasn't as lovable as he thought. But why? Why does life has to play such a big trick on him? He was just a normal human being. He wanted to love; wanted to be loved. He wanted to be able to listen to the steady beat of someone's heart, when he lowered his head on the chest of his lover. But there was no lover. No more.
It was just a j o k e. He never thought, that a person could lose his life because of that. It was an accident. Nothing more. But since then there was one thought, that never left his mind: "I am a murderer."

Now that he lost the person, his heart was beating for, he just doesn't want to move on. Choi Seunghyun. He quitted his work and locked himself up in his apartment. Sometimes he goes out to buy something too eat, but that doesn't happen very often. The truth, well the truth he wanted to believe in, was, that he was never going to be happy again. His smile died with h e r. His heart has become a big, fat lump of stone. Or ice. He doesn't feel the fluttering beat of it, when he's excited or angry anymore, because he has forgotten h o w to feel. How could he be able to become happy after years filled with pain and self allegations?

No one would ever be able to love him. Because no one is able to love a m o n s t e r. Right?